6:26 am
Last night I received the 4 deity empowerment and then tonight I did the NRA protocol all night long and while lying on the right, just keeping still and watching, just watching, doing nothing.
And I entered the phase state and I rubbed my fingers and then rubbed my hands and clapped them, I brought them to my face and touched my face, touched my chest and body.
And then did healing for the anus, my left hand on the anus and then left hand on the prostate in front while my right fingers rubbing as well.
Not to keep my focus on one place but to divert attention to both the left hand and the right hand.
When I finished that, I turned to my impossible angle, with my right hand I touched the mattress and then touched the side and I put my feet on the floor of my bedroom and stood up from my bed.
And I tapped the curtains on my left with both hands and started walking towards the bookshelf and at the same time also I tapped the floor with my right hand and rubbed the curtains with my left as I continued walking.
Once I arrived at the bookshelf, at the altar there, I put both palms together and paid homage to the Vajrayogini.
She was glowing with white light and I bowed down three times and gave devotion as well as gratitude for this out of body experience.
She was happy and glad and she told me, okay, move on.
So I moved on to the right of my bedroom, walking towards the door.
And then there was a space, a big space, I wanted to do sadhana to the Vajradhara and the entourage.
So I knelt down on the floor, put my palms together and summoned Vajradhara and the lineage of gurus above him and the buddhas to his right and the sangha to his left and the dharma behind.
And in front are the yidam deities and also the dharma protectors. Wanted to give mandala offering. It was a long sadhana.. where I said many things but don't remember what.
And at the end of it, the entourage Vajradhara asked me, is there anything else?
And then I asked for a last blessing.
I asked them to bless me with the ability to induce lucid dreaming and out of body experience at will very easily.
I asked this three times and then I put my head on the ground and bowed and touched my head on the ground and gave respect as a final respect to end the sadhana.
And then the entourage indicated it was over, finished, I stood up and was so happy, I felt good.
In front was my door, on the right there was a glass window and light was coming in.
And then I walked towards the door and there was a lever handle, I put my right hand on it and I thought to myself, okay, this is party time, fun time, I have already achieved my objective tonight.
I turned the door lever, pressing down and pulling open and walked out and I saw there was a banister on my left, brown color, even the floor, wooden parquet, everything was wooden color and there were steps going down.
So I put my hand touching the banister and peering and walked down the steps.
Earlier I did not have to peer my hands to manifest the world, instead the world manifested in my room.
Now it seems here there were steps going down and I peered across the banister momentarily and not to keep the focus in the horizon.
And I saw that it was a huge hall, like a shopping mall office, very big and it was filled with workers.
And on the front and the right of the hall there were windows and it was like outdoors, I could see the light coming in and outdoors.
And I walked down the banister, I walked down the staircase step by step.
It was a long step down, many, many steps and as I walked down I kept peering my banister and the fine grain of the wood particles so as to keep the world continue to be lucid and clear.
And I keep peering also to my right hand and I make sure that I don't keep my focus on one space for too long but keep peering left and right, left and right hand and banister as I walked down.
As I reached the bottom of the landing there was one office worker, Roger ex-Inti staff.
And I touched his face and he felt very solid like a block of wood and he smiled at me, he was happy to see me and he spoke something.
And I said, how are you? And then I put my right hand on his chest and I wish him loving kindness, may you be well and happy.
And at that point the dream began to fade and I allowed it to fade.
It was a very long OBE and when I came out of the dream I did dedication of merits three times.
Objective for the tomorrow night's OBE I will manifest a mandala of Pure Realm and offer it to the entourage of Vajradhara and the Gurus and the Buddhas, Sangha, Yidam, Deities and Protectors.
It's also the night after I gave a new offering of a garland of skulls to Vajrayogini and I also now is able to transmute my wife's family problems into support for me
and also able to transmute anger into lust and also lust into Vajrayogini, which gives my mind peace.
I also realize now that this is my goal and I will keep my focus on this. This is all that I need to be aware of every day of my life.
I don't have to bother about my wife's family problems. Just focus on this and be grateful that I have these supernormal powers to be able to do merits in my dream to benefit all sentient beings.
And this will be my practice every day, my spiritual practice.
I also feel very strong devotion to my Guru Vajrayogini and very grateful to her.
When I was still on my knees doing the sadhana to the Vajradhara entourage in my bedroom, Wai Peng woke up from the bed and walked towards me where I was and I knew that she cannot see me.
I was invisible and I pushed a pillow onto the left and I think she walked across through the pillow and she walked through me as well and opened the door and went downstairs.
Since I'm invisible, I'm not afraid that she can hear me. I was speaking out loud doing my sadhana.
Earlier when I was still lying in bed, I was feeling uncomfortable in my legs and knees and I wasn't afraid to change position to right and left or whatever.
And the important thing is not to be afraid to move to change position if it's too unbearable. The important thing is to keep calm and then just watch, keep still and watch and do nothing.
That's the key and then relax. Then you will enter the phase state easily.
Earlier, to fall asleep, early on in the night, I also did the Red ཨ at the throat method several times I think throughout the night as well.
Transmute Pride to Gratitude, Devotion and Compassion
Even though I have these supernormal powers, I shouldn't be proud. I shouldn't feel pride. I think I can transmute it.
Instead of feeling pride, I should transmute it to gratitude, gratitude and devotion to Vajrayogini, my guru, and also transmute it to the Bodhicitta to help all sentient beings in any way I can, especially during the dream state.
So in other words, transmute the pride energy into devotion and compassion and also use it, transmute the pride into more confidence in the Buddha, Dharma and Sangha and also the yidams and deities and protectors.
Transmute that pride into more confidence alongside with the reminder of preciousness of human life and impermanence and the suffering of beings in samsara and karma.
Use that as a catalyst, transmute into a catalyst to continue to practice Dharma and Buddhism. Vajrayana Tantrayana is all about transmutation of negative energy into positive qualities using skillful means.
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