As a child I grew up scared of the dark and also afraid of ghosts. When I was around 7 years old, I lived in an old house. I dreaded going to sleep later than my parents. We shared a single room. I was the only child in the family. Whenever I go to bed at night, I always wished I would fall asleep before my parents did, so that I won’t be left alone in the dark. Strangely, somehow I believed that if they were awake, they could protect me from the dark. But if they slept before me, then I was alone to face the darkness of the room. And that felt terrifying.
There was once, I woke up in the middle of the night and thought I saw a white shadowy figure standing by the door of the bedroom. I immediately shut my eyes tightly and kept very still for a very long time. Eventually I managed to fall asleep. Throughout my childhood and even until adulthood, I grew up fearing the dark and ghosts. Then, I went to primary school.
One day, my father brought home a book entitled “You - Forever” by T. Lobsang Rampa. It was loaned to him by a colleague at work. This is the cover of the book:
Only much later in life, I discovered that those OBEs are actually a type of lucid dream. During my early years, whenever I experienced them, I also felt fear. Fear of dying, fear that I could not breathe. Fear of ghosts or other entities in the bedroom that may harm me. Due to these irrational fears, I learnt to suppress the OBEs. The furthest I managed to travel was to float up to the ceiling. Each time I felt the onset of OBE, I would suppress it and that stopped everything.
I have a love-hate kind of relationship with OBE. On the one hand, I love to develop it further, on the other hand, I fear ghosts. I was afraid that if I left the body, ghosts or other entities might harm me. I also feared seeing them thinking that they may appear frightening. And so I grew up with this tension between wanting to do astral projection and fearing ghosts. Nevertheless, I made it a mission in life, to somehow one day be able to develop this ability. In my high school graduation magazine, I even wrote out my life’s goal:
My lofty goal was to make astral projection be available to all. Today I am 61 and when I look back at those memories, I cringe at how I could write such things.
When I was in high school, I had a Chemistry teacher who was skilled in hypnotism. During school events, he would demonstrate his skills on stage. I had volunteered to be his subjects on numerous occasions. Later I was told that I was highly susceptible to hypnosis.
It was around this time that my father died from chronic renal failure. He was 72 years old. After his death, I had the fear that after 7 days from his death, his ghost might come back to visit me and my mum. I am of Chinese ethnicity and in my culture, it is believed that the spirit of the deceased would come back to visit the family after 7 days. For me, I secretly wished it was untrue. And so for the next 7 nights I lived in fear. At night, I dared not be alone in the dark. I feared going to the bathroom at night. I was living with my mother at this point. And I always tried to have her by my side at all times at night. Such was the severity of my phobia. As it turns out, my father’s spirit did not visit us 7 days after his death.
My second book in OBE was entitled: “The Projection of the Astral Body” by Sylvan Muldoon. I read this book shortly after I graduated from high school. Needless to say, I was obsessed with OBE. At that time, I had not yet entered university and was working as a guitar teacher at a music school. My goal in life then was to develop the ability to be able to do astral projection at will. Little did I know then, then it was all actually just lucid dreaming. I was using the wrong techniques, because I believed from reading Lobsang Rampa and Sylvan Muldoon’s books that one can actually leave the body. Today, after some experience in lucid dreaming, I have come to realize that it is all just dreams. And today I sometimes have OBEs using lucid dreaming techniques like Wake Back to Bed (WBTB) and Wake-Induced Lucid Dream (WILD). But more on that later.
I was brought up in a Christian family. I attended church regularly during primary school and until 3rd year of high school. It was then that I encountered Buddhism for the second time. My first encounter with Buddhism was in primary school. When I was in primary school, I had borrowed a book on Anapanasati (Mindfulness of Breathing) from the local library. I was fascinated with meditation but did not go very far as I did not understand the book very well. When I was in high school, I ventured more deeply into Buddhism and left Christianity behind. I attended many meditation retreats locally and in Singapore. I followed a Buddhist monk on many trips. He was called Venerable Piyasilo.
I also took a course called Transcendental Meditation (TM) and subsequently attended the advanced retreat called TM-Siddhi. The TM-Siddhi course was supposed to be able to teach me how to fly. But in the end, we did not fly. What we did was just to use our leg muscles to push our body up into the air. And this was considered flying. The practice of TM caused me to regularly experience whole body ecstasy. It was characterized by involuntary body vibration and shaking. Sometimes it originated in the head and at other times from the spine. It was much later that I discovered from the Buddhist teachings that these ecstatic experiences were called Jhanas. From the viewpoint of an onlooker, it would appear like I was in a trance-like state.
