459-LD: Roll out from bedroom

 

8:34 am

I am practicing total acceptance and welcoming, lying on my right.

I went in and out of several dreams.

And in one of it, I dreamt I was in the middle bedroom of N-Park house.

I was supposed to be sleeping there, all sitting down.

And then the door was open and I rolled out.

And so I was surprised that I can roll out.

And when I looked out, I saw that the living room in the kitchen was empty.

It was dark. I expected to see my wife there, but it was empty.

Then I realized that it is a dream.

I was so happy. I clapped my hands and rubbed it.

And then the dream faded.

But I still managed to rub my finger against my palm as the dream faded.

And I thought to re-enter the dream.

458-OB: Drink orange in front of mirror

 

7:43 am

I did the tm mantra, and I managed to fall asleep easily.

Earlier, I got up from bed at five something to pass urine and drink water.

And then now, on my left, I entered the early morning phase state.

After a few times in and out of dreams,

I felt the phase state.

And then I wished that this could...

I then tried to feel my hands,

and clapped them, and I rubbed.

And I managed to do it.

Then I rubbed all the way up.

And early on, when the phase state began to be felt,

I wished for it to deepen.

And I was patient, not hurrying it.

And it really deepened.

And then I rubbed all the way to my face, patiently.

And then rubbed my chest.

And then I rubbed the side of the bed frame.

And I put my feet on the floor, the cement floor.

I could feel it, clearly.

It was a bit cold.

And I stood up in my bedroom beside my bed.

I then rubbed the curtain on my left.

And I rubbed the bed on the right.

And I also rubbed the floor with my hands.

And I walked towards the altar of Vajrayogini.

And I put my palms together.

I gave thanks to thank you, Vajrayogini.

I then knelt on the floor and did prostration in gratitude.

The room was a little dark.

I stood up and I walked towards the door of my bedroom.

I touched the wall on my left as I walked towards the door.

And when I reached the door, I stopped for a while, peering at my right hand.

And the right hand texture became clear, brownish skin color.

And at the same time, the door also became light gray color with textures.

And then I opened the door and looked outside.

It was a big room, big hall.

I saw the kitchen, but it was different from my N-Park one.

And it was semi-dark.

I walked towards the kitchen.

And on the right, I flipped on some switches.

It was the switch on the lights.

Then I imagined that the switch moved.

And once the switch moved, it was on position.

The yellow light on the left ceiling turned on.

I did the same with the second switch.

And then I turned around and walked towards the living room area

and also reached for the switches on the right wall.

I also turned on the switches.

And the yellow light came on.

And I did a few other light switches as well.

And for some of the light that went off, I reimagined the light on again.

And it came on again.

I was so happy.

I now walked towards the front part.

And then I saw a bright area.

And this was actually the kitchen, the pantry.

And there were people there.

And there was a fridge.

I opened the fridge.

And inside there were many drinks, bottle drinks.

I took out one orange colored bottle,

opened the cap and drank it and tasted orange juice.

And it was so real.

And I talked to people there.

There was a boy on the left.

In front of me there was a mirror.

I looked into it and saw my reflection.

I looked a little bit like Blake.

A bit plumpish.

I then tapped on the mirror with my right knuckle

and spoke to myself.

This is you. This is who I am.

And I'm really here.

And then I told myself, enjoy.

And I turned back.

And the boy who looks a bit like B.S. Lim's son,

he asked me, where is your spouse?

And I replied something.

And I turned left.

And then I turned right again.

And I wanted to continue walking.

And then the dream faded.

So the trick is to use the tm mantra to go deep.

Only then, when you're deep enough, you can reach the state.

So that's why, while I'm on the left,

I felt faintly the early morning phase state.

And then it was enough.

I will imagine it to deepen.

And it deepened.

As it deepened, I need to be patient, not to rush.

And once it's deep enough, I then imagine my hands

rubbing it and clapping it.

And then it made all the difference.

The exit technique.

During the day, I did joy on demand throughout the day.

And before I sleep, I also did joy on demand.

Only after getting up at 4 o'clock and going back to bed,

when all else failed, then I did the tm mantra.

And it really worked to go deep.

Here's the trick.

When you start to feel the very faint early morning phase state,

that's the time you don't rush.

But you're very subtle and gentle.

