443-OBE: Fly-beach to Island Park

  

9:27 am

I did the NRA protocol as usual throughout the night and then I got up early morning

around five something, pass urine, drink water and go back to bed and continue to do the NRA protocol and I sometimes felt overwhelmed, too stressed out, too much wanting to experience the OBE or lucid dream and I substituted myself as Vajrayogini and also sometimes just think of her and that helped to keep calm and bring peace to my mind

and then I interspersed that with NRA protocol and then lying on my left I entered the hypnagogic state and there was a scene in the beach where I was like floating above the sand and the sea and I tried to test to clap my hands and rub and it worked. I then entered the OBE experience and I went down to the sand, grabbed some sand and felt it. I also felt the waves, the water and the wind and I floated around the beach area like that further up into the sky. I felt good, felt happy and I fly forward into the horizon and felt the wind blowing in my face and I decided to land somewhere, landed in the grass.

I willed myself to go down to the grass to touch it with my hands and I managed to tap the grass with my hands to increase lucidity. I then willed myself to stand on the grass and walk

and I managed to step on the grass and walk and the moment I stepped on the grass and started walking the world became more vivid and clear. I was in the island glades area

island park area and there were houses all over and I walked on the streets of that area

and there were so many houses but there were all nobody was visible there were no people humans and I remember that when there are no humans that means we are not really deep into the dream so I was eager to have human contact so I tried to look for humans in every house and I went from one house to another left and right and I also remember to peer at my hands throughout from one hand to another throughout this dream and to make sure that I don't focus on one spot for too long and I could feel the vibration in my hands as well eventually the dream faded and my hands were not together so I could not re-enter the dream. I wanted to do the mandala offerings and also other sadhanas but didn't have the opportunity to do it. I was too eager to move forward and engage the dream further instead. 

I find that whenever I have any fear, stress, lust, anger, whatever any strong emotion I just replace myself with Vajrayogini or just think of Vajrayogini and that immediately brings peace and calm. I could also do this if I wanted to sleep just think of Vajrayogini or transform myself or replace myself with Vajrayogini and I can sleep. I am so filled with devotion and love for Vajrayogini and also gratitude for my lovely yidam and guru. I'm in love with her.

Earlier on when I was in the island park housing estate it felt so realistic like I was actually

really there walking on the roads maybe what I should have done to prolong the dream was to continue to rub my hands, peer at my hands and rub the road the rough surface of the road as well continuously rotate cycle through these actions. I think one of my mistakes was that when I got up and went back to bed around five something when I went back to bed I did not put in enough awareness and that caused me to slip into dream that caused me to slip into sleep state so and then dragged on until sleep until in and out in the morning quite late in the morning so in future after getting up from bed at four or five and going back to bed I should put more effort into awareness into the anchor should focus more into the anchor to stay keep awareness to keep awareness up and alive more awareness is needed.

So basically this is the scenario when you're there in the NRA protocol you to put awareness into the anchor and the images and the inner voice which is your anchor and if you get too overstressed with too much wanting that causes unpleasant feelings put the brakes on by using Vajrayogini by thinking about her thinking of her or substituting yourself as her and once you put the brakes on if you get peace and calm you can relax with breathing relax and breathing let go and fall back towards the sleep direction but don't let yourself fall off into sleep. Once you feel that you like going to sleep and you feel the myoclonic jerks you should then put focus on awareness again at the anchor and in that whole thing repeats itself. So it's a fine balance and if we get it right you enter the OBE. Tonight's experience is an OBE because I entered it I entered the dream state I entered the dream world through the hypnagogic imagery.

442-Lucid Dream: Fly in sky looking down, mandala offering in alley

 

7:41 am

I did the NRA protocol, and now I'm dreaming I'm in a compartment, quite cramped, with other girls or batchmates.

And in front of the compartment, there is a glass which has a window in the center,

and then there was Adele on the right, perched on the glass, doing studies.

The other girl batchmates were behind me on the left and on the right, and I was leaning onto one of them on the left.