I also took the Silva Mind Control class. But did not get much out of that. There was one year when, I became a vegetarian and practiced Bhakti Yoga as taught by the Krishna Consciousness Society. I also practiced Raja Yoga as taught by the Brahma Kumaris school. Later, I was drawn to Advaita and neo-Advaita. I practiced those for some time.
While practicing Advaita, I had some mind-expanding experiences. The most profound one was when I was working as a lecturer in Inti College. I had parked my car and was walking to my office. On my right was a large field. As I stared at the field, I suddenly felt extremely peaceful for no apparent reason. It felt like I was invincible. Prior to that, I had been practicing affirmations: I am not this, I am not that ( one of the practices of Advaita, also known as Neti, Neti).
After graduating from university, I started working, got married and had kids. Occasionally, I would experience OBEs and would suppress them out of fear of the dark/ghosts.
In 2017, I started practicing Tranquil Wisdom Insight Meditation (TWIM). It is a form of Buddhist loving-kindness meditation discovered and taught by an American Buddhist monk named Bhante Vimalaramsi. I practiced TWIM for several years, but was not consistent. Occasionally it gave me some peace of mind. Sometimes I also experienced positive mind states, eg. joy.
Then, around September of 2022, I accidentally came across Andrew Holecek’s course on Dream Yoga. I took the course. That was my first encounter with lucid dreaming.
On October 22, 2022, I had my first lucid dream. At this point I was still unaware that the OBEs I had experienced since childhood were actually lucid dreams. Interestingly, my first lucid dream which was on Oct 22, was a wake-induced lucid dream (WILD).
I subsequently took Charlie Morley’s course, then read Stephen LaBerge’s books, Robert Waggoner and Kristen LaMarca. I also took Kristen LaMarca’s course entitled: “Mindful Lucid Dreaming”.
My lucid dreaming became more frequent. From Oct 22, 2022 until today May 5, 2024, I have recorded 253 lucid dreams. A period of 561 days. This equates to an average of approximately 3 lucid dreams per week, 14 lucid dreams per month, and 164 lucid dreams per year. Initially I used mostly the MILD (Mnemonic Induction of Lucid Dream) technique. Today, it is a mix of MILD, WILD and spontaneous lucid dreams. About 50% of the dreams are WILD. And it resembles out of body experiences (OBE). Most of the WILD lucid dreams are preceded by the wake-back-to-bed (WBTB) technique. My waking up during the nights are natural awakenings. I never use any alarm clocks. When I go back to bed, I would lie in bed and stop thinking. Eventually I would lose consciousness briefly and then regain it again. After regaining consciousness, I would recognize a sort of buzzing or humming feeling throughout the body. Sometimes, I would see dreamy scenes. That is a signal I am ready to have an OBE. I think this is called the hypnagogic state. It could also be interpreted as a hypnopompic state as I usually get this feeling after awakening from a brief lapse of consciousness. I would then imagine clapping my hands. After a while, I could actually feel my hands clapping. I then rub my fingers to solidify it further. Then, I would roll over my bed to my left and land my feet on the floor of my bedroom. Stand up and just walk away. From here on, I am fully in a lucid dream. I usually spin counter-clockwise to go to new dream scenes.
Then I remember my life-long experiences of OBE. The WILD experience is similar to the OBE I had experienced since childhood. This leads me to believe that OBE and astral projection is a form of lucid dreaming.
I have tried taking Huperzine-A a few times. I took it before going to bed at 12 am. The first time I tried it, I had 3 super-vivid lucid dreams in one night. I subsequently stopped taking it as they gave rise to uncomfortable feelings. It felt a little bit nauseous. Subsequently, I started taking Magnesium Lysinate Gycinate (100mg) and Vitamin B6 (25mg). I take one pill each at 11 pm every night before bedtime. I usually go to bed at 12 am. And naturally awaken at around 6 am to 7 am for the WBTB. I usually stay up for about 5 mins to 30 mins then go back to bed. My lucid dreams usually occur between 7 am and 11 am. Since I am sem-retired I get to sleep in every day. I usually wake up at 11 am. The Magnesium is taken to help me sleep and also to keep my blood pressure in check. I tend to have slightly elevated blood pressure. Taking the Magnesium supplements helps to keep it normal (around 120/70). I have been taking Magnesium Lysinate Glycinate since November 2023. The B6 is taken to help with lucid dreaming. I started taking B6 since May, 2023. The B6 helps to make the dream more vivid and also helps a lot with dream recall. Below is a picture of the supplements that I am taking.
