468-OB: Healing while floating in night sky

 

7:57am

I did  Zaritski method all night long after getting up from bed to pass urine and went back to bed at 4 something and lying on my right, in and out, in and out of Zaritski method and I finally felt the early morning fuzzy feeling.

I then willed myself to feel my hands and rub and I managed to rub and then I also felt my face and rubbed my hands all the way up to the shoulder and then I turned, rolled over to the left and rubbed the side of the bed with my right palm.

I stood up on the floor, rubbed the curtain on the left, rubbed the bed on the right, walked over to the shelf in front and then I tried to walk to the door and I looked at my palms, I looked at my hands, peering, and the light and colour came into the world for a while.

But I was too rushed and I lost the light and colour and I propelled to the door of my bedroom, stopped briefly there and then burst through the door, I was too rushed and I fell into open black empty space and there was no light, no colour.

I then thought of doing healing so I brought the hands to my chest, healed my heart, felt the energy and then also healed my penis, prostate area and then healed my anus and I feel the energy went through the body and did the healing. And then I brought my hands to my left heel and healed my left heel as well and then the dream faded.

Earlier, after four rounds of Zaritski and I went back to sleep doing pacify method. 

Pacify method:

Relax and let go of stressful thoughts. As it dissipates, you will feel the calm and peace is already there in the background.  It is a mistake to try to feel calm and peace. Can use this method also throughout the day as emptiness practice. 

Principle is that when you are focused on stressful thoughts, it blocks the background stillness. When you relax that focus, it is like the murky water becoming still and the underneath calm is felt. So, you cannot bring about calm directly - instead you let go of stressful thoughts and calm will be felt as a result. Falling asleep is the same. You cannot fall asleep by effort - instead you relax the stressful thoughts - and sleep is the result. 

That background calm and spacious emptiness - is the real you. Free from suffering.

467-OB: Marble black NUS library

 

7:08 am

I did Zaritski method practicing all day long every time I had the chance to lie down and then tonight falling asleep I also did one round just to fall asleep as a practice. Then I got up, passed urine, at five, drink water, went to bed. I also did one round Zaritski and then intended every awakening I will perform Zaritski and I did it many many rounds every awakening Zaritski and then lying on my left I had a very very long very long out of body experience. 

I was doing Zaritski in and out many rounds and in one of it, I felt like a dazed state and I says okay since I'm in a fuzzy state let's will it to deepen and deepen and I willed myself to clap my hands and easily effortlessly the hands appeared in front and I clap and rub and then I rubbed the left hand side of the bed frame and I stood up on the floor of my bedroom, rolled over, stood up, stood up and then rubbed the curtain on the left and then I walked towards the the bookshelf in front, continued rubbing the side of the wall as I walked towards my bedroom door and I also looked at my hands, peered at it occasionally and effortlessly walked, reached the door of my bedroom.

Earlier Wai Peng already went outside to prepare breakfast for Darren and I knew both of them are outside and I opened the door and Darren was sitting at the table facing me. He looked straight at me but couldn't see me. It was so realistic that I thought maybe he might see me but he didn't see me and then Wai Peng was on the left walking in from the living room towards me and I walked towards the door of my apartment and then opened it. I was afraid Wai Ping might see me too but she didn't see me and she almost collided with me. I opened the door and left it open like that and then obviously they didn't see me. 

I'm just invisible and then I walked out of the house, went through the door and then continued to proceed to the metal gate outside and I thought I can walk through the metal gate. I said never mind and I just turned the metal gate push open without any key and it opens freely and I walked out onto the corridor of my house towards the lift and I reached the lift. There was a button, I pressed the button for the lift to come. I imagined the lift arrived and immediately the lift door opened and I stepped in and I see the metal floor. It was like very new, newer than my actual real life lift. 

I went in, the lift closed and there were no buttons but then I willed the button, the button appeared. I imagined pressing and I pressed the button and the lift went down. There was only one button and at first the lift door didn't open, keep going down and down. I imagined that it's already arrived and then the lift door opened, I stepped out and then by this time Darren was with me already. Then I stepped out, I saw outside was a granite structure. It was a dark greenish granite like a modern design and I imagined that this is NUS and I told Darren, come let me show you NUS and then we climbed up the stairs up to the top part and then there was another second flight of stairs leading up and then I willed this to be a library of NUS.

Then as I walked up the stairs it became a bit sluggish and then when I reached the top of the stairs there was the library entrance, I told Darren on the left is the food court. If you walk straight to the end you can see the food court and then there was the entrance of the library in front of us. Darren said okay let's go see the food court. I said okay why don't we see the library first. So as I was trying to walk to the library the dream faded. 