And I also was partially perched on the glass frame, and I lay down back,

and I then came out from the compartment and walked into the kitchen.

And there were some cooks on the right and left, they were like experts.

And they were singing some rap music in Chinese, and I think some language.

And they looked at me and asked me something, suspecting that I'm a master of some sort.

And then I saw on the left, there was the wooden panel behind which there was the group of girls I was just with earlier.

And then on the left to that is an outdoor going to the beach, there were lights streaming in.

And then I walked out to the outdoor, and as I was walking out on the right, there was some group of people doing something.

And I walked past, they looked at me, and looked at me with some kind of respect.

I then walked to the beach grass area, and I turned around to face them.

And before I did that, as I was walking, I flew up into the sky slowly.

And as I floated in the sky, I turned to look at them, and they were all looking at me in admiration.

I floated up to the sky higher and higher and higher and higher, and I could see the clouds.

And I turned around, put my hands to the sides in a V-shape, and flew up high into the sky.

And then I felt the breeze, the strong wind in my face, and it was exhilarating and nice.

And I landed somewhere. It was already at night.

And by this time, I became semi-lucid, and knew that it was a dream, it was at night, and I walked into a tavern.

Kind of, it was quite dark, and there were people, customers inside. I was so happy.

And as I walked around, I was like talking to myself.

And I remembered that I wanted to do a mandala offering.

And now I walked out into the alley, and it was like there were some people walking about.

I put both my palms in front of me, facing up.

And I said, let me create a mandala of pure realm for the offering to the Refuge Tree.

And I felt the energy built up in the palms of my hands.

And then the circular pure land mandala was created, it was transparent, semi-transparent.

And it was glowing with white and red light.

And I gave it more and more things, all the goodness of the universe, the best of the best.

I gave things, the riches, the richness of everything.

Let it be here.

And I was walking, I was doing this, I keep adding good things onto the mandala as I was walking.

And then it became heavier and heavier.

I said, let it also be illuminated.

Let the sun, let the universe, all the suns revolve around it.

And it was now getting very heavy.

And at this point, the dream began to fade.

But I still continued with my mandala ritual.

I then offered it to the Vajradhara Retinue, the entourage.

And I prayed for blessing, to bless me with the ability to lucid dream and to OBE for the benefit of all sentient beings.

And then when I was done, I did the dedication of merits.

This was when I was already out of the dream.

Throughout the nights, when there was early part of the night when I couldn't fall asleep,

I transformed myself into Vajrayogini.

And that helped to give me peace of mind.

In future, for the lucid dream induction, I will remember to transform myself into Vajrayogini first.

441-Lucid Dream: Riding motorcycle in Dato Keramat-Penang Road

 

8:06 am

I was riding a motorcycle, along Dato Keramat Road and as I approached the red light at the junction of Penang Road,

I felt ashamed that I could be Adrian's father and I think he also would be very ashamed of me because I was so old and I was naked riding the motorcycle.

And then as the red light turned green, I continued moving into Penang Road. It was at night and then at the junction there,

I suddenly realized that this is a dream and I was so happy. I floated upwards to the sky and then dropped the motorcycle on the road

and the next motorcycle turned in. I wanted to touch him and he avoided me. I was so happy and suddenly the dream faded.

It was such a relief to become lucid in a dream.

Thank you to Vajrayogini and Vajradhara for this lucid dream. It seems my prayers have been answered.

Although this second lucid dream wasn't specifically induced, I was doing the red ཨ at the throat when I got this lucid dream.

In the first OBE tonight, I prayed to Vajradhara and the entourage to grant me the blessing to have lucid dreams and OBE at will.

440-Out of Body Experience: Refuge Tree and Big Hall Office

 

6:26 am

Last night I received the 4 deity empowerment and then tonight I did the NRA protocol all night long and while lying on the right, just keeping still and watching, just watching, doing nothing.

And I entered the phase state and I rubbed my fingers and then rubbed my hands and clapped them, I brought them to my face and touched my face, touched my chest and body.