During the day, I would listen to both recorders to recall and enjoy the lucid dreams that I had. As for the dream signs recorder, I would incorporate it into my growing list of 35 categories of dream signs for use with MILD. Since I started lucid dreaming I had been analyzing my dreams and identifying recurring patterns and categorizing them into 35 categories. These categories would then be recalled at least twice in a day during MILD practice. Once in the evening and once after WBTB.
Apart from the voice recorders, I also wear black sleeping masks. I use the type with indentations for the eyes. These are more comfortable because the indentations would allow space for the eyeballs instead of pressing on them. The sleeping masks help to make it easier to sleep. Below is a picture of the sleeping masks that I use.
Coming back to the fear of ghosts and the dark. My mother suddenly collapsed and passed away in 2002. She collapsed in the house in the evening. I called the ambulance. When they arrived and checked on her, they said she had died and refused to take her body away. I then called two other doctors to the house to check on her and they also confirmed she had died. I then had to go to the police station to lodge a police report of the death. It seems that the police needed to investigate and issue some kind of certificate before we could move her to the mortuary. But that was not to happen immediately. The police could only pay us a visit the next morning. Meanwhile, we had to keep her body in the house overnight. That night, we managed to call up the undertakers who arrived promptly. They brought a gurney and placed her body on it. However, they could not take her body away because the police had not yet issued the necessary certificates. That night I was overcome with fear and dread and could not sleep. I feared seeing the ghost of my mother.
The next morning, I had to drive to the police station and fetch three police officers to my house. After inspecting the body of my mother they issued some kind of certificate. With that I was able to call up the undertakers to come and move my mother to the mortuary. The wake lasted 3 days and needless to say, I was devastated. Not due to the sadness of my mother passing away, but more from the fear of the dark and the possibility of seeing her ghost.
Then came the 7th day. Me, my wife and my 5 year old son all bundled into the bedroom and watch TV until midnight. There was a replay of some James Bond movie on TV. I was terrified of seeing the ghost of my mother. As mentioned earlier, in my Chinese culture, it is believed the spirit of the deceased will return on the 7th night to visit loved ones. That night, I could hardly sleep. A few days earlier, I had bought some tranquilizer pills. I only managed to buy a few and had to cut them into half so that it can last me as long as possible. It was my only hope of pulling me through the remaining nights to come. Once I ran out of pills, I had to buy beer and some other alcoholic drinks. I was hoping it would calm my nerves to help me get over the irrational fear of the dark and of seeing the ghosts of my mother.
This intense fear dragged on for about 3 months. I dreaded the nights and welcomed the day. At night, I would be consumed by fear. Sleep was extremely difficult. I tried alcohol but it did not help that much. Eventually the fear lessened but still remained in the background. I also have recurring dreams of my mother. In those dreams, I was not lucid. Surprisingly in the dreams, I felt no fear of my mother. I spoke to her. But she never said anything. Sometimes she appears young and sometimes she looks the same as just before she died. Most of the time, she just stands there and does nothing. The fear only comes when I wake up in the morning and recall the dream. It is then, that I remember she had died and that usually brings a shiver down my spine. Throughout all this ordeal, I had not learnt about lucid dreaming. Any OBEs that I occasionally experienced was suppressed at once, out of fear.
Below is a list of all my lucid dreams from Oct 22, 2023 to May 5, 2024.
