454-OBE: Walk on sluggish white ground

 

8:20am

Did mindfulness of breathing, lying down on my left, I felt suddenly that I'm in a

light dream, or hypnagogia, walking somewhere. And it's white in color everywhere, and I suddenly realized that I could make this into a dream, so I clapped my hands and rub it, and I was already in a dream.

I then tried to increase the rubbing, and managed to feel a little bit of rubbing.

Then I ease up a little, and continue to rub my fingers, and I could feel my fingers. I wanted to increase the rubbing as well on the hands, and then I could hear the background voices talking. 

It was very heavy voices in the background talking, but I couldn't make out the words. I then tried to touch the ground with my right hand. I reached the ground and touched it. It seems to be whitish, the ground. Everything seems to be white. I then tried to step on the ground and walk. It was very sluggish. 

I think I managed to walk a little bit. It was still early stage of the dream, and everything felt very sluggish and slow. Eventually the dream faded. 

Earlier I had difficulty falling back to sleep, but I am patient. I tried to breathe, in, and out, and feel the whole body at the same time. It was difficult to feel the whole body at the same time. So I am patient. I start from beginning. Just be aware of the breathing in. I know I am breathing in. Breathing out. I know I am breathing out. 

Then once you are established in the mindfulness of the breathing in and out, then only breathe in and out and feel the whole body. Breathe in and feel the whole body. Breathe out and feel the whole body. Just be patient and repeat like this.

Eventually you will fall asleep. If you get distracted, gently come back again, starting all over, knowing you are breathing in, knowing you are breathing out. Then gradually, breathing in, feel the whole body, breathing out, feel the whole body, and just keep repeating. Eventually you will surely fall asleep and enter the phase state.

My mistake was being too rushed and forceful when trying to rub hands. Should also use psychic rubbing.

453-OBE: Spiral spin to empty house

 

6:14am

I was doing the mindfulness all night long and also Vajrayogini.

And I got up, pass urine, at around 5 something, drank water and went back to bed.

And it worked. I found myself in the early morning phase state.

I was flying upwards, being pulled upwards.

And I imagined spinning, spinning the spiral first, spinning clockwise in the sky, facing the white sky.

And that deepened the feeling, the phase feeling.

And I allow it, try not to put too much force, but allow it to happen, relax, relax back and let things spontaneously develop.

And it worked. It deepened.

And then I started flying and now spinning in the anti-clockwise spiral, also facing the white sky.

And the whole thing became deeper and deeper.

And I started to fly, fly in the air.

And everything was white and no objects, there were no objects.

And then I wanted to go down to the ground and enter a building.

And I find myself flying inside, inside an old building.

It was a bit dark.

And by this time I think I remember to rub my hands, rub my hands.

And in order to bring light and color into the world, I peered at my right hand.

Then color and light appeared from my skin texture on my right hand.

And at the same time, beyond my right hand, in the background, the world became luminous and in color.

And I was in a room I can see beyond my right hand.

There was a wall on my right and I was walking.

It was like a very old grayish color abandoned big, big building.

So I rubbed the wall on the right with my right hand.

And as I rubbed, I continued walking.

And I spoke out loud, this is the wall.

As I touched an object, I also mentioned the name of the object.

This is a window.

Three times I think it this way.

And each time I spoke out loud, I could hear my voice clearly in the room as though I was actually walking, standing there walking.

It was so real.

And I continued exploring one room after another, trying to look for a way out.

And there was a few times I opened the doors and entered different parts of the house.

And there was one time I turned and looked up at the ceiling and the light bulb and willed there to be light.

And then I continued walking, exploring the building.

There were no furniture in this old abandoned, torn down house.

And one time I turned right and looked into the distance.

And it was blurred, the distance was blurred.

Even though it was like looking at the horizon, the dream was still stable.

I then turned left and continued walking, exploring the way out.

And continued to rub my palms together.

And I found a new trick.

I put my palms together.

And while my palms were together rubbing, I touched objects.

This ensured that in case the dream faded, I could still try to re-enter.

And also by keeping the palms continually together, I could continue to ensure the stability and lucidity of the dream.

I then continued to explore the place like this, touching objects, with the palms together, touching objects.

And I think I continued like this and finally reached one of the rooms where there was a window.

I opened the window, it was like an top-hinged-type window.

I opened it and I could see light outside.