While I was in the lift earlier on my right was a mirror and I looked into the mirror and saw my face and I spoke to myself hey this is myself Paul Chin. Even though I was speaking but in the face the mirror was stationary, didn't move, the mouth was still and look my face was normal and young.

466-OB: Peering at hands in front of bedroom door

 

5:37 am

Throughout the day, I practiced the Zaritski Method and then before bed, I also practiced the Zaritski Method while lying down in bed. Then I went to sleep partially using the Zaritski Method and also Joy on Demand, got up at 4 a.m. pass urine, drink water and then went back to bed practicing the Zaritski Method just one round.

And then just Joy on Demand and the next awakening, I practiced the Zaritski Method while keeping still. And also I did it gently so that it helped me fall asleep as well. And I continued doing that for a few rounds. And then while lying on my right, in between the Zaritski Method, I felt steady, fuzzy. And then I imagined that I can clap my hands and I managed to will myself to go deeper and managed to clap my hands and rub it.

And then I rubbed my forearms up to the shoulder of both hands. And then I used my left hand and rubbed on the right hand side of the bed beside me and started rolling over to the right. And then I remember Wai Peng was sleeping on my right. I changed direction. I used my right hand and rolled over and rubbed the left hand side of the bed. I rolled my legs over onto the floor, stood up, and rubbed the wall, the curtain on my left. And then right hand, I also rubbed the mattress and I rubbed the curtain on my left.

And then I walked towards the book shelf in front. I then rubbed the book shelf and then in front of Vajrayogini. I gave thanks to Vajrayogini. Then I continued rubbing the wall on the left and walked towards the door of my room. Before I reached the door of my room, I peered at both my hands, one after another, looking at the skin texture until it turned brown. And then I also looked at the palm skin texture until it turned brown. The moment I could see my skin texture, light came into the room, light and colour.

And then I continued walking towards the door of my bedroom, continued to peer at my hands to maintain the light and colour. I opened the door, the knob handle, and walked into the living room. At first, it was partially dark. I then peered at my hands again and brought the light and colour into the living room. No need to use the switch to turn on the lights. The living room looked exactly like my apartment. I then walked towards the kitchen. The front part of the living room already had light and colour, so I walked to the kitchen.

It was still partially dark. There was a switch on the right wall. I tried to turn on the switch, but no light came. But it was okay. I then opened the bathroom door and the back room. It was dark inside, nobody there. Then I wanted to open the middle room door as well. I think I did. It was also dark. And then I turned right. I wanted to continue walking back to the front part of the living room. But then a dream faded. It was quite long, a dream.

Here is the Zaritski method I practiced. Upon awakening, go to the bathroom, look in the mirror. If nothing, try to roll to the side and stand up in the bedroom. If nothing, then go to the first round. Look at the closed eyelids for a few seconds. Followed by hear the sounds. Then try to move your phantom hand up and down. Then fall asleep. Then go to the second round. Before sleeping, you practice joy on demand demand. Then go to the second round and repeat, starting from looking at the closed eyelids. Then hear the sounds. Then move your phantom hand. Then fall asleep at the end of the second round. Then go to the third round and repeat the same thing. And finally at the fourth round, after you are moving the phantom hand, go to sleep using the joy on demand. And then at the next round, we are repeating the same thing.

465-OB: Rub carpet in hall

 

7:47am

I did Joy On Demand and also Vajrayogini. I lay on my right, I had an early morning phase feeling and I allow him to deepen, I could hear background voices, it's like singing some kind of artificialhigh pitched sound, like a children, artificial robotic children's sound singing in the background.

Then I managed to grab my hands and rub it and also rub all the way to my face and then I rubbed my torso as well and then rubbed back up to my face. I was lying on the right edge of my bed and I used my left hand to touch the side of the bed frame and I rolled over onto the floor of my bedroom.

Everything was dark and I rubbed my both hands on the floor and then I rubbed forwards a little bit and I peered at my hand to try to bring in color and light, I peered at my back of my right hand and so it turned brown color and at the same time the light came into the world and everything became bright.

I saw that I was in a big living room and it was lighted and I was on the floor rubbing the carpet, it was thick carpet. There were some chairs on the right and left I think and curtains in the far distance and I rubbed a little bit too hard with my left hand and I felt my hand in bed move and I eased up a bitbut my right hand was okay.

I continued to rub but I rushed to bring my left hand back into the dream and the dream faded. Earlier I got up to pass urine and drink water around 5 something and I had a great difficulty falling back to sleep for a long time.

464-LD: Legs sink through bathroom floor

9:28 am

This is the third lucid dream tonight. I was lying on my left, earlier I did the Vajrayogini transformation to fall asleep and I dreamt I was having a bath in the toilet bathroom.