Lucid Dreams in 2022
DJ1(Dream Journal 1):
1. Realistic sands 10 Oct 22
2. P. Tikus flight 55 Nov 4
3. Office re-entry 68 Nov 7
4. Flying from school 129 Nov 21
DJ2 :
5. Metta open air hall 11 Nov 23
6. Medical school 16 Nov 24
7. Flooding bathroom 36 Nov 28
8. USM Gate 46 Nov 29
9. Floating cat 51 Nov 29
10. Medical mates in HC hall 72 Dec 2
11. Epic re-entry adventure 99 Dec 7
12. Persona on slope 122 Dec 10
13. Hand in doorcrack 123 Dec 10
14. Why not yet dreaming? 129 Dec 11
15. Solid walking cement floor 138 Dec 12
16. Water well LY 157 Dec 15
17. Cleaning window ledge 160 Dec 15
18. Toilet Mirror LY 166 Dec 16
19. Night walk on beach 172 Dec 17
20. Reading text test 183 Dec 19
21. Playing football 190 Dec 19
DJ3:
22. Grabbing roof 6 Dec 20
23. Superman x-country flight 13 Dec 20
24. Basement college library 22 Dec 22
25. Flying from room 27 Dec 23
26. Church ground LK 35 Dec 25
27. Hill slope LK HX 47 Dec 28
28. Hospital room s 52 Dec 28
29. USM toilet 64 Dec 30
30. Chinese medicine shop 68 Dec 30
Lucid Dreams in 2023
31. LD conference 79 Jan 2
32. Rough cement floor room 89 Jan 3
33. Castle door portal 98 Jan 5
34. Close open eyes LK 106 Jan 6
35. HC to lagoon flight 108 Jan 7
36. HC stage in classroom 119 Jan 9
37. Brown skin girl in field 123 Jan 9
38. KL tower to CE 128 Jan 10
39. Pg Hill Railing 130 Jan 11
40. Muddy jog, fly to NUS 141 Jan 14
41. Good samaritan in condo 152 Jan 18
42. Toy kancil car 163 Jan 20
43. Got arrested, fly away 173 Jan 22
44. After RU hostage ends 182 Jan 24
45. False awake in bed 191 Jan 26
DJ4:
46. Barefoot in P. Tikus 6 Jan 27
47. Pine trees to NY 20 Jan 30
48. Pg rd to English country rd 25 Jan 31
49. Weld Quay bench at night 31 Jan 31
50. Throw apple in bedroom 37 Feb 2
51. USM konvo delay 42 Feb 3
52. Parking lorry to Pantai Bersih 51 Feb 4
53. Reverse car & Taichi in temple 69 Feb 6
54. OBE & false awake NPark 77 Feb 7
55. NPark ground floor bed 84 Feb 8
56. Big house & Taichi 86 Feb 8
57. Party to space, black hole 97 Feb 10
58. Gombak h. Read newspaper 103 Feb 11
59. Margery Lim in classroom 114 Feb 18
60. Taichi, Qigong, piano, tennis 116 Feb 18
61. Flying Superman n Qigong 135 Feb 23
62. Qigong, Taichi 139 Feb 24
63. St George, space, shop bldg 150 Feb 25
64. Esplanade cats and kids 185 Mar 1
DJ5:
65. Edward egf to Disney world 11 Mar 4
66. Hug tree to Indian monks 22 Mar 6
67. DEILD in Top Holiday Hotel 49 Mar 11
68. School kids near drain 51 Mar 12
69. Inti dirty bathroom 59 Mar 13
70. National anthem in HC 64 Mar 13
71. Kitchen to padang opp CDK 67 Mar 14
72. Throat chakra qigong 5 step 71 Mar 16
73. Focus on Indian boy student 77 Mar 18
74. Hallway to vortex spiral 81 Mar 20
75. Battlefield, screams, bombs 91 Mar 23
76. Skating near 2nd RU house 93 Mar 24
77. Intimate girls, rob bank 97 Mar 24
78. Bicycling beside Sunnyville 103 Mar 25
79. No step pedals usm junctn 107 Mar 26
80. Police car collide Gurney Dr 115 Mar 28
81. Forward drift entry wild 125 Apr 2
82. Bicycle narrow stairs on wall 127 Apr 3
83. Finger crawl play ball 131 Apr 4
84.Raining clouds in condo 139 Apr 6
85.Push trolley railway st school 143 Apr 8
86.Drifting Qigong 156 Apr 12
87.School soft ground 157 Apr 12
88.Power outage switch fail 159 Apr 13
89.Drive car in hotel 165 Apr 14
90.Tilting to the right 175 Apr 17
91.Driving off cliff road 189 Apr 20
92.Car stuck in sand 192 Apr 21
93.Fly up cinema bldg 194 Apr 21
DJ6:
94.NUS hall missed class 9 Apr 24
95.Pointed tip Lego jet 12 Apr 24
96.Facing wall in classroom 17 Apr 25
97.Can't remove sleeping mask 30 Apr 28
98.Drone through balcony 34 Apr 29