It was quite narrow, but I managed to climb upwards and exit the house.

And now I'm outside.

Then there was someone on the left.

I asked him, what is his name?

He replied, War Nar Wah.

He was attending to some luggage.

And on the right, there was another person.

He wanted to exit to the outside.

There was light outside, daylight.

But there was a kind of curtain made of net blocking the exit.

I was still rubbing the palms on my hands together.

And I wanted to pull up the curtain.

But at this point, my awareness dropped like I was falling into sleep.

And because I lost it, that awareness slightly, the dream faded.

Earlier in the day, I did the Vajrasattva purification and Mandala ritual.

And I did it silently, internally, without voicing it out.

And before sleeping, I also prayed to Vajrayogini.

For blessing to get lucid dreams and OBE.

And then, at 5 something.

While getting up to pass urine and coming back to bed,

I stopped by the altar of Vajrayogini and also prayed for blessing, lucid dream and OBE.

Last week, I did not have a lucid dream for seven days.

I suspect because I was drinking coffee a few times for a few days.

And after that, I realized, I stopped drinking coffee except for decaf.

And I think it worked, now I'm having lucid dream three days in a row.

Another thing I did right after coming back to bed from pass urine.

I laid down my bed facing upwards so that I don't fall asleep too quickly.

Instead, I can be awake in and out of several dreams in a row.

And each time I exited a dream, I kept still and tried to test for the phase state.

And all the while, I kept lying down facing upwards, keeping still.

And I did rotate slightly to the right, slightly,

and tried to fall asleep again using the mindfulness of breathing in, breathing out,

feeling the whole body and calming the whole body, which is a technique I did all night long.

And after going in and out of the dream state like this a few times and for quite some time,

I then turned to the right and lay down on the right.

And that's when it happened. I entered the OBE from there.

Another thing I did right is celebrate every small victory.

For the past two nights after the one week, no lucid dream,

I celebrate every small victory even though it was not full exit.

I still recorded the dream.

My mistake in this OBE was that I let my awareness drop and doze off to sleep.

When you doze off to sleep inside the lucid dream,

it triggers awakening from the dream.

So the antidote to that is I should be more active,

more vigorously rub my hands together and be more active

by moving around maybe more actively with more force inside the dream.

Look around more vigorously perhaps,

and do peering, more peering at my hands,

and also continue to touch objects more actively.

Another thing. At the exit of this dream, my palms were together and rubbing.

I could still feel them together.

But I was half-hearted about going back into the dream because I wanted to remember the dream.

What maybe I should have done was re-enter the dream

and will myself to remember the contents of the dream where I just exited

and then relax into it, don't force it.

But continue to rub the hands and feel the hands more vigorously.

Use the psychic thinking, thinking of rubbing the hands and re-enter the dream

by trying to remember what it felt like while I was in the dream

and rubbing the hands at the same time.

To try (Dream Yoga Activities?):

Relaxing in lucid dreams cause dream to collapse, relaxing in waking state causes waking world to collapse? Try to do mindful breathing-feeling body, calming body and relax during waking state throughout the day. But not to do that in the dream. In the dream become more engaged. Maybe to try practice dream yoga control activities - once I mastered dream stability? I noticed dream yoga sadhana or meditation or loving-kindness or healing whilst dreaming - may tend to collapse the dream because it concentrates the mind. So, should I do dream-yoga activities instead? Eg, flying, walking through walls, becoming big and small, multiply self to many, transforming self to deity . . .

452-LD: Healing patients in bed

 

6:30am

Throughout the night, I did Mindfulness with Vajrayogini. I got up to pass urine as usual at 5 something. Went back to bed and did that technique and I lying on my right.

I've been doing the just aware of the dream state and something like NRA and just relax. I found that I'm already lucid in the dream and rubbed my hands.

I then flew up into the sky trying to go somewhere.

Landed and touched the green color grass. Rub it

and after that I wanted to do healing.

So I imagined there's some beds of patients sleeping in the beds

and I went to one each one of them and try to heal them

It was quite dark. So I tried peering at my right hand to bring light and colour into the dream world, but the dream faded.

451-OBE: Being Vajrayogini practising mindfulness

 

8:49am

I've been doing mindfulness all day long as a new technique.

And today night, throughout the night, I also did mindfulness

according to Satipatthana and based on this Joseph Goldstein.