You wish that it deepened.

And allow it to deepen on its own.

Don't force it.

And as it deepens, you will feel the fuzzy feeling.

Very dull humming and fuzzy feeling.

And then once it deepens, it's like you are moving backwards

a little bit, like falling backwards.

And that's a sign that you can start to materialize the hands.

So that's the time you wish that you can imagine your hands in front

and when it appears you start clapping and rubbing.

And that's all.

The exit technique.

457-LD: Big wooden-style legal office

 

6:39am

I did mindfulness of breathing in and out, and also feeling the whole body.

I got up to pass urine at 5 something, went back to bed, lying on my left, did the mindfulness to fall asleep.

I got in and out, in and out of several dreams.

Then, in one dream, I dream I was working as a clerk in a legal firm.

I was sitting in a very big, big office hall. It's made of wood and huge.

There were so many staff. I was sitting somewhere at the back.

There was a chief clerk on the left giving instructions, and everybody now has to go out for lunch.

There were some rules during lunch. Everybody has to vacate office and must do it fast.

There was a chief clerk there, shooing everybody out.

The last two person out was just me and another lady. She quickly dashed out of the open door, while the chief clerk was waiting on the left.

I followed quickly and ran out of the door too.

Outside now, there was a corridor. It was outdoors.

On the left, there was a row of shrubs, bushes.

I wanted to fly, so I got up and flew above the bushes and went out into the sky.

After lunch, I came back into the legal firm, but sat at somebody else's table in front, nearer to the exit.

It was a wooden table, and there was a senior staff, a man, Chinese in front, and there were other staff sitting left and right.

We were going to try to do some experiment to induce some kind of lucid dreaming state.

They gave me a piece of tissue paper, folded in triangular shape.

I was supposed to press it to cover my left eye.

I noticed there were some stains on the tissue paper used to wipe my mouth earlier.

I then put my elbows on the table and used my left hand to cover the tissue paper over my left eye, and with my right hand, I did the same thing over my right eye.

And then I had the feeling that once I did that, I'm going to enter a very deep state, a deep phase state, and all the rest will just find it difficult to wake me up later.

I then entered into a phase state and became lucid in that this is a dream.

I saw a vision of me looking through a peephole at a table where I was sitting, and I got so excited.

I said, yes, this is it, and I almost lost the dream there.

But then I calmed down and entered the dream again, and I was so happy.

I started to walk, and I walked away from the table, and I tapped the floor with my hands and felt the cement floor.

And then I also touched objects on my right, and I rubbed my hands and felt the arms and hands rubbing.

I walked past the bookshelf, and I pulled out some books and let it land on the floor.

I had to keep moving to keep lucidity going.

I then talked to myself. I said, yes, Paul, you did it.

And I could hear myself talking clearly in this dream.

I was excited and happy, and I continued walking forward like this, a bit rushed.

And then the dream faded.

The mistake was my hands were not rubbing together, so I could not re-enter the dream and I also

did not peer at my hands to bring in more clarity.

My main practice today and at night as well was, no matter what, just do your best to try to feel the breath mindfully, and also feel the whole body while breathing.

Do your best, even though it's not easy, just do your best, but always try it.

And then during the day it's also the same.

In any action that you do throughout the day, just try your best to be as mindful of the breath, and then the breathing with the whole body as well.

Just be patient, and also don't force it. Be gentle while you're doing this.

456-LD: Muse-Indian on bicycle

 

9:38am

This is the second lucid dream. I went to bed again, practicing MUSE breathing, counting breathing in, out, counting one in, two out, one out, two in, two out, and then feeling the whole body repeating the same thing.

In, feel the whole body, two breathe, feel the whole body, and then I went in and out with several dreams, and each time I came out of the dream, I can easily go back to sleep just by doing the counting of the breath, thanks to the MUSE breathing, which I restarted earlier yesterday. I stopped MUSE for, I think one year plus, now I restarted again.

So in this second lucid dream, I was, found myself in a building, and I think it was white, inside, I was inside, and then realized that this could be a dream, and I clapped my hands, and I heard the clapping, it was so loud, and the clap feels very real, more real than

the other previous OBS and dreams.

