6:14am
I was doing the mindfulness all night long and also Vajrayogini.
And I got up, pass urine, at around 5 something, drank water and went back to bed.
And it worked. I found myself in the early morning phase state.
I was flying upwards, being pulled upwards.
And I imagined spinning, spinning the spiral first, spinning clockwise in the sky, facing the white sky.
And that deepened the feeling, the phase feeling.
And I allow it, try not to put too much force, but allow it to happen, relax, relax back and let things spontaneously develop.
And it worked. It deepened.
And then I started flying and now spinning in the anti-clockwise spiral, also facing the white sky.
And the whole thing became deeper and deeper.
And I started to fly, fly in the air.
And everything was white and no objects, there were no objects.
And then I wanted to go down to the ground and enter a building.
And I find myself flying inside, inside an old building.
It was a bit dark.
And by this time I think I remember to rub my hands, rub my hands.
And in order to bring light and color into the world, I peered at my right hand.
Then color and light appeared from my skin texture on my right hand.
And at the same time, beyond my right hand, in the background, the world became luminous and in color.
And I was in a room I can see beyond my right hand.
There was a wall on my right and I was walking.
It was like a very old grayish color abandoned big, big building.
So I rubbed the wall on the right with my right hand.
And as I rubbed, I continued walking.
And I spoke out loud, this is the wall.
As I touched an object, I also mentioned the name of the object.
This is a window.
Three times I think it this way.
And each time I spoke out loud, I could hear my voice clearly in the room as though I was actually walking, standing there walking.
It was so real.
And I continued exploring one room after another, trying to look for a way out.
And there was a few times I opened the doors and entered different parts of the house.
And there was one time I turned and looked up at the ceiling and the light bulb and willed there to be light.
And then I continued walking, exploring the building.
There were no furniture in this old abandoned, torn down house.
And one time I turned right and looked into the distance.
And it was blurred, the distance was blurred.
Even though it was like looking at the horizon, the dream was still stable.
I then turned left and continued walking, exploring the way out.
And continued to rub my palms together.
And I found a new trick.
I put my palms together.
And while my palms were together rubbing, I touched objects.
This ensured that in case the dream faded, I could still try to re-enter.
And also by keeping the palms continually together, I could continue to ensure the stability and lucidity of the dream.
I then continued to explore the place like this, touching objects, with the palms together, touching objects.
And I think I continued like this and finally reached one of the rooms where there was a window.
I opened the window, it was like an top-hinged-type window.
I opened it and I could see light outside.
It was quite narrow, but I managed to climb upwards and exit the house.
And now I'm outside.
Then there was someone on the left.
I asked him, what is his name?
He replied, War Nar Wah.
He was attending to some luggage.
And on the right, there was another person.
He wanted to exit to the outside.
There was light outside, daylight.
But there was a kind of curtain made of net blocking the exit.
I was still rubbing the palms on my hands together.
And I wanted to pull up the curtain.
But at this point, my awareness dropped like I was falling into sleep.
And because I lost it, that awareness slightly, the dream faded.
Earlier in the day, I did the Vajrasattva purification and Mandala ritual.
And I did it silently, internally, without voicing it out.
And before sleeping, I also prayed to Vajrayogini.
For blessing to get lucid dreams and OBE.
And then, at 5 something.
While getting up to pass urine and coming back to bed,
I stopped by the altar of Vajrayogini and also prayed for blessing, lucid dream and OBE.
Last week, I did not have a lucid dream for seven days.
I suspect because I was drinking coffee a few times for a few days.
And after that, I realized, I stopped drinking coffee except for decaf.
And I think it worked, now I'm having lucid dream three days in a row.
Another thing I did right after coming back to bed from pass urine.
I laid down my bed facing upwards so that I don't fall asleep too quickly.
Instead, I can be awake in and out of several dreams in a row.
And each time I exited a dream, I kept still and tried to test for the phase state.
And all the while, I kept lying down facing upwards, keeping still.
And I did rotate slightly to the right, slightly,
and tried to fall asleep again using the mindfulness of breathing in, breathing out,
feeling the whole body and calming the whole body, which is a technique I did all night long.
And after going in and out of the dream state like this a few times and for quite some time,
I then turned to the right and lay down on the right.
And that's when it happened. I entered the OBE from there.
Another thing I did right is celebrate every small victory.
For the past two nights after the one week, no lucid dream,
I celebrate every small victory even though it was not full exit.
I still recorded the dream.
My mistake in this OBE was that I let my awareness drop and doze off to sleep.
When you doze off to sleep inside the lucid dream,
it triggers awakening from the dream.
So the antidote to that is I should be more active,
more vigorously rub my hands together and be more active
by moving around maybe more actively with more force inside the dream.
Look around more vigorously perhaps,
and do peering, more peering at my hands,
and also continue to touch objects more actively.
Another thing. At the exit of this dream, my palms were together and rubbing.
I could still feel them together.
But I was half-hearted about going back into the dream because I wanted to remember the dream.
What maybe I should have done was re-enter the dream
and will myself to remember the contents of the dream where I just exited
and then relax into it, don't force it.
But continue to rub the hands and feel the hands more vigorously.
Use the psychic thinking, thinking of rubbing the hands and re-enter the dream
by trying to remember what it felt like while I was in the dream
and rubbing the hands at the same time.
To try (Dream Yoga Activities?):
Relaxing in lucid dreams cause dream to collapse, relaxing in waking state causes waking world to collapse? Try to do mindful breathing-feeling body, calming body and relax during waking state throughout the day. But not to do that in the dream. In the dream become more engaged. Maybe to try practice dream yoga control activities - once I mastered dream stability? I noticed dream yoga sadhana or meditation or loving-kindness or healing whilst dreaming - may tend to collapse the dream because it concentrates the mind. So, should I do dream-yoga activities instead? Eg, flying, walking through walls, becoming big and small, multiply self to many, transforming self to deity . . .