And I got up pass urine, drink water, at 5 something

and back to bed and did mindfulness as well.

And then towards morning, I got an idea.

I combined Vajrayogini and mindfulness together

and I did breathing, feeling the whole body.

And breathing in, calming the whole body

breathing out, calming the whole body

and Vajrayogini combined. 

That means I imagined myself as Vajrayogini

and I also did the breathing, mindfulness.

And it worked, I was lying on my right.

And I came in and out, in and out of several dreams

and I also felt the hypnagogic state.

And then I was just coming out of one dream

where I felt I was in a room. It was a corridor, dark

and then I realized that this is a phase state.

And I will myself to clap and rub my hands.

And I managed to clap and rub my hands.

At first I was a bit too forceful

and I eased up a little bit.

And then managed to clap and rub more clearly.

I was so happy. I rubbed it and rubbed my hands

Then I bring my hands and rubbed my face

and rubbed my chest as well. And then the dream faded.

This is considered an OBE.

The important part about Joseph Goldstein's mindfulness is that

when he quoted the part from Satipatthana Sutta

where the Buddha taught:

To achieve mindfulness to a degree

just enough for bare knowledge for the continuity of mindfulness.

That means you don't have to be concerned with the content.

You just have to know that you are mindful, it's enough.

So I use that to let go of the stressful thoughts

and craving and so on for the experience of lucid dreams, OBE.

This is known as the mindfulness of the mind state.

And once the mind is calm, I let go.

I use awareness of mindfulness of the breathing

together with Vajrayogini.

Be aware of myself as Vajrayogini

and put her in my heart area.

Then just breathe and calm the body.

Breathe and be aware of the body and calm the body.

Breathing in and out, experiencing the whole body

and calm the body breathing in and out.

450-OBE: False Awakening-Trying to adjust sleeping mask (Mindfulness Technique)

 

8:26 am

Did mindfulness all night long, including the day, is a new technique.

And then got up several times to pass urine and drink water.

And then lying on my left, I had a false awakening.

I was trying to wear my face mask and adjust it.

In fact, I already was wearing my face mask, but I was not aware of it.

So I tried to wear my face mask and try to turn on my right, but I couldn't move.

It was very sluggish.

This is actually sleep paralysis, but I was not aware of it at first.

And then suddenly I realized that this is actually the phase state.

I could use my finger to rub, and I managed to rub my finger.

And I was already doing the exit technique.

I was going to exit already. Then the dream faded.

This is considered an OBE.

I kept absolutely still at every awakening and practiced mindfulness

as per Joseph Goldstein's Mindfulness audio and book: 

Mindfulness: A Practical Guide To Awakening

Mindfulness during day is lucid living, mindfulness during dreams is lucid dreaming.

Yesterday, I started Mindfulness as a means of inducing lucid dreams and OBE. I managed to be aware of the hypnagogic state multiple times during the night. Important not to overdo, just lightly - mindfulness.  Let's see how it goes. It is a science-backed method as evidenced by many journal research articles. 

449-LD: School Canteen Kuih Seller

 

8:54am

I did the Vajrayogini protocol before sleeping and also here and there throughout the night

as I get up to pass urine and drink water about three times.

And another time I became quite wide awake and had a bit difficulty going back to sleep but I practiced not minding that as long as I have Vajrayogini to accompany me.

And I just let it be and then I dream that I'm in a building I think it's a school building.

I was walking around in the daytime and I was looking at the floor walking when I suddenly realized that this is like an early morning type of feeling.

A familiar feeling and whenever I have this familiar early morning feeling I can

just easily say okay it's time to have a lucid dream.

So with that I intended to be a lucid dream and I became lucid.

I clapped my hands and rub my hands.

And as I walked out the door of the building I went out and I was walking towards the school canteen.

And as I walked I touched the ground rub it  and then I saw a tree on my left I went to grab the tree trunk and rub my hands up and down to keep lucidity going.

And I also looked and peered at my hands and then  and I saw the texture of my skin and the color the background also became more crystallized and the world become clearer and sharper.

And I remember to peer at my hands continuously and also to rub and also to touch everything as I walked. 

A school primary school boy walked past on my right from my right to the left he walked by and I grabbed him by the shoulders and touched him and could feel him clearly and that helped to increase the lucidity and maintain it as well.

I then reached the canteen and I was talking to myself and at that time I remembered I wanted to do mandala offering so I started to imagine a circular mandala in front of me.