And then I started flying, flying around, and I touched everything as I flew, I touched, and I flew out of the building, I flew very fast, up in the air, like Superman, and I flew with wild abandoned, not bothering whether or not the dream would fade, and below me the scenery zoomed very fast, and then I decided to land somewhere, and I landed on the grass, in the daytime, it was open area, there were houses all around, and I flew quite fast as I landed, and I rubbed my hands across the grass, the grass felt very real, and I was so happy.

And I also went to a tree, tree trunk, I put my both hands on the tree and touched it, and I could see some words inscribed in the tree, my name was there as well, and as I looked, the words keep changing, and this confirmed that it's a lucid dream also, because in lucid dreams, the text don't appear the same, it keeps changing, and I also had a digital watch, and when I look at the time, it also keep changing, the time keep changing.

And I was walking there along the grass patch, and beside there was a road, then there was somebody on a bicycle road pass, I touched him, but just barely, and he rode very fast away, he was an Indian man, and then along came another Indian man, and this time I asked him, he also rode bicycle very fast, asking what is your name, and he mentioned his name clearly, but I can't remember now, and then he also rode fast.

And then now I keep exploring the area there, touching everything, rubbing this and rubbing that, it was so realistic, so clear, everything was so clear, and I didn't bother to do sadhana or any of the mind-focusing thing, because I remember that trying to do sadhana, healing or loving-kindness, and any of the mind-focusing thing, it would cause the dream to collapse, so I just explore.

I keep moving and moving and exploring, and see how long it lasts, and then I think I reached one stage where I slowed down, and ran out of things to do, and I think that's when the dream faded.

So I think no matter what, if you keep on insisting on the breathing in and breathing out,

and counting, and feeling the breath, and feeling the whole body, for sure you can sleep,

just be patient, for sure you can sleep, and have lucid dreams.

And earlier in before this lucid dream, I also had very few dreams in which I was talking to a group of friends about lucid dreaming as well, and wished that we could share lucid dreams, and they agreed, and then there was a girl as well, I wanted to ask her to be a lucid dream partner, she was in a rush, rushing here, rushing there, and running, and it was at night, and in the end I told her, I did ask her that did you know about lucid, what is lucid dream, she doesn't know, and I explained a bit. And then she was so rushed that in the end I told her, are you in a hurry, she said yes, then I said maybe next time I'll talk to you, she looks like Chan Lin Li.

So now I'll pursue this new strategy that I started yesterday, I restarted the Muse headband yesterday, and I think I will use it for two purposes. Firstly to achieve enlightenment through mindfulness of breathing Anapanasati by practicing with the headband, and the second purpose is to use it to help me fall asleep at night, and whenever I awake from a dream, I will keep very still not to move, and I will use, then I will do the test - exit technique test,

and then I will do this breathe counting and fall back to sleep to get into the lucid dream or OBE, this will be my new strategy.  I will use the Muse headband for practice during the day, and at night do breathing, counting and breathing.

455-LD: Sluggish checking bed partner

 

8:21am

I have been doing mindfulness of breathing with counting, one breathe in, one breathe out, two breathe in, two breathe out, and so on, using muse. 

I got up pass urine as usual, drink water at 5 something, went back to bed and continue to do this breathing counting.

And I found myself in a dream, non-lucid, where I was in a Butterworth house, rented house, and in the house, my wife mentioned that she couldn't sleep with me in the bed,

in the same room tonight.

And there was another girl who looked like Ch'ng, and she was going to take her place, which is quite strange, and then at night, I went to bed wearing face mask.

And I was just wondering whether it was really Ch'ng, that was lying down on my right. It was dark, I was wearing face mask, I wanted to see, so I tried to pull out my face mask to see, but it was very sluggish, it was difficult to pull it up.

And I thought at first, why not just forget it and go back to sleep and try to induce a lucid dream, rather than trying to find out if it really was another girl who was taking the place of my wife in bed, but then I insist on trying to pull out the face mask to see.

And after pulling out the face mask to see, I was surprised that I was in my actual bed, and there was my wife WP instead, and this time I woke up, and then only realized that the first time I woke up in my bed, it was a false awakening.

454-OBE: Walk on sluggish white ground

 

8:20am

Did mindfulness of breathing, lying down on my left, I felt suddenly that I'm in a

light dream, or hypnagogia, walking somewhere. And it's white in color everywhere, and I suddenly realized that I could make this into a dream, so I clapped my hands and rub it, and I was already in a dream.