99.Naked in old foundry 39 May 2
100.College lift fly back 46 May 4
101.Exit bldg car-->motor failed 52 May 7
102.To visit WP switches fail 66 May 10
103.WP big shoes and taken slippers 67 May 10
104.Ancient ritual group 71 May 11
105.UUM LT light switch 79 May 13
106.Barefooted in law office 90 May 18
107.Two rows lecture room 110 May 23
108.College hostel borrow books 113 May 23
109.FA in RU home 128 May 27
110.Forgotten LD becoz of AC 131 May 27
111.College hostel no shirt 150 June 2
112.Strange radio kettle 154 June 2
113.Loose gearstick 172 June 8
114.Wearing sandals top of staircase 174 Jun 8
115.Darren in College hostel 178 Jun 9
116.Sky, beach, water flight 179 Jun 9
117.Climb over temple balcony wall 182 Jun 10
118.Flying dream Tai Chi 187 June 14
119.Penang Rd poke hands 194 June 18
DJ7:
120.Bed in legal firm 5 Jun 25
121.Bicycle in Assumption sch 9 Jun 26
122.Riding bicycle & other DS 10 Jun 29
123.Three LDs Assumption sch 11 Jul 12
124.Komtar carpark car reversing 13 Jul 13
125.NPark car reversing 14 Jul 26
126.In bedroom, vibration, floating up 15 July 29
127.Road junction to school 16 July 30
128.USM touching rampage 21 Aug 3
129.Penang road bus 24 Aug 6
130.Flying bicycle in Burmah Road 29 Aug 11
131.Raja Uda home to primary sch 33 Aug 12
132.Fire & telekinesis from hand 38 Aug 13
133.Flying matches from room 43 Aug 15
134.NUS sandals and Dr Ronnie 49 Aug 23
135.Flying in USM library 59 Aug 25
136.Backlane flying & Inti meeting 62 Aug 25
137.NUS study toilet, created bldg 69 Aug 26
138.Raja Uda road, flipped car 77 Aug 26
139.Legal office, GTC and TKH 81 Aug 27
140.Descent into void, non-existence 88 Aug 27
141.Dream test logic 91 Sept 2
142.Two slabs in mud 92 Sept 2
143.Flying & 3 white doors 95 Sept 4
144.Upgraded NPark tiles 100 Sept 5
145.Room near Dato Kramat jail 102 Sept 9
146.LK students, tree and maggots 104 Sept 14
147.Empty house classroom 113 Sept 16
148.Bicycle to beach, throw sand 116 Sept 20
149.RU house, readRT, peep window 121 Sep 20
150.Missing tyre, LK child 128 Sep 24
151.Orange room & corridor 137 Sep 24
152.Classroom, hugs denied 140 Sep 24
153.E-bike in Assumption sch, TKT 143 Sept 27
154.Garage to Sch LD reminder 147 Oct 2
155.Mum in NPark, fly bicycle 153 Oct 6
156.Hup A buzzing floating 161 Oct 10
157.USM room buzzing 162 Oct 12
158.Urine on floor 167 Oct 13
159.Abdominal recording 171 Oct 14
160.Buddha in room, pa & ma 173 Oct 15
161.Missing ring 182 Oct 15
162.Facing balcony and fly 187 Oct 18
163.Nasty roommate, side ritual 191 Oct 20
Note: From here on I discontinued using handwritten dream journals and switched to digital voice recording. Note that the numbers appearing at the end of each entry signifies the date
Oct:
164.LD App, fly up fr bed 23
165.Market creditor, missing sandals 25
166.RU bathtub, missing mirror 26
167.RU toilet bowl 31
168.In bed waving R hand 31
Nov:
169.Crystal clear school 1
170.Anthony room, hospital corridor 5
171.In bed drifting, PNRT no hands 8
172.Face grass, device set fails 10
173.Tilt bicycle, misty greens float LK choir 11
174.Liminal, fly earth LK 12
175.Float bed, Hands RT, LK walk 16
176.BakChang, window misty black 17
177.FA in bed, amulet 19
178.RU stairs, spin 20
179.Room outside dark LK 25
180.Penang museum 28
Dec:
181.Mum, room, carpark flight 1
182.LK Melaka town 3
183.HC fly, kids screaming 4
184.Cliff edge missing
shoes 12
185.TPK in court 15
186.Inti blue hall convo 20
187.HC white square hall 25
188.Honda on slope, Dr Lee house 27
189.Looking for Adrian, sit on floor cinema 27
190.Under stall to big room 29
191.Tram swirl up sky 31