I put both hands in front facing up and I tried to remember the details and somehow did not go through it.

I continued walking into the canteen and I saw there were people.

I think a few ladies selling kuih walking around selling cookies food walking around three Malay ladies I think.

And there were benches as well and tables.

And then there was a Malay small primary school student which is bald-headed and he walked past again from my right to the left and I followed him and touched his head and rubbed his head and I said very cute and in Malay I said very cute chomel and he walked away.

And then I asked the Malay lady in Bahasa Malaysia if all the answers in the exam were correct what should I give full marks.

And she like uh say no or something like that then I asked her then you are being very strict and she said yes also in Malay.

And then I sat down in front of her and stared at her in the face and she was quite

um top heavy but I ignored that for a while and then I heard sounds and dream faded.

My mistake was I did not keep my palms on my hands rubbing continuously.

If I had done that when the dream faded I could have re-entered the dream with my hands.

Also at the point where I want to manifest mandala I could not recall the details so I had to pause and think and I was afraid that when I did that the dream would collapse.

Maybe a solution to this is to is to rehearse during the day what I want to do in the dream.

Rehearsing during the day.

Another thing about the Malay lady sitting down. 

When I saw that she was top heavy and had some feelings,

I could have transformed her, imagine her as Vajrayogini and use that as transformation

of the lust.

The things that I did right in this dream is to constantly touch objects

and then constantly rub my fingers & my hands together and then clap it.

And also avoid staring at any objects for too long.  Just continue moving, looking everywhere & changing the object that I am looking at always.

And then also remember to always keep moving, keep walking, don't stop.

If you stop at one location too long the dream might collapse.

And I also remember to avoid looking straight up at the horizon.

There was one time I tried to look straight and I saw the entire interior of the canteen clearly but then, it was only a split second & then I looked back down again.

In this lucid dream I'm lying down on my left.

Another thing that I did right is that even though I can't sleep I don't mind as long as I have Vajrayogini to keep me company and I have devotion in her and I trust in her and surrender to her.

A point to note. After the dream faded I wanted initially to continue with to complete the sadhana but I fear that I better recall the dream because if I continue with the sadhana I will most probably forget a lot of the details of the dream so I instead chose to recall the dream while lying completely still and unmoving until I can get the details enough to do this recording.

Maybe when I finish this recording then I will do the sadhana and dedication and also gratitude for Vajrayogini.

So now I think I have established a new end-of-dream post-dream protocol.

The post-dream protocol is firstly, to remember your details of the dream

clearly as much as you can.

Rehearse, go through it again in your mind until you can remember

the details as best as you can.

And then secondly, while doing the recording of the dream,

mention the difficulties that you faced and the mistakes that you made in the dream

and how you should solve it in the future so that you can learn from the mistakes.

And then thirdly mention all the things you did right in the dream so that when you view this recording in the future you can reinforce those things and remember to do them again in future dreams.

And then finally, fourthly, when you finish everything recording then you do your complete whatever you did not do in the dream for example the sadhana and also the dedication of merits and also the gratitude and devotion prayers to Vajrayogini.

448-OBE: Vajrayogini devotion at the heart loving-kindness

 

6:30am:

I did the Vajrayogini protocol.

I also tried the NRA but then felt it is too much and then switched back to Vajrayogini protocol.

I got up, went to the toilet, passed urine and then went lying down and did the Vajrayogini protocol.

And lying on my left, before I went back to bed, I did the prayer at the altar of Vajrayogini.

And I prayed for her to bless me with lucid dream and OBE.

Before sleeping tonight, I also offered mandala mudra and prayed for the same thing.

So now I'm lying on my left and I just rested in Vajrayogini.

And I felt the phase state, the familiar phase state and I allow it to deepen.

It is like floating backwards and like falling down.

And at first, I keep telling myself to feel the flying upwards and falling down backwards.

And then later on, I just let go and allow it to deepen spontaneously.

And then it worked. I then tried to clap my hands and rub it and I managed to feel my hands and clap it.

And I was so happy that I could feel my hands. It manifested.

And then I now rubbed my bed on my left and then rubbed with my right hands on the mattress.

And then I moved to the side of the bed frame and rubbed it as well with both hands.

And used that as a means to put both my feet on the wooden floor of my bedroom.

And I stood up and I rubbed the curtains on my left with my left hand and with my right hand I rubbed the mattress of the bed.

