For the past few days I have feeling panic attacks again. And each time, I use Bhante Vimalaramsi's smiling method to overcome it. I have also been revising on Echkart Tolle by watching his youtube videos.
This morning whilst lying down in bed, my mind was racing with very negative thoughts of fear about my health after waking up from a dream about visiting a shop and driving a Honda car. Then, suddenly awareness arose that I am personalizing the thoughts of fear. And there was immediate relief. I then remembered what Eckhart Tolle says about spaciousness around negative thoughts. That we suffer because we identify with it as me. A few times after that, negative thoughts tried to surface but each time, I manage of become aware of taking the thoughts personally, remembering Bhante Vimalaramsi's words about "taking things personally". I also remembered Sadhguru's Isha Kriya meditation about: "I am not the body, I am not even the mind".
This was a glimpse of awakening. Prior to it, the method of meditation I used was a mixture of smiling and awareness of breath and relaxing and some remembering of Sadhguru's I am not the body and not even the mind and also Eckhart Tolle's teachings on trying to become aware of unconscious thoughts that try to pull awareness into it.
The immediate thought that struck me after the awakening was: "Now I understand why Eckhart says that intense suffering can be your teacher and it will cause awakening". Because the pain was too intense, the awareness stepped back and saw that taking it personally was causing all the suffering. Awareness also saw that it was not the sufferer and it was already free from it. What a relief.
Throughout the day, whenever I felt negative thoughts begin to arise, I ask the question: "Who does not like it?" to borrow Bhante Vimalaramsi's phrase, and the negative feeling subsided.
Saturday, September 22, 2018
Muse
I bought a muse headband from Amazon for RM1200 including dhl and tax.
It arrived in Sept 6 and I started using it since then. It is basically focussing on breath.
It arrived in Sept 6 and I started using it since then. It is basically focussing on breath.
Sadhguru's Isha Kriya Meditation
Sometime in Aug 2018, I experimented with Sadhguru's Isha Kriya Meditation:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KxgD9En6Vso
Basically you remind yourself that:
"I am not the body. I am not even the mind."
And you chant "ah" from the navel to suffuse the body with that.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KxgD9En6Vso
Basically you remind yourself that:
"I am not the body. I am not even the mind."
And you chant "ah" from the navel to suffuse the body with that.
Bhante Vimalaramsi's Lovingkindess Meditation
In February of 2017, I registered for an online Meditation Retreat to learn Bhante Vimalaramsi's teaching on Loving Kindness Meditation. Below is the confirmation email from David, the facilitator of the online retreat.
Bhante's website is: https://www.dhammasukha.org/
That is my start of Bhante Vimalaramsi.
Bhante's website is: https://www.dhammasukha.org/
That is my start of Bhante Vimalaramsi.
Friday, October 21, 2016
How to attain pure awareness through Reiki
An excellent read:
http://www.reiki-centre.com/what-should-i-be-doing-with-my-mind-when-i-do-reiki/
http://www.reiki-centre.com/what-should-i-be-doing-with-my-mind-when-i-do-reiki/
What should I be doing with my mind when I do Reiki?
This is a very common question and one I struggled with too in the beginning, what to do? Focus on something? Reiki ‘On’, Reiki ‘off’? Visualise white light? Rainbows? Unicorns? And when I was given the answer…”Nothing” I was flummoxed, what did that even mean?
Doing nothing is impossible for the mind, after all, thinking is what it does. Its like asking our heart to stop pumping, or our lungs to stop breathing. Thinking is what the mind does, full stop. So the key to understanding the concept of ‘Do Nothing’ is to first realise you are no more your mind than you are your heart, or your lungs. Our mind is one organ in our body that we have somehow identified with as all of ‘me’. And its funny how attached we are to this, and how impossible it seems to detach. But you are not your thinking, you are not your mind.
In Reiki, one of the key miracles of this energy is that it is universal, non-judgmental, and balancing. So as you apply Reiki to yourself, and to others, you will begin to notice a natural quietening of the mind. In its natural state, the mind is peaceful – like any other organ of the body, it has a job to do – to think. And its job is very valuable to help us live, keep us creative, and help problem solve. Of course over time we have identified with it, given it all our power etc but that is another story. For now, the key concept to play with is that it will quieten naturally with Reiki. So all you have to do is wait for this – and not wait in a demanding or grasping way (that’s just more thinking), but in a quiet, curious way – open and willing to see what happens.