And then did healing for the anus, my left hand on the anus and then left hand on the prostate in front while my right fingers rubbing as well.

Not to keep my focus on one place but to divert attention to both the left hand and the right hand.

When I finished that, I turned to my impossible angle, with my right hand I touched the mattress and then touched the side and I put my feet on the floor of my bedroom and stood up from my bed.

And I tapped the curtains on my left with both hands and started walking towards the bookshelf and at the same time also I tapped the floor with my right hand and rubbed the curtains with my left as I continued walking.

Once I arrived at the bookshelf, at the altar there, I put both palms together and paid homage to the Vajrayogini.

She was glowing with white light and I bowed down three times and gave devotion as well as gratitude for this out of body experience.

She was happy and glad and she told me, okay, move on.

So I moved on to the right of my bedroom, walking towards the door.

And then there was a space, a big space, I wanted to do sadhana  to the Vajradhara and the entourage.

So I knelt down on the floor, put my palms together and summoned Vajradhara and the lineage of gurus above him and the buddhas to his right and the sangha to his left and the dharma behind. 

And in front are the yidam deities and also the dharma protectors. Wanted to give mandala offering. It was a long sadhana.. where I said many things but don't remember what.

And at the end of it, the entourage Vajradhara asked me, is there anything else?

And then I asked for a last blessing.

I asked them to bless me with the ability to induce lucid dreaming and out of body experience at will very easily.

I asked this three times and then I put my head on the ground and bowed and touched my head on the ground and gave respect as a final respect to end the sadhana.

And then the entourage indicated it was over, finished, I stood up and was so happy, I felt good.

In front was my door, on the right there was a glass window and light was coming in.

And then I walked towards the door and there was a lever handle, I put my right hand on it and I thought to myself, okay, this is party time, fun time, I have already achieved my objective tonight.

I turned the door lever, pressing down and pulling open and walked out and I saw there was a banister on my left, brown color, even the floor, wooden parquet, everything was wooden color and there were steps going down.

So I put my hand touching the banister and peering and walked down the steps.

Earlier I did not have to peer my hands to manifest the world, instead the world manifested in my room.

Now it seems here there were steps going down and I peered across the banister momentarily and not to keep the focus in the horizon.

And I saw that it was a huge hall, like a shopping mall office, very big and it was filled with workers.

And on the front and the right of the hall there were windows and it was like outdoors, I could see the light coming in and outdoors.

And I walked down the banister, I walked down the staircase step by step.

It was a long step down, many, many steps and as I walked down I kept peering my banister and the fine grain of the wood particles so as to keep the world continue to be lucid and clear.

And I keep peering also to my right hand and I make sure that I don't keep my focus on one space for too long but keep peering left and right, left and right hand and banister as I walked down.

As I reached the bottom of the landing there was one office worker, Roger ex-Inti staff.

And I touched his face and he felt very solid like a block of wood and he smiled at me, he was happy to see me and he spoke something.

And I said, how are you? And then I put my right hand on his chest and I wish him loving kindness, may you be well and happy.

And at that point the dream began to fade and I allowed it to fade.

It was a very long OBE and when I came out of the dream I did dedication of merits three times.

Objective for the tomorrow night's OBE I will manifest a mandala of Pure Realm and offer it to the entourage of Vajradhara and the Gurus and the Buddhas, Sangha, Yidam, Deities and Protectors.

It's also the night after I gave a new offering of a garland of skulls to Vajrayogini and I also now is able to transmute my wife's family problems into support for me

and also able to transmute anger into lust and also lust into Vajrayogini, which gives my mind peace.

I also realize now that this is my goal and I will keep my focus on this. This is all that I need to be aware of every day of my life.

I don't have to bother about my wife's family problems. Just focus on this and be grateful that I have these supernormal powers to be able to do merits in my dream to benefit all sentient beings.

And this will be my practice every day, my spiritual practice.

I also feel very strong devotion to my Guru Vajrayogini and very grateful to her.

When I was still on my knees doing the sadhana to the Vajradhara entourage in my bedroom, Wai Peng woke up from the bed and walked towards me where I was and I knew that she cannot see me.

