468-OB: Healing while floating in night sky

 

7:57am

I did  Zaritski method all night long after getting up from bed to pass urine and went back to bed at 4 something and lying on my right, in and out, in and out of Zaritski method and I finally felt the early morning fuzzy feeling.

I then willed myself to feel my hands and rub and I managed to rub and then I also felt my face and rubbed my hands all the way up to the shoulder and then I turned, rolled over to the left and rubbed the side of the bed with my right palm.

I stood up on the floor, rubbed the curtain on the left, rubbed the bed on the right, walked over to the shelf in front and then I tried to walk to the door and I looked at my palms, I looked at my hands, peering, and the light and colour came into the world for a while.

But I was too rushed and I lost the light and colour and I propelled to the door of my bedroom, stopped briefly there and then burst through the door, I was too rushed and I fell into open black empty space and there was no light, no colour.

I then thought of doing healing so I brought the hands to my chest, healed my heart, felt the energy and then also healed my penis, prostate area and then healed my anus and I feel the energy went through the body and did the healing. And then I brought my hands to my left heel and healed my left heel as well and then the dream faded.

Earlier, after four rounds of Zaritski and I went back to sleep doing pacify method. 

Pacify method:

Relax and let go of stressful thoughts. As it dissipates, you will feel the calm and peace is already there in the background.  It is a mistake to try to feel calm and peace. Can use this method also throughout the day as emptiness practice. 

Principle is that when you are focused on stressful thoughts, it blocks the background stillness. When you relax that focus, it is like the murky water becoming still and the underneath calm is felt. So, you cannot bring about calm directly - instead you let go of stressful thoughts and calm will be felt as a result. Falling asleep is the same. You cannot fall asleep by effort - instead you relax the stressful thoughts - and sleep is the result. 

That background calm and spacious emptiness - is the real you. Free from suffering.