540-OB: With my sons in front of lift

 

6:01 am

I've been alternating between Sleephoria and Magnesium/B6.
I have been practising bare awareness throughout the day and night to relax and fall asleep.
During the day, I do 2-minute timeout bare awareness sessions regularly using a timer.

Last night, I took Magnesium and B6 — the Magellan brand for the magnesium.
I got up to pass urine and then went back to bed.
WP also got up to get ready, as she was going to Alor Setar.

I was lying on my left side, and then I recognized the phase state.
But I heard voices in my head.
It was like a background hum or rising pitch, and it felt as though there were multiple people talking in my head.

I just let it be, and it deepened.
I practiced mindfulness — bare awareness — which is simply to watch and do nothing.

All night long, and throughout the day as well, I practiced this form of mindfulness.
Every hour, I would spend two minutes just watching.
Bare watching.
Doing nothing and observing Anicca — impermanence — and allowing everything to change by itself.
Just watching.

That also helped me sleep.

So now, as I was watching the voices in my head talking, it became very clear.
It reached a point where I could then try to induce an out-of-body experience.

I managed to rub my hands together and felt them clearly.
Then I felt the rubbery sensation.

I moved straight to the foot of my bed and stood up effortlessly on the floor of my bedroom.
I touched the mattress and also touched the side wall on the left.
Then I walked toward the bedroom door.

As I reached it, I touched the bathroom wall on the right as well.
I touched the door, opened it, and walked out into the living room.

Everything was dark.
I touched the left-side wall of the living room and continued all the way to the balcony.

I then opened the sliding balcony doors.
I could feel the latch with my fingers.
I pulled it open — left and right — and stepped out onto the balcony.

There was a glimpse of brightness outside.
It was early morning light, but not very clear.

I tried to look at my hands, and I also tried to enjoy the scenery, but I could not see much because everything was blurry.

I then turned back and walked into the living room again.
That was when I started peering at my hands and palms.

The light and color then illuminated the room, and I could suddenly see clearly — the objects in the room as well as beyond the palms of my hands.

I also peered at the lines and texture of my palms to make the light and colors become clearer.

I then walked toward the main door of the living room, opened it, and walked into the corridor leading to the metal grille gate.

I opened the metal grille, and this time it was daylight.

I then walked toward the lift, where two people were standing.
At first, everything was blurry.
I think they were children.

I reached out to touch one of them, and then I realized it was Adrian.
Beside Adrian, on his right, was little Darren.
They were both children at that time.

The lift arrived, so I walked in and invited them to come in as well.
Both Adrian and Darren entered the lift with me.

We wanted to go downstairs.
I wanted to take them downstairs.

And then the dream faded.

539-OB: Cannot remember names

 

8:26 am

I took magnesium and B6 the night before. I went to sleep, and throughout the night I had a good sleep. Throughout the morning, I also got up, pass urine and went back to bed, while maintaining focus on my nose and breathing. The focus kept me in a sleepy state. I maintained a little bit of focus there and tightened it slightly around the nose area and the eyes.

I dreamt that I was with my wife and the kids. I think we went to a hotel somewhere in the northern beach area of Penang to eat at a restaurant. While we were walking in, there was a group of ladies. One of them asked me, “By the way, are you Paul?” There were three of them.

I said, “Yes.” I just stared at them. Then they asked me, “Why do you look so blank and stare like that?” I said, “I feel embarrassed because I probably don’t remember my friends.”

Then I asked one of them on the right, “By the way, what is your name?” She walked closer to me, and then we started walking away. I asked her again, and she mentioned her name, but I can’t remember what it was.

As we were walking away, we were standing close to each other. I said, “So you must be Christina’s batch mate.” She said, “Yes, from Convent Butterworth.” I was afraid that my wife might hear it, but anyway, we walked away together.

Then we were standing close to each other on top of some kind of moving vehicle. We were moving very fast, and the wind was blowing. It felt very intimate, and that intimacy remained there for a while. Then the dream faded.

After that, I was back in bed, and I felt the morning phase state. I rubbed my fingers and hands, and immediately my dream body rotated to the left and landed. I fell onto the floor of my bedroom beside the left side of the bed.

I then touched the sides of the wall, the floor, and the mattress, and continued touching the sides of my bedroom walls. I reached the bathroom on the right and touched the wall there too.

Then I opened the bedroom door. I held the handle and pulled it open. I walked out into the living room, and as I was walking out, the dream faded.