I was invisible and I pushed a pillow onto the left and I think she walked across through the pillow and she walked through me as well and opened the door and went downstairs.

Since I'm invisible, I'm not afraid that she can hear me. I was speaking out loud doing my sadhana.

Earlier when I was still lying in bed, I was feeling uncomfortable in my legs and knees and I wasn't afraid to change position to right and left or whatever.

And the important thing is not to be afraid to move to change position if it's too unbearable. The important thing is to keep calm and then just watch, keep still and watch and do nothing.

That's the key and then relax. Then you will enter the phase state easily.

Earlier, to fall asleep, early on in the night, I also did the Red ཨ at the throat method several times I think throughout the night as well.

Transmute Pride to Gratitude, Devotion and Compassion

Even though I have these supernormal powers, I shouldn't be proud. I shouldn't feel pride. I think I can transmute it.

Instead of feeling pride, I should transmute it to gratitude, gratitude and devotion to Vajrayogini, my guru, and also transmute it to the Bodhicitta to help all sentient beings in any way I can, especially during the dream state.

So in other words, transmute the pride energy into devotion and compassion and also use it, transmute the pride into more confidence in the Buddha, Dharma and Sangha and also the yidams and deities and protectors.

Transmute that pride into more confidence alongside with the reminder of preciousness of human life and impermanence and the suffering of beings in samsara and karma.

Use that as a catalyst, transmute into a catalyst to continue to practice Dharma and Buddhism. Vajrayana Tantrayana is all about transmutation of negative energy into positive qualities using skillful means.

439-Out of Body Experience: Healing Left Heel

 

I did the full NRA protocol all night long and early morning, I lying on my left, I felt the phase state. And I gently rub my fingers and rub my hands together and patiently bring it to my face and rub my face, rub my chest and down and then using my right hand I reach out to my left heel, slowly slowly the left heel brought up and then I touch the left heel and then I could feel the pain on my left heel a little bit and then I apply the healing energy and then the dream began to fade. It was worth it, even though I focus on the left heel, I managed to feel some energy there, healing energy.

Throughout the night, I was very patient to apply the ABC protocol patiently and it paid off. To summarize the part C of the protocol, I just hold my gaze steady and do nothing, I just wait. Earlier, I exited from a dream and remembered to keep very still and I kept like that and I was like my consciousness and awareness was like being underwater, very bogged down. And I knew that if I kept it like that, I would fall back to sleep so I had to fight to keep my awareness and try to bring it above the water and I managed to get it above the water. That means put in more awareness and make more control and then I turn to the left and lying on my left, I just kept my gaze steady and did nothing, just wait and then it happened - the phase state.

The dream faded earlier because I kept focused on my right hand, on my left heel for too long, I knew it was wrong but it was worth it healing, but because of the focus it faded. Maybe in future if I wanted to do the healing, I will alternate my attention between my left hand and my right hand so that the focus is not on one spot for too long. Keep rubbing left finger and feel the right heel, keep rubbing left finger and then the right heel like that.

Also remember how the problem with your wife's family is in your favor, it helps you in your quest for out of body experience and lucid dreaming. And also remember your main goal and keep this gratefulness for this and that is enough and you pacify all your stress and bring you peace. Remember your main goal and be grateful for it. That's enough, don't bother about all the other things, this alone is enough for you. Your main goal, be glad, be contented that you have this supernatural ability, just keep focusing and practicing it. This is all you need to keep your attention occupied, everything else that happened in your wife's family is supporting you in this thing. Think of it that way. Think of the other side of the coin. This is the Vajrayana's skillful means to transform the mind.

Could anger also be transmuted using skillful means?

Maybe, transform anger to lust. Then replace the lustful object with Vajrayogini and see what happens...

Technique: Non-Reactive Relaxation With Anchoring (NRA)

A. Before Sleep and After Every Awakening:

Form the clear intention to:

1. Have Lucid Dreams and Out of Body Experience tonight.

2. Keep absolutely still upon every awakening and to do the Protocols B and C described below.

B. Protocol To Fall Asleep:

Feel a red ཨ at the throat.