And as the mind quiets, just notice ‘am I still aware?’ This awareness of the mind quietening is your true self. The truth of you actually exists beyond thoughts. The first time this happened to me I got quite a shock, I became aware that my mind was completely still, and in that moment I wondered if I had died! And of course in that wondering, I started thinking again
But in that split second of total stillness, I also knew I still existed. I was not my mind.
Use your Reiki treatments like this, as a deep deep meditation. In true meditation we do not listen to guidance from an audio (that is guided visualisation, not meditation), we do not focus on an object or something outside ourselves, or chant a mantra (this is building focus and concentration, not meditation). In pure meditation we simply allow all that is – and become deeply aware of it. So become aware of your body, of all the energy coursing around it, of the sensations and the aliveness. Become aware of the breath, the life force energy that you bring in as you breath. Become aware of your thoughts but don’t add to them, simply allow them to run through your mind and out, hold each thought very lightly and stop grasping, or following.
When you treat other people the same principle applies, simply be with the process and become aware of all the movement, and sensations both in your body, in your hands and also in theirs. You will become aware the air around you also moves and flows, the entire environment is alive with energy – its very fun to deeply immerse yourself in this – this is life!
But don’t judge it! Don’t think about it, don’t interpret it, simply allow it to be. It is not for you to be the ‘healer’ and it is not for you to do anything but be present. Allow Reiki to heal, and to balance, and allow the other person to have their own experience, whatever that might be.
Wednesday, September 28, 2016
Nisargadatta Maharaj
Nisargadatta Maharaj is one of the most influential of Advaita teachers. He is famous for the book "I am That". The essential core of his teaching is that we cannot say with certainty who we are, all we can say for certain is what we are not. Our essential nature is indescribable by the mind for it is beyond the mind.
To this end, it is useful to stop claiming sense objects/perceptions as me or mine. A useful book to start off is this book:
This Pain is Not Mine
To this end, it is useful to stop claiming sense objects/perceptions as me or mine. A useful book to start off is this book:
This Pain is Not Mine
Wednesday, June 24, 2015
Transcendental Meditation (TM)
Sometime in June, 2015, or, maybe May, I restarted the practice of Transcendental Meditation aka TM. This method was founded by Maharishi Mahesh Yogi. I first underwent training in this method sometime in 1984-5 and even took the advanced TM Siddhi course also back in 1984-5.
After a lapse of so many years, one night (May or June, 2015) while lying down in bed, the original mantra came back to me spontaneously - calmed my mind and helped me sleep. From that night on, sleep has been easy with TM. Even during the course of the day, the mantra arises whenever there is worry, fear or tension. So far, it seems to work better for me at calming the mind as compared to other forms of meditation.
This is because, the mind needs an anchor (focus) in order to slow down. Otherwise, it goes on and on from one anxious thought to another.
I find it works even if there is no initial focus. The mantra auto repeats itself in the background, like a catchy tune which you just can't get out of your mind. The mind then automatically latches on to it without effort - it seems to like the calm that comes from the mantra. A natural tendency of the mind to be drawn to the source of greater satisfaction.
After a lapse of so many years, one night (May or June, 2015) while lying down in bed, the original mantra came back to me spontaneously - calmed my mind and helped me sleep. From that night on, sleep has been easy with TM. Even during the course of the day, the mantra arises whenever there is worry, fear or tension. So far, it seems to work better for me at calming the mind as compared to other forms of meditation.
This is because, the mind needs an anchor (focus) in order to slow down. Otherwise, it goes on and on from one anxious thought to another.
I find it works even if there is no initial focus. The mantra auto repeats itself in the background, like a catchy tune which you just can't get out of your mind. The mind then automatically latches on to it without effort - it seems to like the calm that comes from the mantra. A natural tendency of the mind to be drawn to the source of greater satisfaction.
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