And it felt so real, I could feel it.

And I take my time, walk slowly to the altar of Vajrayogini in front.

And I then put my palms together and bent and paid respect and thanked Vajrayogini for this out of body experience.

I felt so grateful to her.

And what made this work also is my devotion to Vajrayogini.

Devotion is the key.

I practiced it during the day, all day long, devotion and also practiced devotion throughout the night.

So now I finished paying gratitude to Vajrayogini, turned right and walked to the door of my bedroom.

I took my time, I touched everything on the left and whatever I could touch to keep the lucidity going.

And when I reached the door, I put my left hand on the door knob and opened the door.

And I thought whatever is going to appear before I open the door, let it be.

I didn't expect anything.

So when I opened the door and stepped out, it was outdoors.

And open air, like in the sky, I can see white everywhere, like white clouds.

And I was half expecting a room, but I got this instead.

And the dream faded.

And I did not do peering.

That was my mistake.

I should have peered at my hands in order to crystallize and bring in objects in the world.

But I stared at open infinity and the white.

And that was probably why the dream faded.

After the dream faded, I continued to do sadhana to Vajradhara and the four deities,

pray for blessings individually.

Mahakala for removing the outer obstacles.

Vajrayogini for bliss and emptiness.

Chenrezig for compassion.

And Green Tara for removing inner obstacles.

And I prayed to bless all sentient beings as well.

And also myself to grant me lucid dreams and OBE every night.

Then I did dedication of merits.

I forgot to do the mandala offering.

That was my goal before I went to bed.

When I faced the open air, besides trying to peer my hands,

I could have also tried to look down and land on the ground,

maybe in the green field or even the wooden floor or cement floor,

and rub the floor with my hands.

That would have stabilized the dream.

Also, I should have peered at my hands from the start.

The moment I got up and stood up and touched the curtains,

I should have peered at my hands or even peered at the curtain fabric,

look at the curtain fabric or look at the mattress fabric

or even look at the floor texture.

And this peering should have started early in order to crystallize the dream

and should have been continuously done non-stop.

Don't just look at objects in front,

but also continue to alternate between peering and looking at objects.

One thing I did right was that after I went back to bed,

I don't mind keeping awake, just lying down doing nothing,

but just resting with devotion in Vajrayogini.

That's the thing I did right.

Not minding that I just keep awake,

just stay awake is okay so long as you have devotion in Vajrayogini.

After a while, it happened.

Another thing I did right was not only to do generation stage,

but completion stage.

That means I take Vajrayogini to be empty as a projection of the mind

and also take everything to be a projection of the mind

and there is no in and out.

Everything is a projection of the mind.

And thirdly, to see that even the projection of the thought itself,

the thought of the projection itself is a projection,

and then rest in emptiness after that

and just see everything as projection whenever any thoughts or anything comes up.

I did this multiple times throughout the night.

And I think in the day as well occasionally,

that after all is the goal of the Dharma practice,

to see emptiness in form and to see form as emptiness.

During the day, I also did mandala offering as accumulation practice.

I view it as spiritual currency,

the engine that allows attainments to be achieved.

If there is no time, at least the basic minimum is mandala offering.

I also practiced skillful means,

that is to convert all anger to lust

and also to view my wife's family problems as an opportunity for practice,

transmute the negative feelings and view it as a positive one

and also try to use the pride instead of pride for this supernatural ability

to take it as more fuel for devotion towards Vajrayogini and also the Dharma practice.

Earlier throughout and occasionally in the night,

I also put Vajrayogini in the heart,

that is the recommended location for Vajrayogini in the heart area.

And that was also the last thing I think,

just prior to experiencing the phase state,

by visualizing, imagining Vajrayogini to be at the heart area.

It is also the ideal place if you are having devotion and loving-kindness towards Vajrayogini.

Excellent.

Maybe I can use Vajrayogini as a means to loving-kindness,

develop the loving-kindness towards Vajrayongini at the heart area and radiate it to all sentient beings.

Also compassion.

Devotion is the same as loving-kindness.

Use devotion and then take it as loving-kindness

and then towards Vajrayogini and then radiate it to all sentient beings.