I then tried to increase the rubbing, and managed to feel a little bit of rubbing.

Then I ease up a little, and continue to rub my fingers, and I could feel my fingers. I wanted to increase the rubbing as well on the hands, and then I could hear the background voices talking. 

It was very heavy voices in the background talking, but I couldn't make out the words. I then tried to touch the ground with my right hand. I reached the ground and touched it. It seems to be whitish, the ground. Everything seems to be white. I then tried to step on the ground and walk. It was very sluggish. 

I think I managed to walk a little bit. It was still early stage of the dream, and everything felt very sluggish and slow. Eventually the dream faded. 

Earlier I had difficulty falling back to sleep, but I am patient. I tried to breathe, in, and out, and feel the whole body at the same time. It was difficult to feel the whole body at the same time. So I am patient. I start from beginning. Just be aware of the breathing in. I know I am breathing in. Breathing out. I know I am breathing out. 

Then once you are established in the mindfulness of the breathing in and out, then only breathe in and out and feel the whole body. Breathe in and feel the whole body. Breathe out and feel the whole body. Just be patient and repeat like this.

Eventually you will fall asleep. If you get distracted, gently come back again, starting all over, knowing you are breathing in, knowing you are breathing out. Then gradually, breathing in, feel the whole body, breathing out, feel the whole body, and just keep repeating. Eventually you will surely fall asleep and enter the phase state.

My mistake was being too rushed and forceful when trying to rub hands. Should also use psychic rubbing.

453-OBE: Spiral spin to empty house

 

6:14am

I was doing the mindfulness all night long and also Vajrayogini.

And I got up, pass urine, at around 5 something, drank water and went back to bed.

And it worked. I found myself in the early morning phase state.

I was flying upwards, being pulled upwards.

And I imagined spinning, spinning the spiral first, spinning clockwise in the sky, facing the white sky.

And that deepened the feeling, the phase feeling.

And I allow it, try not to put too much force, but allow it to happen, relax, relax back and let things spontaneously develop.

And it worked. It deepened.

And then I started flying and now spinning in the anti-clockwise spiral, also facing the white sky.

And the whole thing became deeper and deeper.

And I started to fly, fly in the air.

And everything was white and no objects, there were no objects.

And then I wanted to go down to the ground and enter a building.

And I find myself flying inside, inside an old building.

It was a bit dark.

And by this time I think I remember to rub my hands, rub my hands.

And in order to bring light and color into the world, I peered at my right hand.

Then color and light appeared from my skin texture on my right hand.

And at the same time, beyond my right hand, in the background, the world became luminous and in color.

And I was in a room I can see beyond my right hand.

There was a wall on my right and I was walking.

It was like a very old grayish color abandoned big, big building.

So I rubbed the wall on the right with my right hand.

And as I rubbed, I continued walking.

And I spoke out loud, this is the wall.

As I touched an object, I also mentioned the name of the object.

This is a window.

Three times I think it this way.

And each time I spoke out loud, I could hear my voice clearly in the room as though I was actually walking, standing there walking.

It was so real.

And I continued exploring one room after another, trying to look for a way out.

And there was a few times I opened the doors and entered different parts of the house.

And there was one time I turned and looked up at the ceiling and the light bulb and willed there to be light.

And then I continued walking, exploring the building.

There were no furniture in this old abandoned, torn down house.

And one time I turned right and looked into the distance.

And it was blurred, the distance was blurred.

Even though it was like looking at the horizon, the dream was still stable.

I then turned left and continued walking, exploring the way out.

And continued to rub my palms together.

And I found a new trick.

I put my palms together.

And while my palms were together rubbing, I touched objects.

This ensured that in case the dream faded, I could still try to re-enter.

And also by keeping the palms continually together, I could continue to ensure the stability and lucidity of the dream.

I then continued to explore the place like this, touching objects, with the palms together, touching objects.

And I think I continued like this and finally reached one of the rooms where there was a window.

I opened the window, it was like an top-hinged-type window.

I opened it and I could see light outside.

It was quite narrow, but I managed to climb upwards and exit the house.

And now I'm outside.

Then there was someone on the left.

I asked him, what is his name?

He replied, War Nar Wah.

He was attending to some luggage.