538-LD: Five lucid dreams back to back

 

6:47 am

I took both magnesium and B6 together tonight and had five lucid dreams back-to-back—very clear. I only remember fragments of them. Night before, got up and 4:30 am and could not sleep back. So tonight could be REM-rebound.

In the first one, I found myself in a fenced-up area, standing, and suddenly became lucid. I wanted to test reality, so I pinched my nose and could still breathe. That’s when I knew I was lucid. But when I repeated the pinched-nose test, I couldn’t breathe. Somehow, expectation affected the result.

I tried to fly and think I floated a little above the ground.

In the second lucid dream, I was walking along a road. It was daytime. I asked people questions, and they talked to me. I also looked at the palms of my hands and could see them clearly.

In another lucid dream, I can’t remember much, but I was out there again, walking around. Everything was very clear, and I had no trouble maintaining the dream. It stayed intact without any effort. It all felt so effortless—and incredibly real. I remember walking around, amazed at how real everything felt.

When I spoke, my voice sounded like a young girl’s or a young boy’s voice.

I think there were a few more dreams in between, but I can’t remember them. Each time I exited a dream, I easily slipped into the next one—repeatedly, back-to-back.

In the last one, I experienced immediately re-entering a lucid dream after exiting the previous one. I was walking around a room and said, “Oh, here’s another one—another lucid dream.” I was so happy, talking to myself.

Then I walked into the USM library. It was dark, with a bit of light. I said, “Wow, another lucid dream—and it’s USM. Wow, I like USM. I mean, it’s a perfect library. It’s so nice.”

I think there were some people there. I was talking a lot and walking inside—and then the dream faded.

537-OB: Lying in bed with tm mantra

8:41 am

I did the TM mantra and the work throughout the day, and I found myself in an early-morning phase state. I tried to deepen it using the TM mantra, and it worked. I managed to feel my right-hand fingers rubbing with a familiar rubbery sensation. Then I used the TM mantra again to deepen the phase state, and it became deeper. I then felt my left fingers rubbing as well. After that, I imagined both my palms rubbing, and sure enough, my dream hands materialized in front of me and started rubbing. I felt the familiar rubbery sensation.

Then the dream body shifted in bed to face upwards. I imagined that my legs were beginning to move, getting ready to stand up on the floor of my bedroom, and it worked. I also imagined my face near the curtain, and I stood up on the floor of my bedroom. I then rubbed the curtain on my left and walked towards the bookshelf in my bedroom. I wanted to walk towards the door, but the dream faded.

Then I found myself back in bed in the same position, lying on my right. I used the TM mantra to deepen it again and still managed to feel the dream hands—my right hand with that rubbery sensation. I used the TM mantra once more to deepen the state, and an image of a book appeared. I found myself rubbing the book with my dream hands. I remembered that in previous dreams I could induce an OBE by rubbing objects with my hands, and it became real—I was rubbing the book.

Then I did the same thing: I swung my feet over and stood up on the floor of my bedroom. I continued walking quickly towards the door of my bedroom. I reached the door, opened it, and walked out into the living room. I tried to feel all the objects with my hands to bring more light and color. I did it hastily—left and right, left and right—looking at my palms. I managed to faintly see some texture on my palms, and then the dream faded.

 

536-LD: Seated in a bus

 

7:37 am

I sat in a bus, and on my left there was a girl. I put both my knees up on the front seat and leaned back. It was comfortable. In front, there were others as well, and they all looked very weird—white-ish kind of people. The bus stopped, and they all got off, but the girl and I stayed seated together.

After a while, I said, “Let’s go down. I want to pass urine.”
She replied, “Okay, I also want to pass urine.”

As we were about to get down, at the staircase of the bus, it suddenly moved. She said, “The bus is moving—wait, wait.” She put her hands on my shoulder and stood behind me. We waited like that as the bus moved.

Eventually, I said, “Let’s go and sit down first.”
She said, “Okay,” so we went back to sit down. The bus moved further and further away, and there were others as well who did not get off.

After a while, the bus went some distance, and then I found myself going into a building. I wanted to look for the boss who managed the place, and I was hoping to find the same girl who had sat beside me on the bus.

The place was brightly lit, but it looked very cramped and small. The walls were very bright.

I walked straight to a door and opened it. There was a guy inside, facing a mirror, adjusting his appearance. I said, “Sorry,” and closed the door. I turned right and opened another door, and there was another guy there, also facing a mirror and adjusting his appearance. I closed that door as well.

I looked for another way to go, and suddenly, on the right, the room became bigger. I realized that this was a dream, because I remembered that in dreams, things change—the second time you look at something, it looks different.

Then I became lucid.

