528-OB: Metta in outdoor market

6:48 am

I did the Sedona Method to relax and fall asleep.

Then I got up to drink water and pass urine.

After that, I couldn’t sleep for a long time, but it didn’t bother me.

I did releasing via the Sedona Method.

Then, towards the morning, I also had the intention to do an out-of-body experience.

At one moment, I felt it was the correct time. I had that familiar early-morning, not-enough-sleep kind of feeling. I said, “Let’s try this.”

Then I managed to enter a hazy state and felt my fingers rubbing.

I rubbed my hands together and felt the familiar rubbery sensation. I rubbed my face and torso. Then I think I rubbed the bed and my clothes.

I swung my feet over, put them on the floor of my bedroom, stood up, and walked away from the bed while rubbing the left curtain and the right mattress.

I walked towards the bedroom door. Everything was still dark.

I opened the bedroom door and could feel it clearly. I walked out into the dark living room and kept peering at my hands to try to bring in some light and color.

I walked around the living room like that. It was dark—I couldn’t see anything.

I said, “Clarity now,” several times, and heard my voice in the distant part of the living room.

As I continued peering at my palm, I began to see color—skin tone, brown texture. Then, beyond my hands, the world appeared.

I didn’t stare too long at my palm but alternated between both palms.

After the world appeared, the first thing I saw was that I was walking outdoors in the daytime, on a road.

There was a palm tree. I put my hands on the tree trunk and rubbed it up and down.

Then I went to a second palm tree and did the same thing.

This became a long journey walking around a town area. I met many people.

At one point, I remembered to do some chanting: “Namo tassa bhagavato arahato…”

It felt like being in a temple. There was a monk on the right-hand side, and he was about to close the temple. So I walked away back into the street.

There were many people—like an outdoor market area. I walked around, looking left and right.

At one point, I almost lost the dream state, but I tried to regain it, and the scene changed.

I found myself in a boarded-up area with many primary school boys—Malays, I think. They were wearing primary school uniforms: black shorts and white shirts.

Many of them were lying around lazily on the ground beside me and tried to touch me. I tried to avoid them.

I managed to climb over a wooden fence and onto the road.

The road looked grey and a bit watery, but it was solid.

I walked across to the other side. It was daytime. It was a big white road, like in a town area.

I wondered whether I was a Malay boy or another race.

I saw a reflective surface on a nearby wall, like a mirror, so I walked towards it and looked at my reflection.

I saw that I was a handsome young Chinese male wearing white shorts and a white shirt.

I stood there, then turned left. There was a Caucasian male walking on the right.

I continued walking straight towards another outdoor shopping area. There were stalls on both sides, with people selling things.

I felt there was some food particle in my mouth and wanted to push it out with my lips.

Then I remembered not to do that, because it might cause my physical body to wake up. I could feel my physical body in bed and reminded myself not to use physical movements—everything should be done mentally.

So I ignored it and continued walking.

I turned right and saw many people selling things.

I also did loving-kindness practice there. I remembered:

“May all beings be happy.
May all beings be free from suffering.”

As I did that, I put my palms together and looked at the people passing by.

There was a sick person on a stretcher being carried past. I put my palms together and looked at the person, thinking:

“May you be free from suffering.”

I continued walking and came across a girl sitting down, sewing. Beside her was her mother, who was larger in size.

I said, “This must be the mother.”

Both the mother and daughter looked up. I spoke to them.

The daughter said, “Yes, I am preparing to make money for school—for my education.”

Then I continued walking past them.

As I walked, I interacted with other people.

Then the dream faded.

 

527-LD: Floating in city

 

5:12 am:

I spontaneously became lucid in a dream and then continued to wrap my hands and try to keep the lucidity going.

I was flying around or floating around in the city area and flying above the road.

And I was flying up and down, up and down like that.

So I went round and round like that.

Eventually, the dream finished.

526-OB: Bright light in mirror

 

6.00 am

Earlier, I did the Buddho mindfulness breathing to try to fall asleep.
When I felt that the mind was too restless and agitated, I switched to mindfulness of mind states. I said, “This is a restless mind, an agitated mind,” and just remained mindful of the state of the mind.