And on the right, there was another person.

He wanted to exit to the outside.

There was light outside, daylight.

But there was a kind of curtain made of net blocking the exit.

I was still rubbing the palms on my hands together.

And I wanted to pull up the curtain.

But at this point, my awareness dropped like I was falling into sleep.

And because I lost it, that awareness slightly, the dream faded.

Earlier in the day, I did the Vajrasattva purification and Mandala ritual.

And I did it silently, internally, without voicing it out.

And before sleeping, I also prayed to Vajrayogini.

For blessing to get lucid dreams and OBE.

And then, at 5 something.

While getting up to pass urine and coming back to bed,

I stopped by the altar of Vajrayogini and also prayed for blessing, lucid dream and OBE.

Last week, I did not have a lucid dream for seven days.

I suspect because I was drinking coffee a few times for a few days.

And after that, I realized, I stopped drinking coffee except for decaf.

And I think it worked, now I'm having lucid dream three days in a row.

Another thing I did right after coming back to bed from pass urine.

I laid down my bed facing upwards so that I don't fall asleep too quickly.

Instead, I can be awake in and out of several dreams in a row.

And each time I exited a dream, I kept still and tried to test for the phase state.

And all the while, I kept lying down facing upwards, keeping still.

And I did rotate slightly to the right, slightly,

and tried to fall asleep again using the mindfulness of breathing in, breathing out,

feeling the whole body and calming the whole body, which is a technique I did all night long.

And after going in and out of the dream state like this a few times and for quite some time,

I then turned to the right and lay down on the right.

And that's when it happened. I entered the OBE from there.

Another thing I did right is celebrate every small victory.

For the past two nights after the one week, no lucid dream,

I celebrate every small victory even though it was not full exit.

I still recorded the dream.

My mistake in this OBE was that I let my awareness drop and doze off to sleep.

When you doze off to sleep inside the lucid dream,

it triggers awakening from the dream.

So the antidote to that is I should be more active,

more vigorously rub my hands together and be more active

by moving around maybe more actively with more force inside the dream.

Look around more vigorously perhaps,

and do peering, more peering at my hands,

and also continue to touch objects more actively.

Another thing. At the exit of this dream, my palms were together and rubbing.

I could still feel them together.

But I was half-hearted about going back into the dream because I wanted to remember the dream.

What maybe I should have done was re-enter the dream

and will myself to remember the contents of the dream where I just exited

and then relax into it, don't force it.

But continue to rub the hands and feel the hands more vigorously.

Use the psychic thinking, thinking of rubbing the hands and re-enter the dream

by trying to remember what it felt like while I was in the dream

and rubbing the hands at the same time.

To try (Dream Yoga Activities?):

Relaxing in lucid dreams cause dream to collapse, relaxing in waking state causes waking world to collapse? Try to do mindful breathing-feeling body, calming body and relax during waking state throughout the day. But not to do that in the dream. In the dream become more engaged. Maybe to try practice dream yoga control activities - once I mastered dream stability? I noticed dream yoga sadhana or meditation or loving-kindness or healing whilst dreaming - may tend to collapse the dream because it concentrates the mind. So, should I do dream-yoga activities instead? Eg, flying, walking through walls, becoming big and small, multiply self to many, transforming self to deity . . .

452-LD: Healing patients in bed

 

6:30am

Throughout the night, I did Mindfulness with Vajrayogini. I got up to pass urine as usual at 5 something. Went back to bed and did that technique and I lying on my right.

I've been doing the just aware of the dream state and something like NRA and just relax. I found that I'm already lucid in the dream and rubbed my hands.

I then flew up into the sky trying to go somewhere.

Landed and touched the green color grass. Rub it

and after that I wanted to do healing.

So I imagined there's some beds of patients sleeping in the beds

and I went to one each one of them and try to heal them

It was quite dark. So I tried peering at my right hand to bring light and colour into the dream world, but the dream faded.

451-OBE: Being Vajrayogini practising mindfulness

 

8:49am

I've been doing mindfulness all day long as a new technique.

And today night, throughout the night, I also did mindfulness

according to Satipatthana and based on this Joseph Goldstein.

And I got up pass urine, drink water, at 5 something

and back to bed and did mindfulness as well.

And then towards morning, I got an idea.