447-LD: Floating above N-Park and Blessing it

 

8:45am

Earlier on, I got up from bed and went to a separate room to record an earlier lucid dream

because I mistakenly forgot to press the proper buttons

and then I came back to sleep

and I wasn't specifically trying to induce any lucid dreams or OBE

but I still lightly kept Vajrayogini in my mind

and transformed into her to help me sleep

and then now I dream I am in N-Park

and I don't remember exactly how

I was there in my house I think

and suddenly I became lucid.

After I became lucid as I was floating

I tried to clap my hands and rub it and eventually I succeeded

and then I clapped my hands and rubbed my hands

and then I floated out of the building

and flew up into the sky

and I prayed to the deities

and asked them for blessings to bless N-Park

and bless also all sentient beings staying in there

and I put my hands out as well

and I bless the whole building and the entire occupants in it

and thinking of what else to do to help sentient beings

and I was flying around inside the building

I think it was a car park and then suddenly the dream faded

446-LD: Street table, healing girl

 

6:53am:

Yesterday in the morning during the daytime, I did the Vajrasattva sadhana and then followed

by mandala offering, followed by the four deities practice sadhana.

Before I went to bed, I also did the mandala offering with a mandala mudra to my yidam and guru Vajrayogini at the altar.

And I prayed during that offering, mandala offering, I prayed for blessing to bless all sentient beings

and also to bless me with lucid dreams and OBEs.

Vajrayogini devotion is an important part of the practice devotion and gratitude.

And then at night before sleep, I did the Vajrayogini protocol and went to sleep and

got up two times to pass urine, went back to bed, continued doing the Vajrayogini protocol

and I found myself in a dream.

I was sitting outdoors and it was daytime by the roadside and there was a table in front

of me and on my left was a road, on my right is a row of buildings and left also a row

of buildings and there was a girl and other people outdoors watching me and I was supposed

to eat something at the table and I blinked for a while and the table became invisible

and see-through and my hands were still on the table, I could feel it.

I then realized that it is a dream and became lucid.

I was so happy. After finishing the sadhana or before,

I asked around to see Vajrayogini and she replied, I'm here.

And then I looked to the left and then I can't see her.

I looked at her across the street and the people in the distance.

And then I asked again, where are you?

And then she replied, I'm here.

Then I looked to the right, I also couldn't see her.

I turned around and looked everywhere, but I couldn't see her, even though I could hear her voice.

I then interacted with the people around me and talked and did a lot of things which I

don't remember but I remember that I started with the sadhana, the four deities sadhana

and for each of the deities I prayed for a certain blessing and also to bless all sentient

beings and I also prayed for the ability to help all sentient beings by being able to

do lucid dreams and having out-of-body experiences for the benefit of all sentient beings and

I also floated up into the sky and thought of ways in which I could help sentient beings

while in the out-of-body state or lucid dream state and it was already at night.

I floated up into the night sky, looked down and there were like black clouds everywhere

and then I flew down and landed in a place which is quite dark at night and I peered into my hands

and light came on and I entered into a building, a small house, wooden house.

There was a family there, an old mother and a son and I asked her,

do you have any people in the house which needs healing?

She showed me the room to her daughter who was sick, she was lying down in bed

and I put my left hand and right hand a few inches above her, the left hand was above her forehead,

right hand was above her chest and I did healing, generated healing energy from my hand

which went down to her and I could see whitish, orange, reddish light coming out of my hands

and going down to heal her and I also caused her body to float up above the bed

and she floated and became vertical and then after that came back down on the bed.

After finished the healing, I went to the living room of the house and spoke with the

the boy in the house and I tried to recall the early part of the dream

and where I was outdoors at the roadside and I spoke to him in English at first and then

later on switched to Mandarin and continued speaking to him. I think at one time the dream

almost faded and look at my palms, look at my hands again and then as I was speaking the dream

suddenly began to fade. It was a very long dream.

After the dream faded, I continued to do the dedication of merits and I'm also very grateful

and thankful to Vajrayogini for this lucid dream.

During the day when I was doing the four deity sadhana, I also added the triple om mantra for

Vajrayogini and then at night when I was in the bed and got getting up a few times awakenings,

I also did the triple om mantra for Vajrayogini, seven rounds each time. I did it twice I think.

445-OBE: Living room with red thangkas on walls

4:26 am:

Tonight, before bed, I reiterated the Vajrayogini protocol, the three steps.

And in the first step, I also added what I was going to do in the lucid dream,

or the out of body experience, the objective.

