8:54am
I did the Vajrayogini protocol before sleeping and also here and there throughout the night
as I get up to pass urine and drink water about three times.
And another time I became quite wide awake and had a bit difficulty going back to sleep but I practiced not minding that as long as I have Vajrayogini to accompany me.
And I just let it be and then I dream that I'm in a building I think it's a school building.
I was walking around in the daytime and I was looking at the floor walking when I suddenly realized that this is like an early morning type of feeling.
A familiar feeling and whenever I have this familiar early morning feeling I can
just easily say okay it's time to have a lucid dream.
So with that I intended to be a lucid dream and I became lucid.
I clapped my hands and rub my hands.
And as I walked out the door of the building I went out and I was walking towards the school canteen.
And as I walked I touched the ground rub it and then I saw a tree on my left I went to grab the tree trunk and rub my hands up and down to keep lucidity going.
And I also looked and peered at my hands and then and I saw the texture of my skin and the color the background also became more crystallized and the world become clearer and sharper.
And I remember to peer at my hands continuously and also to rub and also to touch everything as I walked.
A school primary school boy walked past on my right from my right to the left he walked by and I grabbed him by the shoulders and touched him and could feel him clearly and that helped to increase the lucidity and maintain it as well.
I then reached the canteen and I was talking to myself and at that time I remembered I wanted to do mandala offering so I started to imagine a circular mandala in front of me.
I put both hands in front facing up and I tried to remember the details and somehow did not go through it.
I continued walking into the canteen and I saw there were people.
I think a few ladies selling kuih walking around selling cookies food walking around three Malay ladies I think.
And there were benches as well and tables.
And then there was a Malay small primary school student which is bald-headed and he walked past again from my right to the left and I followed him and touched his head and rubbed his head and I said very cute and in Malay I said very cute chomel and he walked away.
And then I asked the Malay lady in Bahasa Malaysia if all the answers in the exam were correct what should I give full marks.
And she like uh say no or something like that then I asked her then you are being very strict and she said yes also in Malay.
And then I sat down in front of her and stared at her in the face and she was quite
um top heavy but I ignored that for a while and then I heard sounds and dream faded.
My mistake was I did not keep my palms on my hands rubbing continuously.
If I had done that when the dream faded I could have re-entered the dream with my hands.
Also at the point where I want to manifest mandala I could not recall the details so I had to pause and think and I was afraid that when I did that the dream would collapse.
Maybe a solution to this is to is to rehearse during the day what I want to do in the dream.
Rehearsing during the day.
Another thing about the Malay lady sitting down.
When I saw that she was top heavy and had some feelings,
I could have transformed her, imagine her as Vajrayogini and use that as transformation
of the lust.
The things that I did right in this dream is to constantly touch objects
and then constantly rub my fingers & my hands together and then clap it.
And also avoid staring at any objects for too long. Just continue moving, looking everywhere & changing the object that I am looking at always.
And then also remember to always keep moving, keep walking, don't stop.
If you stop at one location too long the dream might collapse.
And I also remember to avoid looking straight up at the horizon.
There was one time I tried to look straight and I saw the entire interior of the canteen clearly but then, it was only a split second & then I looked back down again.
In this lucid dream I'm lying down on my left.
Another thing that I did right is that even though I can't sleep I don't mind as long as I have Vajrayogini to keep me company and I have devotion in her and I trust in her and surrender to her.
A point to note. After the dream faded I wanted initially to continue with to complete the sadhana but I fear that I better recall the dream because if I continue with the sadhana I will most probably forget a lot of the details of the dream so I instead chose to recall the dream while lying completely still and unmoving until I can get the details enough to do this recording.
Maybe when I finish this recording then I will do the sadhana and dedication and also gratitude for Vajrayogini.
So now I think I have established a new end-of-dream post-dream protocol.
The post-dream protocol is firstly, to remember your details of the dream
clearly as much as you can.
Rehearse, go through it again in your mind until you can remember
the details as best as you can.
And then secondly, while doing the recording of the dream,
mention the difficulties that you faced and the mistakes that you made in the dream
and how you should solve it in the future so that you can learn from the mistakes.
And then thirdly mention all the things you did right in the dream so that when you view this recording in the future you can reinforce those things and remember to do them again in future dreams.
And then finally, fourthly, when you finish everything recording then you do your complete whatever you did not do in the dream for example the sadhana and also the dedication of merits and also the gratitude and devotion prayers to Vajrayogini.
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