457-LD: Big wooden-style legal office

 

6:39am

I did mindfulness of breathing in and out, and also feeling the whole body.

I got up to pass urine at 5 something, went back to bed, lying on my left, did the mindfulness to fall asleep.

I got in and out, in and out of several dreams.

Then, in one dream, I dream I was working as a clerk in a legal firm.

I was sitting in a very big, big office hall. It's made of wood and huge.

There were so many staff. I was sitting somewhere at the back.

There was a chief clerk on the left giving instructions, and everybody now has to go out for lunch.

There were some rules during lunch. Everybody has to vacate office and must do it fast.

There was a chief clerk there, shooing everybody out.

The last two person out was just me and another lady. She quickly dashed out of the open door, while the chief clerk was waiting on the left.

I followed quickly and ran out of the door too.

Outside now, there was a corridor. It was outdoors.

On the left, there was a row of shrubs, bushes.

I wanted to fly, so I got up and flew above the bushes and went out into the sky.

After lunch, I came back into the legal firm, but sat at somebody else's table in front, nearer to the exit.

It was a wooden table, and there was a senior staff, a man, Chinese in front, and there were other staff sitting left and right.

We were going to try to do some experiment to induce some kind of lucid dreaming state.

They gave me a piece of tissue paper, folded in triangular shape.

I was supposed to press it to cover my left eye.

I noticed there were some stains on the tissue paper used to wipe my mouth earlier.

I then put my elbows on the table and used my left hand to cover the tissue paper over my left eye, and with my right hand, I did the same thing over my right eye.

And then I had the feeling that once I did that, I'm going to enter a very deep state, a deep phase state, and all the rest will just find it difficult to wake me up later.

I then entered into a phase state and became lucid in that this is a dream.

I saw a vision of me looking through a peephole at a table where I was sitting, and I got so excited.

I said, yes, this is it, and I almost lost the dream there.

But then I calmed down and entered the dream again, and I was so happy.

I started to walk, and I walked away from the table, and I tapped the floor with my hands and felt the cement floor.

And then I also touched objects on my right, and I rubbed my hands and felt the arms and hands rubbing.

I walked past the bookshelf, and I pulled out some books and let it land on the floor.

I had to keep moving to keep lucidity going.

I then talked to myself. I said, yes, Paul, you did it.

And I could hear myself talking clearly in this dream.

I was excited and happy, and I continued walking forward like this, a bit rushed.

And then the dream faded.

The mistake was my hands were not rubbing together, so I could not re-enter the dream and I also

did not peer at my hands to bring in more clarity.

My main practice today and at night as well was, no matter what, just do your best to try to feel the breath mindfully, and also feel the whole body while breathing.

Do your best, even though it's not easy, just do your best, but always try it.

And then during the day it's also the same.

In any action that you do throughout the day, just try your best to be as mindful of the breath, and then the breathing with the whole body as well.

Just be patient, and also don't force it. Be gentle while you're doing this.