Lucid Dreams in 2024 Jan: 192.Roadside, police, hawker, George 3 193.D Kramat miss bus OmMPH 7 194.Mrs Kent big room 8 195.Honda and trishaws 8 196.Switch fail dark room to playground 13 197.Float in room avoid fan 17 198.Drift back beach LK Gods voice 19 199.Green hillside LK and green valley 19 200.Inti no shirt fly up 22 201.Mum ashes 25 202.NUS lib shorts sandals float OmMPH 27 203.RU wash toilet, bg Malay talk 30 204.Move hands out pull rope 30 Feb: 205.WP dark road table hotel 1 206.AS Darren RC car grab feet reentry 3 207.Touch feet fell on bed 4 208.Punjabi kid car 8 209.Bedroom WP n Ade 8 210.Barefoot Pg Rd fly beach road 9 211.PC table empty classroom 11 212.Tall bldg bicycle, room walk on hands 11 213.DrLee room bed got up walk 13 214.Room bed thru door thick greens 14 215.Room bed smooth window 16 216.Bathroom shower to bed grab feet 18 217.Bathroom to shaded greens 21 218.Bed sat up R foot cramp 23 219.Cheng school DEILD to float hillside 24 220.House walk to front 25 221.Adrian college no shoes near gym 26 222.USM veranda fly green pot plants 27 223.Stairs down old bldg night walk no shirt 29 March: 224.Wash toilet sink room window rain 3 225.USM lib gum torn book 6 226.Clap hand static snow Irene voices 11 227.Green field dig earth yellow school 12 228.Canteen plate not full 14 229.Mbike worm seller bicycle 14 230.Vague bed clap hand swung over walk 17 231.Fly from tall bldg ball muddy field 19 232.AS field fly catch ball humankind cease 20 233.Float feet facing fence 21 234.Vampire float ceiling WP taken FA in bed 21 235.Red room WP family pics on table 23 236.Embed in wall brown forest mouse car 29 237.Stairs rooms qigong trees 31 April: 238.Piano room green field forest 3 239.Bedroom to grass walk boy road 6 240.Carnarvon St LK 10 241.Breath body, head awareness 12 242.Politics office diseased R foot 14 243.OBE Wong house 17 244.Playground children who are you 20 245.Law office light switch fail 22 246.White school toilet socks 23 247.Law dorm office dance green outdoor 25 248.Night shrub fire to beach kids 26 249.RU 2 white dogs 27 250.BR fly balcony shaded green chicken LK 27 251.White pipe to sea, run on beach 29 May: 252.KL roadside, coffeeshop girls, lady 3 253.FuzzOut sharp tree leaf entry, under bldg 5
CONTACT WITH MY MOTHER IN LUCID DREAMS
Nov 29, 2022 (8. USM Gate 46 Nov 29)
[WBTB: 6.53am, dream: 9.15am]
In front of USM main gate. With Chew Eng Keat(C) and mum. Became Lucid (mum dream sign). Walking here and there touching things to increase and maintain lucidity. Mum seems sad. I squatted down and touched the road. It felt rough and solid. I then touched the dirt sand and small flowers on the left side of the road. They felt softer than the road. I was very glad to be able to be lucid. Engaged the dream world as much as I can. Mum spoke. She sounded scared. I told her, “You sound very different”. She sat down on the ground, leaning against the wall. I then squatted down and hugged her to comfort her saying, “Mi, remember that I love you.” “I will always love you,” I continued. Mum was relieved and felt better. I stood up. I felt that I had made peace with mum. I then felt loving-kindness. I wanted to engage the dream world further. And so, I examined the guard house. I touched the wooden surface. I flew up a little and lucidity began to fade slightly. I then remembered that flying can decrease lucidity. And so, I immediately came down to the ground again. I reminded myself, “Whenever lucidity fades, ground yourself”. When I came down to the ground, the scenery became sharp and vivid again.