I combined Vajrayogini and mindfulness together

and I did breathing, feeling the whole body.

And breathing in, calming the whole body

breathing out, calming the whole body

and Vajrayogini combined. 

That means I imagined myself as Vajrayogini

and I also did the breathing, mindfulness.

And it worked, I was lying on my right.

And I came in and out, in and out of several dreams

and I also felt the hypnagogic state.

And then I was just coming out of one dream

where I felt I was in a room. It was a corridor, dark

and then I realized that this is a phase state.

And I will myself to clap and rub my hands.

And I managed to clap and rub my hands.

At first I was a bit too forceful

and I eased up a little bit.

And then managed to clap and rub more clearly.

I was so happy. I rubbed it and rubbed my hands

Then I bring my hands and rubbed my face

and rubbed my chest as well. And then the dream faded.

This is considered an OBE.

The important part about Joseph Goldstein's mindfulness is that

when he quoted the part from Satipatthana Sutta

where the Buddha taught:

To achieve mindfulness to a degree

just enough for bare knowledge for the continuity of mindfulness.

That means you don't have to be concerned with the content.

You just have to know that you are mindful, it's enough.

So I use that to let go of the stressful thoughts

and craving and so on for the experience of lucid dreams, OBE.

This is known as the mindfulness of the mind state.

And once the mind is calm, I let go.

I use awareness of mindfulness of the breathing

together with Vajrayogini.

Be aware of myself as Vajrayogini

and put her in my heart area.

Then just breathe and calm the body.

Breathe and be aware of the body and calm the body.

Breathing in and out, experiencing the whole body

and calm the body breathing in and out.

450-OBE: False Awakening-Trying to adjust sleeping mask (Mindfulness Technique)

 

8:26 am

Did mindfulness all night long, including the day, is a new technique.

And then got up several times to pass urine and drink water.

And then lying on my left, I had a false awakening.

I was trying to wear my face mask and adjust it.

In fact, I already was wearing my face mask, but I was not aware of it.

So I tried to wear my face mask and try to turn on my right, but I couldn't move.

It was very sluggish.

This is actually sleep paralysis, but I was not aware of it at first.

And then suddenly I realized that this is actually the phase state.

I could use my finger to rub, and I managed to rub my finger.

And I was already doing the exit technique.

I was going to exit already. Then the dream faded.

This is considered an OBE.

I kept absolutely still at every awakening and practiced mindfulness

as per Joseph Goldstein's Mindfulness audio and book: 

Mindfulness: A Practical Guide To Awakening

Mindfulness during day is lucid living, mindfulness during dreams is lucid dreaming.

Yesterday, I started Mindfulness as a means of inducing lucid dreams and OBE. I managed to be aware of the hypnagogic state multiple times during the night. Important not to overdo, just lightly - mindfulness.  Let's see how it goes. It is a science-backed method as evidenced by many journal research articles. 

449-LD: School Canteen Kuih Seller

 

8:54am

I did the Vajrayogini protocol before sleeping and also here and there throughout the night

as I get up to pass urine and drink water about three times.

And another time I became quite wide awake and had a bit difficulty going back to sleep but I practiced not minding that as long as I have Vajrayogini to accompany me.

And I just let it be and then I dream that I'm in a building I think it's a school building.

I was walking around in the daytime and I was looking at the floor walking when I suddenly realized that this is like an early morning type of feeling.

A familiar feeling and whenever I have this familiar early morning feeling I can

just easily say okay it's time to have a lucid dream.

So with that I intended to be a lucid dream and I became lucid.

I clapped my hands and rub my hands.

And as I walked out the door of the building I went out and I was walking towards the school canteen.

And as I walked I touched the ground rub it  and then I saw a tree on my left I went to grab the tree trunk and rub my hands up and down to keep lucidity going.

And I also looked and peered at my hands and then  and I saw the texture of my skin and the color the background also became more crystallized and the world become clearer and sharper.

And I remember to peer at my hands continuously and also to rub and also to touch everything as I walked. 

A school primary school boy walked past on my right from my right to the left he walked by and I grabbed him by the shoulders and touched him and could feel him clearly and that helped to increase the lucidity and maintain it as well.

I then reached the canteen and I was talking to myself and at that time I remembered I wanted to do mandala offering so I started to imagine a circular mandala in front of me.