I was facing the toilet flush looking up and there was a shower head at the top of the toilet tank flush and there was also a transparent plastic container that contained sometransparent liquid which looks like shampoo.

I wanted to use the shower spray and I couldn't pull the shower spray because it was too high and I kept adjusting and I turned some tap and found that the water sprayed straight down onto the area in front of me.

There was some small tank I think and then I found that my legs were sinking into the floor and I was going lower and lower and I felt that this is so strange and I suspect it's a dream. So I clapped and rubbed my hands, I felt the familiar hand rubbing friction and I became so surprised and happy that this is a dream.  

So as my legs went through the floor, I sank lower and lower and I woke up.

 

463-LD: Pinched nose test forgotten dream

 

8:30 am

I suddenly realized this could be a dream. I clapped my hands and rubbed and felt the familiar rubbery feeling of palms rubbing. I then did pinched nose test and could breathe. I was so happy. I started walking forwards.

462-OB: PC monitor on bed

 

7:32 am

Doing mostly Vajrayogini, imagine myself as Vajrayogini, I managed to fall asleep. Got up as usual, drink water, go back to bed, again do Vajrayogini transformation and then lying on my left, I felt the phase state and it actually was a false awakening. I already in a dream but not aware of it.

I was lying on my bed and lying on my left. My wife got up and she wanted to send mother to hospital, earlier on I got up and turn off the aircon and she went to bathroom, then I went back to bed.

Then I fell asleep again lying on my left using Vajrayogini transformation. Then after she came out of bathroom, I think she wanted to pay some bill. The computer was in our bedroom but actually in real life the computer is not in our room but in this dream which is a false awakening which I'm not aware, the computer was in the room.

I was on the right side of the bed facing the wall and she asked me how to click, which part to click to pay the bil. From the bed I turn and look at her, I roll to the right and look at her and I told her click the column, there was a black Microsoft DOS window, I was referring to that but she couldn't understand so I was felt a bit irritated as I roll over, get up from bed, step up and went to the monitor to show her and but then the monitor was now on the bed.

The monitor suddenly was on the bed, then I try to look at the monitor while I was standing on her right, she was seated on the chair but I couldn't, I told her that oh, no clear, I cannot see clearly and felt irritated again and I said is it okay we do it tonight, we do it later and then she said okay, okay. 

So she went out of the bedroom to have breakfast probably and I went back to bed lying down on my left and lying down on the edge of the bed facing left and I was afraid I might fall off the bed but I said never mind. I just do it so I tried to induce the morning phase state and surprisingly it was so easy. I just imagined, imagine the phase state and I let it deepen and deepen. As it deepen I then tried to clap my hands and it was so easy, I managed to clap, I was so happy. 

I was not aware that all this was false awakening. I clapped my hands and rub it and rub it and rub the forearms all the way to my face, rub my face and then rub my body.

I was turning around and wanted to step up on floor beside my bed so I roll around to the right and let my body fall on the floor and as the body fell on the floor I landed on the floor and felt my feet on the ground on the floor of my bedroom.

Also my both hands felt the floor and I stand up. I stand up and then I walk towards the bedroom door. On the left I pass by the altar of Vajrayogini, I put both palms together and thank Vajrayogini for this out of body experience.

I open the bedroom door and step out and it was the Raja Uda house, upstairs, left was the banister. I felt my both palms on it and walked forward, felt both hands on the banister, I walked forward on the wooden floor and I thought to myself oh I don't want to explore Raja Uda house, I want to go somewhere else. 

So I continued to walk forward. Imagine there was a door in front, a white colored door appeared. I put my hand on the handle and my mistake was I didn't imagine enough what was going to be beyond the door and I was a bit rushed. I opened the door I tried to imagine beyond it is snow. Suddenly a snow-filled sky appeared and I should have imagined something else better, maybe another room or hall, but I was rushed. 

I opened the door and true enough it was snow and I walked through the door and fell into free fall and I was falling down and I yelled ah...  This was not what I expected for sure. I fell into free fall and I almost woke up there but then I held it together and I imagined landing in my bed which was a mistake.

So I landed on my bed and still facing left lying on my left and my right hand managed to touch the bed mattress and I woke up. Whatever you do in future don't ever imagine landing in your bed because the whole idea of out of body experience is to do separation.  That means to get out of bed but instead I imagine landing back in the bed and that's what triggered the end of the dream.

When I woke up only then I realized earlier on it was a false awakening. I should have done peering to make the objects have more color and luminosity and more clarity. Also, should have done continuous rubbing hands all the way so that when I fell down in free fall I could have recovered if necessary and re-enter the dream.