I started climbing the sides of the guard house. C told me to be careful. I replied, “Don’t worry, I am good at climbing”. I remembered that I was climbing other structures earlier. I also knew I could fly and therefore could never fall. So, I half floated and half climbed. The alternative is to teleport. I thought, “C could not fly”. But he floated upwards on my right. I was surprised and looked down at his feet. I told him, “Look, you are flying”. “Do you know that this is a dream?” I added. He replied, “I figured it out some time ago”. I said, “This is a dream. Do you know that you are dreaming?” I then thought to myself, “Maybe I should not mention dreaming once I am lucid in a dream?” The dream began to fade. I tried spinning. The scene blurred a little. I stopped spinning and tried to turn around. I tried to will myself back into the dream, but it did not work.
I then heard Wai Peng (my wife) making some sound in bed on my right. I did not want to make it too serious - instead wanted to take it playfully. So I let it go. Felt so grateful for this lucid dream. Gratitude is good. I stayed in the same position in bed to recall as much detail as I could about the dream.
Oct 6, 2023 (155.Mum in NPark, fly bicycle 153 Oct 6)
[WBTB: 6am, dream:8.48 am, lying on left]
I was in my N-Park house. I think I just stepped out of my bedroom and I hugged mum. It was morning. After hugging her, I walked into the living room. I was wondering if this could be a dream. So I did PNRT (pinched-nose reality test) and could breathe. I did it 3 or 4 times. So, this confirmed that this is a dream. Became fully lucid. It was so realistic. I walked around and could feel the floor with my feet. It was like I was really there. I walked to the front of the living room to the main door, turned around and looked at mum. She was sitting in a green sofa facing the main door. Earlier, she was walking around and talking to me. She was so happy. I knew she had already died but I wasn’t afraid. She was happily talking to me about something. And I was also replying to her. I kept walking around the living-room a few times. I then rode a small bicycle towards the sliding door. I then turned the bicycle to face her. She was still seated facing the main door - sitting on the green sofa chair. It was the first sofa I owned previously.
I decided to test to see if me and the bicycle could fly. So, whilst sitting on the bicycle, I willed myself to fly. Me and the bicycle both flew up into the air! This further confirmed that this really is a dream. I was so glad and happy. This is the 2nd test confirming it is a dream. I came back down to the ground and continued riding the bicycle for a while. Then, I got up and walked around for a while. Then I thought, “Let’s try to fly”. So I opened the balcony sliding glass doors. Strangely, there were no balcony walls or railings and I could see directly very clearly down. I was on the 22nd floor of my condominium unit. My legs were dangling out of the balcony. I became scared of the height even though the previous 2 reality tests confirmed that this is a dream. I dared not fly off the balcony. I knew that if I flew, I should be able to fly straight up. But because it was so real, I had my doubts. And so, I did not try to fly from the balcony.
I didn’t want mum to see me there, so I came back into the living-room again and closed the sliding door. I walked towards her. She suddenly mentioned, “Outside got grass” - referring to the view through the windows. I peeped out and saw that really, there was a grassy garden outside. It was like having a ground level grass field just outside my front door. I think it could have materialized because of my intention to fly to the ground level - instead of from a balcony. I told mum, “Let’s go take a look”. And so, I opened the door and walked out into the grass field. There were green pine trees as well. I felt the sharp fine grass and pine leaves beneath my feet. It poked the soles of my feet but it was not painful. Just very real. I was barefooted.
Mum also followed me out into the open. It was daytime. I thought of flying. And so, I flew up a bit for a short distance. But the view above was blurry. Foggy. The only thing clear was the grass beneath me. And I kept my gaze down. Instinctively, I knew that if I were to fly up, the dream might fade. Because it was open air and the surrounding was not familiar, the lucid dream began to fade.
So, I learnt an important lesson. If you are in a familiar surrounding like inside your own house - where everything is familiar, then the lucid dream will be very stable, clear and realistic. But when you are in an unfamiliar surroundings like outdoors, then there is a tendency for the lucid dream to fade. Especially when you are trying to fly. This has been a very long, nice and hyper-lucid dream. And I am so glad for it!
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