I was in and out of several sleep cycles, and I had the intention of doing the exit technique. In one of the sleep cycles that I had just woken up from, I felt that I wanted to give it a try.

So I willed myself to enter the phase state and just relaxed without pushing too hard. I managed to have the experience of the early-morning type phase state.

I then tried to rub my fingers, and it worked. I rubbed my hands and felt a familiar rubbery sensation.

Then I swung my feet over the bed, put them on the floor of my bedroom, and stood up.

I then walked quickly to the main door of my bedroom, opened it, and felt the door clearly. Everything was still dark.

I then quickly walked into the living room of my N-Park condominium and opened the main door.

Then I felt something, and when I looked again, I was back in my bedroom, I think. I peered at my hands. Both palms of my hands became visible. I looked at the texture, and then light and color appeared. Then the world appeared. The light appeared.

I was in my bedroom, and in front of me there was a mirror. I could see my reflection in the mirror.

I was standing there and kept peering at my hands. The more I looked at my hands, the more the color and the light on the world appeared.

Eventually the light became clear.

I then did a bit of loving-kindness meditation and radiated it to the world. Then the dream faded.

525-OB: Hugging Darren in living room

 

6.43 am

I did the meditation: I am just the awareness that is observing everything, and everything that I feel, experience, or think of does not matter.

It helped me to fall asleep several times, and I had a good sleep.

Before going to sleep, I also had the intention that I would have an out-of-body experience.

Then, coming out of one of the sleeps, I had the idea that maybe I should try something. I remembered that I used to imagine starting a motor to induce an out-of-body experience because of the vibration of the motor.

So I imagined that I kept kick-starting the motor. When the motor started, there was the vibration of the engine. That caused me to enter the dream state.

The vibration.

I could feel the vibration in the body, and I entered the dream state.

I think I rubbed my hands and felt a familiar feeling, and also a loud vibration. The sensation deepened by itself while I was rubbing my hands, and it continued to deepen.

I was in the house, and I could hear Adrian and Darren in the other room in front.

I did Buddhist recitations. Then I did the radiation of loving-kindness to the surroundings, and to Darren.

I hugged Darren and wished him well with loving-kindness. I also wished loving-kindness to all beings.

While doing this, I walked around the room instead of keeping still. I walked towards the back, and at one point I thought of going to the other side of the wall, where there was a bright outdoor area.

But then I turned around, I thought that I should remain in the same room, because familiarity would strengthen and maintain the lucidity.

So I just walked around the room like that, looking at the walls.

After finishing the earlier recitations, I then did the Buddhist mantra:
Om Mani Padme Hum, Om Mani Padme Hum.

I walked around while chanting it.

As I was chanting Om Mani Padme Hum and walking around the room, the dream faded.

I initially wanted to re-enter the dream because I could still feel the vibration — the vibration in my hands and in the body.

524-OB: Floating verandah covered grass

9.31 am

I have been practicing Ajahn Lee's mindfulness of breathing all night long to fall asleep and to relax. The method involves being very, very gentle—trying to make the breathing pleasurable so that the mind naturally wants to feel the breath. And it really works every time.

Then I've been having so many dreams, in and out and in and out—so many dreams. Before going back into sleep, I set the intention that I want to have an out-of-body experience—that I will come out of the dream slowly and then try the exit technique.

And true enough, after having many dreams, I found myself in a proper hazy state of mind and tried to feel my fingers rubbing. I managed to rub my fingers and rub my palms together, then rub the mattress of the bed, swing my feet over, and stand up on the floor of my bedroom.

I then peered at my hands and walked forward, and the world appeared. I was outdoors in a shaded area. I touched every object that continued to appear with my hands and rubbed them. I also touched the ground and could feel it. At one point it became grass, and I touched the grass and pulled on it. I was also floating around. I touched the objects around me as much as I could.

There was a fence. I went near the fence while floating around. Then the dream faded.

But just before it faded, I remembered I was holding something—an object. A brick. A triangular brick. I could still faintly feel the brick in my hands. Then I focused on the feeling of the brick, and I re-entered the dream again—holding the brick—and I was walking around once more. I could feel my feet on the ground, stamping on the floor as I walked.

