448-OBE: Vajrayogini devotion at the heart loving-kindness

 

6:30am:

I did the Vajrayogini protocol.

I also tried the NRA but then felt it is too much and then switched back to Vajrayogini protocol.

I got up, went to the toilet, passed urine and then went lying down and did the Vajrayogini protocol.

And lying on my left, before I went back to bed, I did the prayer at the altar of Vajrayogini.

And I prayed for her to bless me with lucid dream and OBE.

Before sleeping tonight, I also offered mandala mudra and prayed for the same thing.

So now I'm lying on my left and I just rested in Vajrayogini.

And I felt the phase state, the familiar phase state and I allow it to deepen.

It is like floating backwards and like falling down.

And at first, I keep telling myself to feel the flying upwards and falling down backwards.

And then later on, I just let go and allow it to deepen spontaneously.

And then it worked. I then tried to clap my hands and rub it and I managed to feel my hands and clap it.

And I was so happy that I could feel my hands. It manifested.

And then I now rubbed my bed on my left and then rubbed with my right hands on the mattress.

And then I moved to the side of the bed frame and rubbed it as well with both hands.

And used that as a means to put both my feet on the wooden floor of my bedroom.

And I stood up and I rubbed the curtains on my left with my left hand and with my right hand I rubbed the mattress of the bed.

And it felt so real, I could feel it.

And I take my time, walk slowly to the altar of Vajrayogini in front.

And I then put my palms together and bent and paid respect and thanked Vajrayogini for this out of body experience.

I felt so grateful to her.

And what made this work also is my devotion to Vajrayogini.

Devotion is the key.

I practiced it during the day, all day long, devotion and also practiced devotion throughout the night.

So now I finished paying gratitude to Vajrayogini, turned right and walked to the door of my bedroom.

I took my time, I touched everything on the left and whatever I could touch to keep the lucidity going.

And when I reached the door, I put my left hand on the door knob and opened the door.

And I thought whatever is going to appear before I open the door, let it be.

I didn't expect anything.

So when I opened the door and stepped out, it was outdoors.

And open air, like in the sky, I can see white everywhere, like white clouds.

And I was half expecting a room, but I got this instead.

And the dream faded.

And I did not do peering.

That was my mistake.

I should have peered at my hands in order to crystallize and bring in objects in the world.

But I stared at open infinity and the white.

And that was probably why the dream faded.

After the dream faded, I continued to do sadhana to Vajradhara and the four deities,

pray for blessings individually.

Mahakala for removing the outer obstacles.

Vajrayogini for bliss and emptiness.

Chenrezig for compassion.

And Green Tara for removing inner obstacles.

And I prayed to bless all sentient beings as well.

And also myself to grant me lucid dreams and OBE every night.

Then I did dedication of merits.

I forgot to do the mandala offering.

That was my goal before I went to bed.

When I faced the open air, besides trying to peer my hands,

I could have also tried to look down and land on the ground,

maybe in the green field or even the wooden floor or cement floor,

and rub the floor with my hands.

That would have stabilized the dream.

Also, I should have peered at my hands from the start.

The moment I got up and stood up and touched the curtains,

I should have peered at my hands or even peered at the curtain fabric,

look at the curtain fabric or look at the mattress fabric

or even look at the floor texture.

And this peering should have started early in order to crystallize the dream

and should have been continuously done non-stop.

Don't just look at objects in front,

but also continue to alternate between peering and looking at objects.

One thing I did right was that after I went back to bed,

I don't mind keeping awake, just lying down doing nothing,

but just resting with devotion in Vajrayogini.

That's the thing I did right.

Not minding that I just keep awake,

just stay awake is okay so long as you have devotion in Vajrayogini.

After a while, it happened.

Another thing I did right was not only to do generation stage,

but completion stage.

That means I take Vajrayogini to be empty as a projection of the mind

and also take everything to be a projection of the mind

and there is no in and out.

Everything is a projection of the mind.

And thirdly, to see that even the projection of the thought itself,

the thought of the projection itself is a projection,

and then rest in emptiness after that

and just see everything as projection whenever any thoughts or anything comes up.

I did this multiple times throughout the night.

And I think in the day as well occasionally,

that after all is the goal of the Dharma practice,

to see emptiness in form and to see form as emptiness.

During the day, I also did mandala offering as accumulation practice.

I view it as spiritual currency,

the engine that allows attainments to be achieved.

If there is no time, at least the basic minimum is mandala offering.

I also practiced skillful means,

that is to convert all anger to lust

and also to view my wife's family problems as an opportunity for practice,

transmute the negative feelings and view it as a positive one

and also try to use the pride instead of pride for this supernatural ability

to take it as more fuel for devotion towards Vajrayogini and also the Dharma practice.

Earlier throughout and occasionally in the night,

I also put Vajrayogini in the heart,

that is the recommended location for Vajrayogini in the heart area.

And that was also the last thing I think,

just prior to experiencing the phase state,

by visualizing, imagining Vajrayogini to be at the heart area.

It is also the ideal place if you are having devotion and loving-kindness towards Vajrayogini.

Excellent.

Maybe I can use Vajrayogini as a means to loving-kindness,

develop the loving-kindness towards Vajrayongini at the heart area and radiate it to all sentient beings.

Also compassion.

Devotion is the same as loving-kindness.

Use devotion and then take it as loving-kindness

and then towards Vajrayogini and then radiate it to all sentient beings.