C. Protocol At Every Awakening:

1. Try to re-enter the dream you just exited from. If that fails, test to see if you are already in the hypnagogic or hypnopompic state by trying to rub fingers or clap and rub hands. If you are in the state, then exit the body. Next, peer closely at any hand to bring light and color to the dream world and then off you go. But, if not in those states, proceed to do the Non-Reactive Relaxation with Anchoring, which follows below.

2. Keep absolutely still and let go of heavy thoughts with a non-reactive attitude. Don't react to any thoughts or feelings or sensations. Just let them be. Don't try to do anything.

3. In the background of your mind, you could subtly use the breath to help you let go and relax.

4. With eyelids closed, gently gaze at the void in front at any images, if any, that appears. This is the anchoring aspect which prevents you from drifting off to sleep. Don't gaze too hard, just gently. Otherwise, you will be be in a state of doing. Remember, you should maintain a mental attitude of Non-Reactivity, i.e. not doing anything. Use the analogy of a ship and the anchor. You are the ship and the chain is awareness. The image in front is the anchor. Too much awareness and you are exerting too much effort. Too little awareness and you drift off to sleep. Just apply very light awareness to stay awake. A subtle balancing act. Remember to relax your eyeballs and eyelids.

To summarize:

Perform the test: finger-hand-rub-clap. Then, let go of thoughts and feelings by not reacting to them. Use the breath to relax while anchoring in the images behind closed eyelids.

438-Lucid Dream: School Walk while telling myself "I am Dreaming"

 

7:19 am - To sleep, I feel the red ཨ at the throat that let me sleep all night long and then once

I got up pass urine and back to bed, I did the non-reactive method and after a long time 

keeping still-important and also relax breathing to let go. I finally felt the

early morning phase state while lying on the right and I was then

hypnagogic, felt like I was sitting on a stool and tilting to the right and going to fall on the

ground from a table but then I realized I cannot be because I'm sleeping in bed so this is a dream

so I just allow it to fall and as I fall, I felt myself being pulled upwards in the phase feeling

and I let it be but the dream faded before I could go further.

8:16 am

- Continue to do non-reactive breathing and while lying on my right, I got my second lucid dream tonight.

I was in a kind of hazy state of mind and realized that it's just a dream.

I then clapped and rubbed my hands and then sustained it.

It was all in darkness and I continued to peer into my right hand while rubbing.

As I peered and saw the texture of the skin color of my right my hand, the world appeared.

I found a classroom in the back.

I then put my hands on the floor and rubbed the floor and tapped it.

I then stood up on the floor of the classroom, the cement floor, and walked with my legs touching it.

There was an opening on the left, so I walked to the left to go out of the classroom.

As I walked past the windows of the classroom outside, I tapped the classroom window and rubbed on it as well.

And I continued to remember to always rub my hands.

And then the dream faded, but when it faded, my palms were not together, so I could not re-enter the dream.

Prior to the first lucid dream and the second lucid dream, I prayed to Dorje Shugden to bless me with OBE or lucid dreams.

As I was walking outside the classroom, tapping and rubbing the window glass, I spoke out loud as I walked.

I said, wow, I really lucid dreaming, there was a small drain on my left as I walked.

It felt so real, like I was actually there walking as I was talking to myself.

Technique:

Feel Red  ཨ at throat for sleeping. Visualizing Red ཨ is optional. What is important is the sensation at the throat. 

Upon every subsequent awakening in the night, do Non-Reactive method for inducing lucid dream/OBE. Eejit's (Stephen Walsh) Chain of Thoughts method. Be Non-Reactive to let go of heavy thoughts until light thoughts (liminal dream) appears. The light thought-forms is the anchor. Occasionally keep awareness on them to prevent drifting off to sleep. Once you feel the hypnagogic state, rub fingers, rub hands and off you go!

Tip: If you just do Red  ཨ at throat. There is no anchor and you might drift off to sleep.