461-LD: Old watch and foggy mirror

 

7:18 am

I had difficulty going to go back to sleep. This is the second lucid dream.

So I lie down on my right.

I visualize myself transforming into Vajrayogini.

And also for a brief moment, I recite her mantra slowly.

And I managed to enter a dream.

I wasn't aware of it as a dream.

I was in a room.

And I was staying with Jerome and Michael Chai's house in KL.

And they were outside, somewhere in the house.

It was in the morning.

I noticed that my thinking was slow and sluggish.

And I was having a vague sense of a dreamy state.

And I was still aware of my doing Vajrayogini, transforming,

and visualizing myself as Vajrayogini.

And there was a bed on my left.

And I was looking at the wall or mirror and getting ready to go to school.

And I look at the clock, look at my watch.

I tried to check the time.

I was afraid that I might be late and I might miss the school bus.

So I took out the watch and look at the time.

And it was 8 something.

But it was an old watch and I didn't recognize it.

So I look for another watch and pick it up.

And again, it was an old watch.

And again, I didn't recognize it as mine.

And the time was also 8 something.

Then I was wondering, so quiet outside, have I missed the bus?

Then I suddenly realized that this could be a dream.

So I clapped my hands, did a pinch nose test, and I could breathe.

And I was so happy.

I knew that this is a dream.

And I was still in the dream, like between dream and waking. I went into

the bathroom and looked at the mirror but it was fogged. But I could see

my face was blurry because of the fog.

So I realized now that this is a false awakening.

The whole thing was a false awakening.

Trusting myself in Vajrayogini helped to overcome all the stress and the worries and the fears.

And I felt calm.

And that's what helped me when I could not sleep.

And that was the second dream.