443-OBE: Fly-beach to Island Park

  

9:27 am

I did the NRA protocol as usual throughout the night and then I got up early morning

around five something, pass urine, drink water and go back to bed and continue to do the NRA protocol and I sometimes felt overwhelmed, too stressed out, too much wanting to experience the OBE or lucid dream and I substituted myself as Vajrayogini and also sometimes just think of her and that helped to keep calm and bring peace to my mind

and then I interspersed that with NRA protocol and then lying on my left I entered the hypnagogic state and there was a scene in the beach where I was like floating above the sand and the sea and I tried to test to clap my hands and rub and it worked. I then entered the OBE experience and I went down to the sand, grabbed some sand and felt it. I also felt the waves, the water and the wind and I floated around the beach area like that further up into the sky. I felt good, felt happy and I fly forward into the horizon and felt the wind blowing in my face and I decided to land somewhere, landed in the grass.

I willed myself to go down to the grass to touch it with my hands and I managed to tap the grass with my hands to increase lucidity. I then willed myself to stand on the grass and walk

and I managed to step on the grass and walk and the moment I stepped on the grass and started walking the world became more vivid and clear. I was in the island glades area

island park area and there were houses all over and I walked on the streets of that area

and there were so many houses but there were all nobody was visible there were no people humans and I remember that when there are no humans that means we are not really deep into the dream so I was eager to have human contact so I tried to look for humans in every house and I went from one house to another left and right and I also remember to peer at my hands throughout from one hand to another throughout this dream and to make sure that I don't focus on one spot for too long and I could feel the vibration in my hands as well eventually the dream faded and my hands were not together so I could not re-enter the dream. I wanted to do the mandala offerings and also other sadhanas but didn't have the opportunity to do it. I was too eager to move forward and engage the dream further instead. 

I find that whenever I have any fear, stress, lust, anger, whatever any strong emotion I just replace myself with Vajrayogini or just think of Vajrayogini and that immediately brings peace and calm. I could also do this if I wanted to sleep just think of Vajrayogini or transform myself or replace myself with Vajrayogini and I can sleep. I am so filled with devotion and love for Vajrayogini and also gratitude for my lovely yidam and guru. I'm in love with her.

Earlier on when I was in the island park housing estate it felt so realistic like I was actually

really there walking on the roads maybe what I should have done to prolong the dream was to continue to rub my hands, peer at my hands and rub the road the rough surface of the road as well continuously rotate cycle through these actions. I think one of my mistakes was that when I got up and went back to bed around five something when I went back to bed I did not put in enough awareness and that caused me to slip into dream that caused me to slip into sleep state so and then dragged on until sleep until in and out in the morning quite late in the morning so in future after getting up from bed at four or five and going back to bed I should put more effort into awareness into the anchor should focus more into the anchor to stay keep awareness to keep awareness up and alive more awareness is needed.

So basically this is the scenario when you're there in the NRA protocol you to put awareness into the anchor and the images and the inner voice which is your anchor and if you get too overstressed with too much wanting that causes unpleasant feelings put the brakes on by using Vajrayogini by thinking about her thinking of her or substituting yourself as her and once you put the brakes on if you get peace and calm you can relax with breathing relax and breathing let go and fall back towards the sleep direction but don't let yourself fall off into sleep. Once you feel that you like going to sleep and you feel the myoclonic jerks you should then put focus on awareness again at the anchor and in that whole thing repeats itself. So it's a fine balance and if we get it right you enter the OBE. Tonight's experience is an OBE because I entered it I entered the dream state I entered the dream world through the hypnagogic imagery.