I put both hands in front facing up and I tried to remember the details and somehow did not go through it.

I continued walking into the canteen and I saw there were people.

I think a few ladies selling kuih walking around selling cookies food walking around three Malay ladies I think.

And there were benches as well and tables.

And then there was a Malay small primary school student which is bald-headed and he walked past again from my right to the left and I followed him and touched his head and rubbed his head and I said very cute and in Malay I said very cute chomel and he walked away.

And then I asked the Malay lady in Bahasa Malaysia if all the answers in the exam were correct what should I give full marks.

And she like uh say no or something like that then I asked her then you are being very strict and she said yes also in Malay.

And then I sat down in front of her and stared at her in the face and she was quite

um top heavy but I ignored that for a while and then I heard sounds and dream faded.

My mistake was I did not keep my palms on my hands rubbing continuously.

If I had done that when the dream faded I could have re-entered the dream with my hands.

Also at the point where I want to manifest mandala I could not recall the details so I had to pause and think and I was afraid that when I did that the dream would collapse.

Maybe a solution to this is to is to rehearse during the day what I want to do in the dream.

Rehearsing during the day.

Another thing about the Malay lady sitting down. 

When I saw that she was top heavy and had some feelings,

I could have transformed her, imagine her as Vajrayogini and use that as transformation

of the lust.

The things that I did right in this dream is to constantly touch objects

and then constantly rub my fingers & my hands together and then clap it.

And also avoid staring at any objects for too long.  Just continue moving, looking everywhere & changing the object that I am looking at always.

And then also remember to always keep moving, keep walking, don't stop.

If you stop at one location too long the dream might collapse.

And I also remember to avoid looking straight up at the horizon.

There was one time I tried to look straight and I saw the entire interior of the canteen clearly but then, it was only a split second & then I looked back down again.

In this lucid dream I'm lying down on my left.

Another thing that I did right is that even though I can't sleep I don't mind as long as I have Vajrayogini to keep me company and I have devotion in her and I trust in her and surrender to her.

A point to note. After the dream faded I wanted initially to continue with to complete the sadhana but I fear that I better recall the dream because if I continue with the sadhana I will most probably forget a lot of the details of the dream so I instead chose to recall the dream while lying completely still and unmoving until I can get the details enough to do this recording.

Maybe when I finish this recording then I will do the sadhana and dedication and also gratitude for Vajrayogini.

So now I think I have established a new end-of-dream post-dream protocol.

The post-dream protocol is firstly, to remember your details of the dream

clearly as much as you can.

Rehearse, go through it again in your mind until you can remember

the details as best as you can.

And then secondly, while doing the recording of the dream,

mention the difficulties that you faced and the mistakes that you made in the dream

and how you should solve it in the future so that you can learn from the mistakes.

And then thirdly mention all the things you did right in the dream so that when you view this recording in the future you can reinforce those things and remember to do them again in future dreams.

And then finally, fourthly, when you finish everything recording then you do your complete whatever you did not do in the dream for example the sadhana and also the dedication of merits and also the gratitude and devotion prayers to Vajrayogini.

448-OBE: Vajrayogini devotion at the heart loving-kindness

 

6:30am:

I did the Vajrayogini protocol.

I also tried the NRA but then felt it is too much and then switched back to Vajrayogini protocol.

I got up, went to the toilet, passed urine and then went lying down and did the Vajrayogini protocol.

And lying on my left, before I went back to bed, I did the prayer at the altar of Vajrayogini.

And I prayed for her to bless me with lucid dream and OBE.

Before sleeping tonight, I also offered mandala mudra and prayed for the same thing.

So now I'm lying on my left and I just rested in Vajrayogini.

And I felt the phase state, the familiar phase state and I allow it to deepen.

It is like floating backwards and like falling down.

And at first, I keep telling myself to feel the flying upwards and falling down backwards.

And then later on, I just let go and allow it to deepen spontaneously.

And then it worked. I then tried to clap my hands and rub it and I managed to feel my hands and clap it.

And I was so happy that I could feel my hands. It manifested.

And then I now rubbed my bed on my left and then rubbed with my right hands on the mattress.

And then I moved to the side of the bed frame and rubbed it as well with both hands.

And used that as a means to put both my feet on the wooden floor of my bedroom.

