525-OB: Hugging Darren in living room

 

6.43 am

I did the meditation: I am just the awareness that is observing everything, and everything that I feel, experience, or think of does not matter.

It helped me to fall asleep several times, and I had a good sleep.

Before going to sleep, I also had the intention that I would have an out-of-body experience.

Then, coming out of one of the sleeps, I had the idea that maybe I should try something. I remembered that I used to imagine starting a motor to induce an out-of-body experience because of the vibration of the motor.

So I imagined that I kept kick-starting the motor. When the motor started, there was the vibration of the engine. That caused me to enter the dream state.

The vibration.

I could feel the vibration in the body, and I entered the dream state.

I think I rubbed my hands and felt a familiar feeling, and also a loud vibration. The sensation deepened by itself while I was rubbing my hands, and it continued to deepen.

I was in the house, and I could hear Adrian and Darren in the other room in front.

I did Buddhist recitations. Then I did the radiation of loving-kindness to the surroundings, and to Darren.

I hugged Darren and wished him well with loving-kindness. I also wished loving-kindness to all beings.

While doing this, I walked around the room instead of keeping still. I walked towards the back, and at one point I thought of going to the other side of the wall, where there was a bright outdoor area.

But then I turned around, I thought that I should remain in the same room, because familiarity would strengthen and maintain the lucidity.

So I just walked around the room like that, looking at the walls.

After finishing the earlier recitations, I then did the Buddhist mantra:
Om Mani Padme Hum, Om Mani Padme Hum.

I walked around while chanting it.

As I was chanting Om Mani Padme Hum and walking around the room, the dream faded.

I initially wanted to re-enter the dream because I could still feel the vibration — the vibration in my hands and in the body.

524-OB: Floating verandah covered grass

9.31 am

I have been practicing Ajahn Lee's mindfulness of breathing all night long to fall asleep and to relax. The method involves being very, very gentle—trying to make the breathing pleasurable so that the mind naturally wants to feel the breath. And it really works every time.

Then I've been having so many dreams, in and out and in and out—so many dreams. Before going back into sleep, I set the intention that I want to have an out-of-body experience—that I will come out of the dream slowly and then try the exit technique.

And true enough, after having many dreams, I found myself in a proper hazy state of mind and tried to feel my fingers rubbing. I managed to rub my fingers and rub my palms together, then rub the mattress of the bed, swing my feet over, and stand up on the floor of my bedroom.

I then peered at my hands and walked forward, and the world appeared. I was outdoors in a shaded area. I touched every object that continued to appear with my hands and rubbed them. I also touched the ground and could feel it. At one point it became grass, and I touched the grass and pulled on it. I was also floating around. I touched the objects around me as much as I could.

There was a fence. I went near the fence while floating around. Then the dream faded.

But just before it faded, I remembered I was holding something—an object. A brick. A triangular brick. I could still faintly feel the brick in my hands. Then I focused on the feeling of the brick, and I re-entered the dream again—holding the brick—and I was walking around once more. I could feel my feet on the ground, stamping on the floor as I walked.

I spoke to myself: “This is a dream. I am dreaming. This is a dream.” And I could hear my voice.

I was looking through the fence, outdoors, toward the beyond. Again, I reached a pole—a metal pole. And again, the dream faded. But I could still faintly feel the metal pole in my hands—the coolness and the solidity.

Based on that sensation, I managed to re-enter the dream again. The trick is not to rush out and record, but instead to try to prolong and re-enter. And it works.

So I re-entered the dream again. I could feel the pole. I rubbed my hands and arms down, and it became real. The whole world appeared again. I kept telling myself, “This is a dream. I am lucid. This is a dream. I am lucid.”

Eventually, the dream faded again. And this time, I let it go.

 

523-OB: Road with pine trees

8.19 am

Earlier, I did the Buddho Breath Mindfulness Meditation to fall asleep. Then later, I switched to dream yoga, reminding myself that this is all a dream.

I then went into and out of several dreams successively, reminding myself that I would wake up slowly from a dream and try to do the exit technique.

In one of the dreams that I came out of, I tried to feel my fingers using the exit technique. And I… I managed to feel the familiar rubbery sensation. I rubbed the right-hand finger and let it develop further. Then I rubbed the left fingers and also managed to feel the rubbery sensations.

Then I… as the sensation increased, I rubbed both palms together and felt the rubbery sensation as well. Then I rubbed my forearms of both hands and then rubbed the mattress I’m lying on.

I swung my left leg over the bed and stood up. I put my feet on the ground, on the floor of my bedroom. Then I stood beside my bed, in my bedroom.

I then touched the objects around me and also continued to rub my hands together as I walked forward. Then I did peering. While walking forwards, I did peering. I peered at the palms of both hands, alternately left and right, and rubbed, then peered, and rubbed, and peered alternately.

As I did that, the colour of my skin, of my palms, materialised. I could see it. Then around me, the world changed. The world appeared with colour and light as well.

I found myself outdoors beside a road, surrounded by pine trees. It was like there was not much light, probably in a cold country.

Then on the left, there was… I continued to touch the ground and peered as well at my palms, rubbing, not keeping still, not staring at one object for too long.

