458-OB: Drink orange in front of mirror

 

7:43 am

I did the tm mantra, and I managed to fall asleep easily.

Earlier, I got up from bed at five something to pass urine and drink water.

And then now, on my left, I entered the early morning phase state.

After a few times in and out of dreams,

I felt the phase state.

And then I wished that this could...

I then tried to feel my hands,

and clapped them, and I rubbed.

And I managed to do it.

Then I rubbed all the way up.

And early on, when the phase state began to be felt,

I wished for it to deepen.

And I was patient, not hurrying it.

And it really deepened.

And then I rubbed all the way to my face, patiently.

And then rubbed my chest.

And then I rubbed the side of the bed frame.

And I put my feet on the floor, the cement floor.

I could feel it, clearly.

It was a bit cold.

And I stood up in my bedroom beside my bed.

I then rubbed the curtain on my left.

And I rubbed the bed on the right.

And I also rubbed the floor with my hands.

And I walked towards the altar of Vajrayogini.

And I put my palms together.

I gave thanks to thank you, Vajrayogini.

I then knelt on the floor and did prostration in gratitude.

The room was a little dark.

I stood up and I walked towards the door of my bedroom.

I touched the wall on my left as I walked towards the door.

And when I reached the door, I stopped for a while, peering at my right hand.

And the right hand texture became clear, brownish skin color.

And at the same time, the door also became light gray color with textures.

And then I opened the door and looked outside.

It was a big room, big hall.

I saw the kitchen, but it was different from my N-Park one.

And it was semi-dark.

I walked towards the kitchen.

And on the right, I flipped on some switches.

It was the switch on the lights.

Then I imagined that the switch moved.

And once the switch moved, it was on position.

The yellow light on the left ceiling turned on.

I did the same with the second switch.

And then I turned around and walked towards the living room area

and also reached for the switches on the right wall.

I also turned on the switches.

And the yellow light came on.

And I did a few other light switches as well.

And for some of the light that went off, I reimagined the light on again.

And it came on again.

I was so happy.

I now walked towards the front part.

And then I saw a bright area.

And this was actually the kitchen, the pantry.

And there were people there.

And there was a fridge.

I opened the fridge.

And inside there were many drinks, bottle drinks.

I took out one orange colored bottle,

opened the cap and drank it and tasted orange juice.

And it was so real.

And I talked to people there.

There was a boy on the left.

In front of me there was a mirror.

I looked into it and saw my reflection.

I looked a little bit like Blake.

A bit plumpish.

I then tapped on the mirror with my right knuckle

and spoke to myself.

This is you. This is who I am.

And I'm really here.

And then I told myself, enjoy.

And I turned back.

And the boy who looks a bit like B.S. Lim's son,

he asked me, where is your spouse?

And I replied something.

And I turned left.

And then I turned right again.

And I wanted to continue walking.

And then the dream faded.

So the trick is to use the tm mantra to go deep.

Only then, when you're deep enough, you can reach the state.

So that's why, while I'm on the left,

I felt faintly the early morning phase state.

And then it was enough.

I will imagine it to deepen.

And it deepened.

As it deepened, I need to be patient, not to rush.

And once it's deep enough, I then imagine my hands

rubbing it and clapping it.

And then it made all the difference.

The exit technique.

During the day, I did joy on demand throughout the day.

And before I sleep, I also did joy on demand.

Only after getting up at 4 o'clock and going back to bed,

when all else failed, then I did the tm mantra.

And it really worked to go deep.

Here's the trick.

When you start to feel the very faint early morning phase state,

that's the time you don't rush.

But you're very subtle and gentle.

You wish that it deepened.

And allow it to deepen on its own.

Don't force it.

And as it deepens, you will feel the fuzzy feeling.

Very dull humming and fuzzy feeling.

And then once it deepens, it's like you are moving backwards

a little bit, like falling backwards.

And that's a sign that you can start to materialize the hands.

So that's the time you wish that you can imagine your hands in front

and when it appears you start clapping and rubbing.

And that's all.

The exit technique.