462-OB: PC monitor on bed

 

7:32 am

Doing mostly Vajrayogini, imagine myself as Vajrayogini, I managed to fall asleep. Got up as usual, drink water, go back to bed, again do Vajrayogini transformation and then lying on my left, I felt the phase state and it actually was a false awakening. I already in a dream but not aware of it.

I was lying on my bed and lying on my left. My wife got up and she wanted to send mother to hospital, earlier on I got up and turn off the aircon and she went to bathroom, then I went back to bed.

Then I fell asleep again lying on my left using Vajrayogini transformation. Then after she came out of bathroom, I think she wanted to pay some bill. The computer was in our bedroom but actually in real life the computer is not in our room but in this dream which is a false awakening which I'm not aware, the computer was in the room.

I was on the right side of the bed facing the wall and she asked me how to click, which part to click to pay the bil. From the bed I turn and look at her, I roll to the right and look at her and I told her click the column, there was a black Microsoft DOS window, I was referring to that but she couldn't understand so I was felt a bit irritated as I roll over, get up from bed, step up and went to the monitor to show her and but then the monitor was now on the bed.

The monitor suddenly was on the bed, then I try to look at the monitor while I was standing on her right, she was seated on the chair but I couldn't, I told her that oh, no clear, I cannot see clearly and felt irritated again and I said is it okay we do it tonight, we do it later and then she said okay, okay. 

So she went out of the bedroom to have breakfast probably and I went back to bed lying down on my left and lying down on the edge of the bed facing left and I was afraid I might fall off the bed but I said never mind. I just do it so I tried to induce the morning phase state and surprisingly it was so easy. I just imagined, imagine the phase state and I let it deepen and deepen. As it deepen I then tried to clap my hands and it was so easy, I managed to clap, I was so happy. 

I was not aware that all this was false awakening. I clapped my hands and rub it and rub it and rub the forearms all the way to my face, rub my face and then rub my body.

I was turning around and wanted to step up on floor beside my bed so I roll around to the right and let my body fall on the floor and as the body fell on the floor I landed on the floor and felt my feet on the ground on the floor of my bedroom.

Also my both hands felt the floor and I stand up. I stand up and then I walk towards the bedroom door. On the left I pass by the altar of Vajrayogini, I put both palms together and thank Vajrayogini for this out of body experience.

I open the bedroom door and step out and it was the Raja Uda house, upstairs, left was the banister. I felt my both palms on it and walked forward, felt both hands on the banister, I walked forward on the wooden floor and I thought to myself oh I don't want to explore Raja Uda house, I want to go somewhere else. 

So I continued to walk forward. Imagine there was a door in front, a white colored door appeared. I put my hand on the handle and my mistake was I didn't imagine enough what was going to be beyond the door and I was a bit rushed. I opened the door I tried to imagine beyond it is snow. Suddenly a snow-filled sky appeared and I should have imagined something else better, maybe another room or hall, but I was rushed. 

I opened the door and true enough it was snow and I walked through the door and fell into free fall and I was falling down and I yelled ah...  This was not what I expected for sure. I fell into free fall and I almost woke up there but then I held it together and I imagined landing in my bed which was a mistake.

So I landed on my bed and still facing left lying on my left and my right hand managed to touch the bed mattress and I woke up. Whatever you do in future don't ever imagine landing in your bed because the whole idea of out of body experience is to do separation.  That means to get out of bed but instead I imagine landing back in the bed and that's what triggered the end of the dream.

When I woke up only then I realized earlier on it was a false awakening. I should have done peering to make the objects have more color and luminosity and more clarity. Also, should have done continuous rubbing hands all the way so that when I fell down in free fall I could have recovered if necessary and re-enter the dream.