Then on the left, there was some kind of shop and some people there. I approached it and asked a man wearing a black jacket, “What day is it?”

He talked, he mentioned something, but I did not understand. I then continued walking and continued rubbing my fingers, rubbing my palms together, and continued walking.

I thought, “Let’s do loving-kindness.” And then I immediately, spontaneously — Om Mani Padme Hum — came out of my mouth.

So I did the mantra, Om Mani Padme Hum, repeatedly, many times, and looked around. Then from my chest, my heart, I radiated loving-kindness to the entire world, to the surroundings, and also to the entire world.

I turned around and around doing this. I also imagined Avalokiteshvara and continued loving-kindness with Om Mani Padme Hum. I did this for some time.

Then I floated upwards and then downwards again, and walked on the road. As I walked, on the right-hand side of the road, I talked to myself a lot.

I love being in a lucid state, in a lucid dream like this, because I know that I’m dreaming — or something similar like that — as I walk forward. I could hear my voice clearly as I mentioned these words.

Then from a distance, there was a car coming towards me. I floated up above the car and wanted to touch the windscreen at the front of the car.

And then the dream faded.

 

522-OB: Buddho breath in bedroom

 

7.57 am

I did the breath “Buddho” meditation all night long to fall asleep. Somewhere in the middle of the night, while I was counting the breath with “Buddho,” I felt the vibration and the phase state spontaneously arising as I counted and breathed. I just let it develop.

As I continued counting the breath and repeating “Buddho,” the vibration eventually faded. Then, toward morning, I was still doing the same meditation and fell into a very deep, easy, fuzzy feeling.

I spontaneously felt my fingers rubbing and experienced the familiar rubbery sensations. So I continued rubbing my fingers and also touched the mattress, then intended to put my feet on the bedroom floor.

I stood up and managed to remain standing. I tried to touch the curtain and continued to feel the rubbery sensations. Then I tried to walk toward the bookshelf in my bedroom. And the dream faded.

521-LD:Wrong outdoor of house

 

6.52 am

During the day, I practice dream yoga, recognizing waking reality as the dream state.

I had a dream where I recognized the dream state.

My wife and I were conducting some business in a terrace house. After we concluded the business, we walked out the door. Instead of finding the usual expected scenery, we found something different. I think we expected to see our car or something like that. But instead, we walked out and saw a completely different scene.

Immediately, I recognized that we were in a dream and became lucid. WP panicked and walked across the road. It was already night.

I said, “Don’t run there. Come back here. I will tell you how to get out of this dream.”

I held her close to me and knew that everything would be fine. I kept still. I knew that we would somehow return to the other side of the outdoor area where it was supposed to be.

After a while, the dream faded, and I woke up.

So I actually recognized the dream state and managed to wake up.

520-OB-Touch walls walking to bedroom door

 

10.10 am

Lying on my left side, I was going in and out, in and out, of several dreams. Earlier, I had formed the intention that whenever I came out of a dream, I would come out slowly and not move — to keep still and exit the dream consciously.

This time, after coming out of a dream, I kept still and did not move. I tried to exit gently. I felt the phase state was there, and I managed to imagine rubbing my fingers. I then rubbed my fingers and heard a familiar rubbery sound.

I put my palms together and rubbed them, feeling the same rubbery sensation. I rubbed my forearms on both sides, then rubbed my face and my body. After that, I rubbed the mattress on my right and on my left. Then I confidently swung my feet over and placed them on the floor of my bedroom.

I stood up easily. I rubbed the left window, felt the curtains, and rubbed my bed on the right. I walked toward the bookshelf, then rubbed the floor of my bedroom and felt it clearly.

The objects were still a bit blurred, and I intended for them to become clearer. I probably should have done more peering. Instead, as I touched each object, I told myself what I was doing — touching the window, touching the bed, touching the floor.

I turned right and walked toward the bedroom door, continuing to rub objects along the way — the floor and the left wall. When I reached the bathroom, I touched the right side and then the left wall. Just as I was about to reach the door, I think I slipped into a kind of sleepy, dreamy state.

My mind became too drowsy, and I fell into sleep. There was a loss of lucidity, and the experience faded away.

519-LD: Taking selfie with wife in legal firm

 

10:05 am

I practised oneness to fall asleep.

I was working in a legal firm and Wai Peng also. I was sitting at a corner table.

It was a huge office, and on the right of my table was an artificial grass patch.

I read the newspaper, Times, to understand some legal terminology.

And I put the paper on the grass, and then it was time to go for lunch.

And the back door opened, and there was a beautiful, long corridor of outdoors.

It was very surreal, and I was with Wai Peng.

So then I held the camera up to take a photo, a selfie.

But then the...

The aspect ratio of the screen was wrong, and I reset it.

But I couldn't quite get it right.

And then, suddenly, I realized this could be a dream.

I told Wai Peng, did you know that this is a dream?

And why? Because all the...

The dream world was like fuzzy and hazy.

So realistic.

And then I tried to adjust it and go somewhere to take a photo.

And she was walking away.

And the dream faded.