I spoke to myself: “This is a dream. I am dreaming. This is a dream.” And I could hear my voice.

I was looking through the fence, outdoors, toward the beyond. Again, I reached a pole—a metal pole. And again, the dream faded. But I could still faintly feel the metal pole in my hands—the coolness and the solidity.

Based on that sensation, I managed to re-enter the dream again. The trick is not to rush out and record, but instead to try to prolong and re-enter. And it works.

So I re-entered the dream again. I could feel the pole. I rubbed my hands and arms down, and it became real. The whole world appeared again. I kept telling myself, “This is a dream. I am lucid. This is a dream. I am lucid.”

Eventually, the dream faded again. And this time, I let it go.

 

523-OB: Road with pine trees

8.19 am

Earlier, I did the Buddho Breath Mindfulness Meditation to fall asleep. Then later, I switched to dream yoga, reminding myself that this is all a dream.

I then went into and out of several dreams successively, reminding myself that I would wake up slowly from a dream and try to do the exit technique.

In one of the dreams that I came out of, I tried to feel my fingers using the exit technique. And I… I managed to feel the familiar rubbery sensation. I rubbed the right-hand finger and let it develop further. Then I rubbed the left fingers and also managed to feel the rubbery sensations.

Then I… as the sensation increased, I rubbed both palms together and felt the rubbery sensation as well. Then I rubbed my forearms of both hands and then rubbed the mattress I’m lying on.

I swung my left leg over the bed and stood up. I put my feet on the ground, on the floor of my bedroom. Then I stood beside my bed, in my bedroom.

I then touched the objects around me and also continued to rub my hands together as I walked forward. Then I did peering. While walking forwards, I did peering. I peered at the palms of both hands, alternately left and right, and rubbed, then peered, and rubbed, and peered alternately.

As I did that, the colour of my skin, of my palms, materialised. I could see it. Then around me, the world changed. The world appeared with colour and light as well.

I found myself outdoors beside a road, surrounded by pine trees. It was like there was not much light, probably in a cold country.

Then on the left, there was… I continued to touch the ground and peered as well at my palms, rubbing, not keeping still, not staring at one object for too long.

Then on the left, there was some kind of shop and some people there. I approached it and asked a man wearing a black jacket, “What day is it?”

He talked, he mentioned something, but I did not understand. I then continued walking and continued rubbing my fingers, rubbing my palms together, and continued walking.

I thought, “Let’s do loving-kindness.” And then I immediately, spontaneously — Om Mani Padme Hum — came out of my mouth.

So I did the mantra, Om Mani Padme Hum, repeatedly, many times, and looked around. Then from my chest, my heart, I radiated loving-kindness to the entire world, to the surroundings, and also to the entire world.

I turned around and around doing this. I also imagined Avalokiteshvara and continued loving-kindness with Om Mani Padme Hum. I did this for some time.

Then I floated upwards and then downwards again, and walked on the road. As I walked, on the right-hand side of the road, I talked to myself a lot.

I love being in a lucid state, in a lucid dream like this, because I know that I’m dreaming — or something similar like that — as I walk forward. I could hear my voice clearly as I mentioned these words.

Then from a distance, there was a car coming towards me. I floated up above the car and wanted to touch the windscreen at the front of the car.

And then the dream faded.

 

522-OB: Buddho breath in bedroom

 

7.57 am

I did the breath “Buddho” meditation all night long to fall asleep. Somewhere in the middle of the night, while I was counting the breath with “Buddho,” I felt the vibration and the phase state spontaneously arising as I counted and breathed. I just let it develop.

As I continued counting the breath and repeating “Buddho,” the vibration eventually faded. Then, toward morning, I was still doing the same meditation and fell into a very deep, easy, fuzzy feeling.

I spontaneously felt my fingers rubbing and experienced the familiar rubbery sensations. So I continued rubbing my fingers and also touched the mattress, then intended to put my feet on the bedroom floor.

I stood up and managed to remain standing. I tried to touch the curtain and continued to feel the rubbery sensations. Then I tried to walk toward the bookshelf in my bedroom. And the dream faded.