So I did the three steps repeatedly, repeatedly to remind myself again and again.

And I also, before sleep, I did give mandala offering to, using the hand mudra, mandala mudra,

to Vajrayogini as my yidam and guru.

And prayed that to bless all sentient beings and also to bless me with the lucid dream and OBE.

And I went to sleep and did the Vajrayogini protocol.

And then while lying on the left, with my hands crossed and without the bolster,

and my knees together and up to bent up, I entered many dreams, very clear and distinct dreams.

And in one of it, I was exiting the dream and it was like everything was white in colour.

And I thought, why not take this opportunity to make this into an out of body experience.

And everything was white. And I breathed in.

And as I breathed in, I imagined myself going up and up, like exiting the body, like getting pulled up and upwards.

And I felt the motion of my body going up and up and up, like in the early morning phase state.

And then I landed in my bed. I am now in my bed. I am aware that I am in my bed.

And then I did the exit technique. I moved, I think I rubbed my fingers and hands together.

And I touched the mattress on my left with my right palm.

And then I touched the side of the bed frame with my right hand.

And I used that as a way to step on the floor.

And I swung over, rolled over, stepped my two feet on the floor of my bedroom.

Beside my bed, I stood up and I tapped the left window, the curtains on the left.

And with my right hand, I tapped the mattress and I walked towards the bookshelf.

And as I passed the bookshelf, everything was still in darkness in the room.

I paid homage to Vajrayogini. As I bent forward, I knocked my head on the wall.

It felt like a cupboard.

After paying homage, I said thank you to Vajrayogini for the OBE.

I turned right, continued walking. And with my right hand, I continued touching the bed, the objects.

And on the left also, I touched the wall. I tried to peer at my hands to bring in some light and color.

I continued walking. When I reached the door, everything was still dark.

I used my right hand, touched the door-knob handle, opened and turned it.

Before I opened the door, I imagined that outside would be bright daylight.

And it should be very bright and color outside.

But when I opened the door, I saw everything was still dark, like there were no lights in the hall.

But anyway, I walked out through the door and I looked for the light switch and I walked around.

I turned on a few light switches on the far wall of my living room.

And as I turned on the light switch one by one on the left wall and the right wall, I turned on the light switches.

The room lights lit up and I could see objects in the room as well.

Now, I think the furniture in the room is appearing already.

I then walked to the kitchen which was still dark.

I did the same thing. I looked for light switches on the left wall and the right wall and I turned on the light switches.

The kitchen also lighted up and the kitchen furniture was also there and lighted up.

I came back to the front part of the living room and I continued to turn on the light switches.

And I could see now surrounding me on all the walls were thangkas, red color, and it looks like the deities.

All on the wall, so many of them on the right wall, on the front wall and on the left wall, all the thangkas, red color.

And there were like words on it. The impression I get was that they were Chinese words.

And I take them to be the Buddhist deities and then I really started my sadhana.

I said I want to give the puja to Vajradhara firstly and then I give my homage to Vajradhara

and then I also want to give my homage to the other deities, Vajrayogini.

By this time the dream faded and then I continued anyway to Vajrayogini and then to Mahakala

and then to Chenrezig and Green Tara. So I just continued my sadhana as though I was still in the dream.

And I prayed for blessings that they accept my mandala offering and bless all sentient beings to be free from suffering

and the cause of suffering, to be happy and also the cause of happiness and that all sentient beings be free from samsara

and that I also be blessed with lucid dreams and OBEs every night. And I close it with the dedication of merits.

And I also thank Vajrayogini earlier.

Earlier when I turned on the lights and saw all the red colour thangkas on the three walls, I also smelled the joss sticks very clearly.

Incense it was very clear and strong. It was like I was in a holy place or in a temple.

For the daytime practice as well as night, I just surrendered to Vajrayogini and imagined myself as Vajrayogini again and again throughout the day

and the night as well. And this is the main practice. Whenever I have any stress, unhappiness or any bad negative thoughts or feelings,

I just transform it by imagining myself as Vajrayogini and Vajrayogini replaces my sense of ego and it always brings me peace and calm, Vajrayogini.

Maybe I should have peered my hands longer with more repetitions to bring light and colour to my bedroom.

And also when I opened the door and saw that it was dark outside, at that time I should have peered at my hands more closely left and right and left and right repeatedly

to bring the light and colour to the outside of the living room as well.