And I stood up and I rubbed the curtains on my left with my left hand and with my right hand I rubbed the mattress of the bed.

And it felt so real, I could feel it.

And I take my time, walk slowly to the altar of Vajrayogini in front.

And I then put my palms together and bent and paid respect and thanked Vajrayogini for this out of body experience.

I felt so grateful to her.

And what made this work also is my devotion to Vajrayogini.

Devotion is the key.

I practiced it during the day, all day long, devotion and also practiced devotion throughout the night.

So now I finished paying gratitude to Vajrayogini, turned right and walked to the door of my bedroom.

I took my time, I touched everything on the left and whatever I could touch to keep the lucidity going.

And when I reached the door, I put my left hand on the door knob and opened the door.

And I thought whatever is going to appear before I open the door, let it be.

I didn't expect anything.

So when I opened the door and stepped out, it was outdoors.

And open air, like in the sky, I can see white everywhere, like white clouds.

And I was half expecting a room, but I got this instead.

And the dream faded.

And I did not do peering.

That was my mistake.

I should have peered at my hands in order to crystallize and bring in objects in the world.

But I stared at open infinity and the white.

And that was probably why the dream faded.

After the dream faded, I continued to do sadhana to Vajradhara and the four deities,

pray for blessings individually.

Mahakala for removing the outer obstacles.

Vajrayogini for bliss and emptiness.

Chenrezig for compassion.

And Green Tara for removing inner obstacles.

And I prayed to bless all sentient beings as well.

And also myself to grant me lucid dreams and OBE every night.

Then I did dedication of merits.

I forgot to do the mandala offering.

That was my goal before I went to bed.

When I faced the open air, besides trying to peer my hands,

I could have also tried to look down and land on the ground,

maybe in the green field or even the wooden floor or cement floor,

and rub the floor with my hands.

That would have stabilized the dream.

Also, I should have peered at my hands from the start.

The moment I got up and stood up and touched the curtains,

I should have peered at my hands or even peered at the curtain fabric,

look at the curtain fabric or look at the mattress fabric

or even look at the floor texture.

And this peering should have started early in order to crystallize the dream

and should have been continuously done non-stop.

Don't just look at objects in front,

but also continue to alternate between peering and looking at objects.

One thing I did right was that after I went back to bed,

I don't mind keeping awake, just lying down doing nothing,

but just resting with devotion in Vajrayogini.

That's the thing I did right.

Not minding that I just keep awake,

just stay awake is okay so long as you have devotion in Vajrayogini.

After a while, it happened.

Another thing I did right was not only to do generation stage,

but completion stage.

That means I take Vajrayogini to be empty as a projection of the mind

and also take everything to be a projection of the mind

and there is no in and out.

Everything is a projection of the mind.

And thirdly, to see that even the projection of the thought itself,

the thought of the projection itself is a projection,

and then rest in emptiness after that

and just see everything as projection whenever any thoughts or anything comes up.

I did this multiple times throughout the night.

And I think in the day as well occasionally,

that after all is the goal of the Dharma practice,

to see emptiness in form and to see form as emptiness.

During the day, I also did mandala offering as accumulation practice.

I view it as spiritual currency,

the engine that allows attainments to be achieved.

If there is no time, at least the basic minimum is mandala offering.

I also practiced skillful means,

that is to convert all anger to lust

and also to view my wife's family problems as an opportunity for practice,

transmute the negative feelings and view it as a positive one

and also try to use the pride instead of pride for this supernatural ability

to take it as more fuel for devotion towards Vajrayogini and also the Dharma practice.

Earlier throughout and occasionally in the night,

I also put Vajrayogini in the heart,

that is the recommended location for Vajrayogini in the heart area.

And that was also the last thing I think,

just prior to experiencing the phase state,

by visualizing, imagining Vajrayogini to be at the heart area.

It is also the ideal place if you are having devotion and loving-kindness towards Vajrayogini.

Excellent.

Maybe I can use Vajrayogini as a means to loving-kindness,

develop the loving-kindness towards Vajrayongini at the heart area and radiate it to all sentient beings.

Also compassion.

Devotion is the same as loving-kindness.

Use devotion and then take it as loving-kindness

and then towards Vajrayogini and then radiate it to all sentient beings.