I touched the objects around me. There was a sink—a toilet sink—and I touched it and said, “This is so real, like I’m really here.” I kept exploring the place like that. I went down to the ground, rubbing it and feeling its texture, and it became even more real.

Then everything started to darken. The room became darker and darker, and I knew the dream was fading. So I stared at the palms of my hands, trying to bring back the color and the light. I could still see the palms of my hands, which were brown, but eventually, the dream faded.

535-LD: High above misty tree tops

 

7:30 am

I couldn't sleep for a long time, and then I dreamed that I couldn't sleep for a long time, lying down in a room.

Then I took off my sleeping mask, got out of the house, and walked across to my real, actual home. I saw my mother; she was in the kitchen cleaning. I thought that I needed to find my sleeping mask because I would try to sleep in this house to attempt an out-of-body experience. I also asked her where are my sleeping masks.

The house was almost empty. It was nine o'clock in the morning, and I needed to sleep to induce an out-of-body experience. So I went around looking for a sleeping mask. I found a few small ones—funny-looking ones, some even plastic and transparent—but they were not good enough.

Then I opened a door and walked into a room. When I went in, it was empty, and I suspected that something was strange. I walked straight ahead, opened a second door, and entered another room—it was also empty. Then I walked into a third room, opened the door, and it was empty as well.

So I said, “This must be a dream.” I realized that it was a dream. I rubbed my fingers and my hands, and I could feel a rubbery sensation. I said, “Okay, let's try to fly.”

I flew out of the house, through the roof, and up into the sky. When I looked down, I could see greenery; it was misty, the color of the treetops. Then I tried to fly down and touch the top leaves of the trees. After that, I flew up again into the sky, looked down again, and flew down once more.

This time, I wanted to feel the tree trunks. So I put my hands together and flew all the way down, holding onto them. When I landed on the ground, I moved onto the road. I saw the road and touched it. I looked closely at its texture and could feel the roughness of the surface. That helped increase the lucidity. I rubbed along the road surface, over and over, examining its texture.

Then I looked at my hands—the palms of my hands—trying to bring in some light and color. At that moment, I was already in another room, an unknown room, but it was dark. I wanted light, so I looked at my palms, from the left to the right and back again, repeatedly. I focused on the texture of my skin and requested light.

Gradually, the light came, and the room began to brighten. I could see beyond my hands into the room.

And then the dream suddenly faded.

534-OB: False awakening in hostel room

 

8:43 am

I did Byron Katie’s The Work to release and let go, and fell asleep with the intention of having an OBE (out-of-body experience).

Then I found myself lying in bed on the right. I woke up from sleep, though it could have been a false awakening.

I then started trying to induce the phase state directly by imagining left and right, left and right in my mind, to create some kind of internal vestibular movement.

As I continued, I began to feel myself sinking left and right, left and right. Then suddenly, there was a loud humming sound that increased in frequency, and I saw things spinning in a circle.

At that point, I knew it was the right time to induce the out-of-body state.

I imagined rubbing my fingers together and managed to do so. Then I imagined rubbing my hands together, and my hands appeared. I rubbed them and felt a familiar rubbery sensation.

Next, I rubbed my face, my forearms, my torso, and even the bed mattress.

I then imagined slowly getting up—sitting up on the bed on the right and placing my legs on the ground—and it happened automatically. My body moved, sat upright on the bed, and then placed my feet on the floor.

I found myself in a shared bedroom, like a hostel. There was another person sleeping beside me, although I had the impression that he had already woken up earlier. He seemed like a student.

It was daytime—morning—and light was coming through the window on the right.

I stood up and started walking toward the main door of this large bedroom, touching the wall on the right as I moved.

As I walked, I didn’t want to bump into the other person. But I felt him guiding me—placing his hand on my back right shoulder to help me avoid obstacles.

I wondered how he could see me. He shouldn’t have been able to unless my physical body was moving. But I was not aware that this might be a false awakening.

Anyway, I opened the door of the bedroom and walked out. I felt that he might have been concerned I could fall, so I didn’t go too far. I held the banister on the left with my left hand and stood there for a while.

After some time, I turned around and walked back into the bedroom.

At that point, I thought I had woken up from the dream—realizing it had been a false awakening.

As I walked in, I saw a large bed—a huge bed. There was a window on the left.

I thought I was supposed to sleep in the center of the bed. I noticed that he had completely closed the curtains, perhaps to block out the light.

I then realized that my spot was actually toward the edge of the room, near the curtain.

So I walked there and lay down.

Only then did I truly wake up and realize that the previous awakening had been false—and that now, I was awake for real.