While peering, it is also important to always constantly rub the hands to maintain the lucidity.

 

444-OBE: Surrender to Vajrayogini - Rise to sky - sadhana, then down to bedroom - New Vajrayogini Protocol

 

9:29 am

I did the protocol for NRA for a few nights I think 3 and didn't get much success and I always had to go back to Vajrayogini

to help, for helping me, to help me to calm down and have peace of mind again.

And then it's the same thing for tonight, I also did the NRA protocol and not much success.

And I, in the end, I just trusted to Vajrayogini, I surrendered to her and let her take over and I prayed to her,

as my Yidam and Guru, to let me have a lucid dream or an out of body experience.

And then lying on my right, I just let it happen, let it guide me and then really it happened.

I felt the phase state and early morning phase and felt myself being lifted up and up into the sky, backwards and upwards to the sky.

I can feel the whoosh of the wind blowing as I'm lifted up into the sky, back and back and back, up and up and up.

And there were clouds all around me, I was in the sky now and it was slowly rotating and I could hear the background whooshing sound,

like the wind blowing and there were some other sounds as well.

And then I could not feel my palms very clearly, could not feel my hands very clearly.

And I prayed to Vajradhara, wanted to do sadhanas, and also to the Gurus and the Yidam deities and the protectors and the Buddhas.

And I asked the blessing from them to bless me for the sake of all sentient beings.

Bless me with the ability to do lucid dreams and out of body experience.

And then there was a loud clapping, everybody was clapping very loudly, like it was successful.

And I also managed to clap my hands this time.

And then after that, I think there was a background music, oldies music: Battle Hymn of the Republic. 

And then I descended to the ground and entered my bedroom.

I was now lying on my bed on my right.

And I managed to rub my hands and clap my hands and feel them and also touch my face as I was coming down from the sky.

And I rotated to my right in bed and rubbed the mattress on my right and also rubbed the right-hand side of the bed frame

so that I could touch my feet on the ground on the floor of my bedroom.

And I managed to roll over and touch my both feet on the floor of the wooden floor of the bedroom.

I then stood up and walked and I went down to the floor of the bedroom,

used my hand and touched and rubbed the floor as well.

And then I peered at my hands on my right hand and as the skin color appeared and the light appeared,

the whole room also manifested in color and light.

And now I could see beyond my hands my bedroom. I have finished my sadhana goal for this dream and now it is playtime.

And then I walked towards the window and touched everything on my right, the cupboard and other objects as well.

And when I reached the window, I could see through the glass.

It was daylight outside.

There was a building in front as well - a tall building.

I touched the glass window.

I held the handle of the window and pushed it open.

And I put my hands on the window sill left and right, and wanted to climb out.

And at that point, the dream faded.

I could still feel some vibration in my right hand and tried to re-enter.

And then the dream faded.

The Vajrayogini Technique is - I imagine myself as Vajrayogini

and let her take care of all my cravings and stress and tightness and discomfort.

And it helped I could feel the peace.

And also whenever a new form of stress appeared, I would say her name Vajrayogini

and that will remove or dissipate the stressful energy or the stressful feeling or stressful thought.

And then I let go and trust, trust in her, surrender to Vajrayogini.

And it worked.

I also did chant her mantra. The triple Om mantra seven times.

I put complete faith and trust in my Yidam and Guru Vajrayogini

and also visualize her as often as I can whenever I need help and also ask her to help me.

And she granted and blessed me with a very vivid and powerful OBE.

After while recording this, I also dedicate merits, dedication of merits.

After entrusting to Vajrayogini, there were occasions when I also saw images in my mind.

Like the hypnagogic movements, like objects moving and so on.

And it was like moving to the left and moving.

I just allow it to be, don't try to control, let go of all control and wanting to control.

I think indirectly the NRA protocol still helps the part where you did the protocol A,

set the intention and to keep still every awakening and remember the dreams.

And I'm not sure about protocol C, whether it really help or not,

but every time I do the protocol C, I had to always revert to Vajrayogini

to get back the sense of peace and calm again.

New Vajrayogini Protocol:

1. Set intention to have lucid dream and OBE and remember dreams and action goals.

2. At every awakening, to keep very still and recall the dream, and try exit technique (i.e. finger-hand-test and roll-out-of-bed).

3. Imagine self as vajrayogini and surrender to her with trust. Don't try to do anything.